Chi Li can kick butt

Hi!

I am feeling a little better. After going to the grocery store, getting laundry done, doing some world mythology homework, getting my American Novels homework done for the week, hanging out with friends, eating Olive Garden leftovers, and reading Harry Potter (not all in that order) I feel much better.

I wish I was one of those hardcore feminists who do not need men in their lives. I think logical people and hardcore feminists have better lives than needy, romantic females like me. They seem more content with their lives and do not care for anything else.

However, logical people do not look at life as emotional people do. Logical people see everything as a plan;  an emotional person looks at things at the moment and throws the plan out the window based on their moods.

But I have always asked the question: what's wrong with me? When I should be asking what's wrong with them?

You see, I dress nicely, I work, I get good grades, I am not afraid of making fun of myself, I am getting more confident and confident, I have a mind of own, I love a good adventure, I have a sense of humor, I can take care of myself, and if you're a Christian, I love Jesus. So what's missing?!

Two conclusions:

1. The dreaded friendship zone. Like the prisoner of Azkaban, the friendship does not walls or actual cells to keep us chained up. It's simply when a man makes up his mind, that's it. No, ands, or ifs buts, simply "NO"
2. The light-bulb effect. Like Gru says in Despicable Me, "Light-Bulb" in his funny accent, that's how men work too. I read an article from boundless.org where it described men being able to commit but as easily as women do. It's simply a flip of the switch.

I feel for guys anyway, it has to be almost instantaneous! People might think the saying "love at first sight" is not true but the "you're not in the friendship zone at first sight" does happen a lot.

But anyway, Chi Li is an old Chinese myth where a woman had to be sacrificed to a huge serpent to keep the peace, but Chi Li, volunteered, risked her life, and saved the villages from this terrible monster.

I wish I was like her and Mulan. They wanted to do what was best for their families and they were blessed because of it. They didn't need men to help them; they were the stronger ones.

I am going to try think logically more often. I know having the peace of Jesus is the best way to go, but I need to learn not to fall so hard for a guy. Someone who doesn't miss me now, someone who never visits me, someone who doesn't want to hang out with me as often. He's content with his life now. He doesn't need me.

Anyway, Lent starts soon and I am giving talking about Nathan and seeing him, which isn't hard since he never leaves his townhouse.

Though, it will be hard not to think about him but I will try with prayer and learn to have more self control. I'm going after sexy beast at our cafe! lol joking!

Bye!

Faith.