in my own little world...give me your eyes...

so...

Even though I've practiced my speech, I'm nervous. Mostly because I have to get up at 6 for the 8 am service and the second service at 10:30 and the latter has usually 200 people at it. I'm kind of glad loft church didn't get back to me. I'll come home and find an email from Loft church LOL.

The church (the one I'm speaking at tomorrow) is friendly and is a big supporter of CEF but still it's hard when you have to raise your salary and I hate the part where I have to explain why I am speaking at church besides telling the church the ministry; I cringe every time. Thankfully, I only need to reach $900 to raise my goal. This church usually gives around $200, I have two more so that is around $100,200 or 300, then two churches I don't have to speak at, one will $500 and another $300. I have to send out letters though. Last year I made over $2,000 the goal but I'm content with whatever God provides because I know He will take care of me. :) My Sugar Daddy! Haha, I'm kidding!

Matt taught a lesson on how American Christians don't really pray. It's true. We are blessed as a nation and we forget it a lot. Most people don't know this but Samuel Adams actually was a Christian and once proclaimed a day to praise God. Most people don't think he is a Christian but if you want to investigate, go to David Barton/Wallbuilders.

Lecrae once said "Lack of prayer says you've bought into the lie that life is manageable and you've got everything under control" I told you in an earlier post about how after Matt's lesson I ran into a check point and how the state policeman insulted me as I was driving away. I almost thought "well, I don't want to be near that arrogant dude on the day judgement" but I actually prayed for him. 1) that if he wasn't a Christian, he would go to Christ. 2) if he was, that he would be humbled before the LORD.

"In my own little world" is a song about how a guy lives for himself and not for anybody else. It's by Matthew West.

"Give me your eyes" is by Brandon Heath (which he's amazing in concert) and it's about how a guy wants to look at people the way God does. Not how we do, which can be very harsh, but how God does. Honestly, if we looked at people the way God does, I think the world wouldn't be so sexist, racist, chauvinist, and abusive, but loving because He loves without looking at anything but the person. God isn't the scientist who looks at us and says "wow he/she looks aesthetically pleasing" but as for me (Faith) it's cool on how God isn't shallow....

sorry for going off the beaten path. I have to admit I'm nervous and this is the way I deal with my nerves. I'm tired but at the same time I know I have to wake up at six to be somewhere at 7:45 then speak 15, 20 or half hour later. Then the second service starts in 12 hours (it's 10:30 pm) prayers are appreciated!

so, in conclusion, I need to realize to pray with a deeper meaning, a deeper purpose, not just a chant, but something that comes from the heart. At least I have old faithful (my high graduation gift bible) and my utmost for His highest to guide me.

well, I have a long day because then I have a church down the street from me at 7 pm. That's why no Greek class and no volleyball. I can't wait till the 26th! =]

Goodnight, God bless, and talk to you later!

πίστις ( pistis)=Faith.