to be angry or not to be angry?
to be worried or not be worried?
to be annoyed or not to be annyoyed....
that is the question:
to be angry or not be angry:
This morning my sister comes in. She asks if it's okay to borrow an outfit, I say sure. I have two green dresses: one is a full on dress while another one is a a shirt and skirt. I thought she meant the full dress which she already has taken away from me but my speaking engagement outfit, the one I said she could never have....you probably know which one she took.....
Then she comes home, in another dress she took without my permission. When I asked her, she didn't apologize, all she said was "I was in a rush this morning" and "you borrow stuff from me all the time" well, I just returned pride and prejudice to her, and if she demands her old dressy pants and a shirt she never wore, I'll gladly give them back to her. She refuses to go clothes shopping, and assumes she can borrow anything she likes. Anyway, I don't know what to do. I want my clothes but should I be angry about it? She has a car, and works in Pottsville, so she's near a wal-mart and a Boscovs'. When she's in Lancaster she's near everything! So, I'm not sure......
to be worried or not to be worried
It's been a year since I have dated. There are plenty of guys out there; they just don't seem interested. my one guy friend Eric said that if a guy likes a girl "he'll ask her out" and I also read somewhere that "if he's not moving heaven and earth to be with you, then he's not that into you"
Well, I'm not even 2o and I don't want to be married now, so what's the point? I also want to look into the mission, however with me becoming a paralegal, I don't think that's happening.
I think I just feel that guys don't think as romantically interesting but only as a friend. I get it all the time: "nice, nice girl, nice friend and friend" and most guys are dating, on the verge of dating, pinning after their ex, or what I just said; only platonic-ness. One guy said, "that I was an amazing girl" he just didn't find me romantically interesting. His poor mother and sister; they're trying to set me up with him.
I mentioned about how at volleyball, a girl asked if I was dating...WHY?
People tell me: wait, initiate, pray, destiny, the one, the right one, God knows who He has in mind, ask him out, etc....
I do pray but the other stuff listed above, I'm either too desperate or too weak. Ughhhhhhh! Such B.S and crap makes my head spin....
No one has a straight answer what to do. But I know I can always pray, which I am doing.
To be annoyed or not to be annoyed
I wonder if it's okay to be angry at my sister and to wonder what will happen with my love life...oy, I don't know. Neither of those things have ruined my day, thank goodness.
I don't know what to do next. The only thing I did do was write a note on my closet door prohibiting her to borrow any more clothes. I'm not thrilled she didn't apologize or even think there's nothing wrong with it; she justifies her behavior by telling falsehoods that I borrow everything.
As for my love life, I have resolved only God knows if I'll ever marry. If I don't, I won't be like Estella's adoptive mother Miss Havingsham whose groom left her on her wedding day and stole her money and now she wears her wedding dress and sits there, watching the wedding cake get more disgusting and teach my nieces that they should hate men (from Great Expectations) but instead I'll devout my life to children knowing about (regardless of my relationship status)
So, whatever happens, happens....I know you might think I'm a liar but I think I've come to a realization that dating is really out of my control and since I don't want to be married until maybe my mid to late twenties then I won't be dating for awhile.
My mom asked me today if there was any guy at loft that I imagined myself married to? (wish is a question that is so out of the ordinary coming from my mom) and I thought most of the guys at loft are amazing. They love the Lord deeply, they're involved in some type of ministry whether at church or elsewhere, they have senses of humor and (most) are up for an adventure; some do or want to do ministry full time; pretty much all of them really kind. So, I think there are a couple of guys named Ben R. and Josh M. are not my type and they're a little older and Sam and Ben H. because they do not attend church which thank goodness they come to loft. So, besides those guys (also one guy is engaged, another who comes sometimes is in a relationship) I wouldn't say no if they asked me. But they're not the fooling around type and I respect them for that.
so, I feel better LOL! But I know she's probably mad at me. Talk to you all later! Faith. <3
I don't know what to do next. The only thing I did do was write a note on my closet door prohibiting her to borrow any more clothes. I'm not thrilled she didn't apologize or even think there's nothing wrong with it; she justifies her behavior by telling falsehoods that I borrow everything.
As for my love life, I have resolved only God knows if I'll ever marry. If I don't, I won't be like Estella's adoptive mother Miss Havingsham whose groom left her on her wedding day and stole her money and now she wears her wedding dress and sits there, watching the wedding cake get more disgusting and teach my nieces that they should hate men (from Great Expectations) but instead I'll devout my life to children knowing about (regardless of my relationship status)
So, whatever happens, happens....I know you might think I'm a liar but I think I've come to a realization that dating is really out of my control and since I don't want to be married until maybe my mid to late twenties then I won't be dating for awhile.
My mom asked me today if there was any guy at loft that I imagined myself married to? (wish is a question that is so out of the ordinary coming from my mom) and I thought most of the guys at loft are amazing. They love the Lord deeply, they're involved in some type of ministry whether at church or elsewhere, they have senses of humor and (most) are up for an adventure; some do or want to do ministry full time; pretty much all of them really kind. So, I think there are a couple of guys named Ben R. and Josh M. are not my type and they're a little older and Sam and Ben H. because they do not attend church which thank goodness they come to loft. So, besides those guys (also one guy is engaged, another who comes sometimes is in a relationship) I wouldn't say no if they asked me. But they're not the fooling around type and I respect them for that.
so, I feel better LOL! But I know she's probably mad at me. Talk to you all later! Faith. <3
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