Come Clean.....

Hi!

Well, I go to work soon. I work with a co-worker who is okay. What I don't like that she disappears for hours on end and when she did it in the beginning (when I started to work there) I went crazy!

Anyway, I am excited that I am learning how to cook but I want to even try something newer. I do not know what but I want to. I love reading books, and want to write more stories but just cannot do it. However, I am given the opportunity to write a paper in world mythology and it can be on your own myth so I know I want to write.

I am excited because I cannot wait to reveal the symbolism behind it. I came up with it recently so hopefully my professor likes it!

I had a weird dream last night: The first one was with an old crush who was making a fancy dinner for three couples; one included his brother and sister in law, not sure what the other couple was, and he was stressing out like crazy. I asked where his date was, and he said he didn't have a date, then it ended there.

Then my second dream was Downton Themed: Matthew and Mary divorced, Matthew marries Daisy, and Mary marries Tom. It was strange!

I wish my one old crush would come clean; I know someone suggested I make up my own closure but I would like to know why he refused to date me. I know it wasn't because his family; his family likes me a lot!

I had this whole life planned where we'd go to prom, then starting after that. Maybe, we might have been engaged at this point, but anyway, he's off to Australia for a whole year and as long as I don't do anything with CEF, I will probably never see him again :( or anyone for that matter.

I am hoping to help out at the camps sometime during the summer. I am hoping to get some community services hours in. I need 25 for the associates and usually 50 for the bachelor's but I am going to see if the 25 can carry over but I highly doubt it.

There's really not a lot of volunteer opportunities in the area. I go to a small church, and CEF has been my place to volunteer. I am hoping to get more involved again but I am looking around for other places too. I hope to help out at a pregnancy center too.

I think what bothers me about relationship advice is basically when people tell you it doesn't complete you or you won't find complete happiness, then why is one still in that relationship? I know relationships aren't perfect but if you are saying "it's not as good as it sounds" then why are you one as well?

Anyway, I read this interesting article on Boundless.org. It was about how guys are actually ready for marriage, but they just don't jump in so easily as ladies do. There is an on/off switch when it comes to marriage; guys almost have to see the big picture whereas girls see the potential where that big picture comes from.

So, I guess I won't be getting married because most guys put me in the friends category almost as soon as they meet me. There is one guy who has been staring at me for three months at school during lunch and I am going to ask him a bold question so he will stop it. My friend says we could get married but a Christian wouldn't be so bold as he has been. The cafe two sides: one side is quieter and one side is louder; you know which side I sit in, lolz

Anyway, he sometimes would sit next to the window and my roommates noticed it. Why he won't talk to me is weird. Someone said I might have a "brainy" aura, but hopefully he will stop it because even though he's tall, dark, and handsome, I know he's not a Christian.

NO, I will not meet my future spouse at the retreat either! I am determined NOT to!

Okay, off to work!

Faith.