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I had a great day. Before I went to loft, I saw Ben who was working. I wanted to say goodbye to him because I wouldn't see for another two weeks. I feel silly because I realize he doesn't want a relationship. I had to wait a half an hour before I could talk to him!
Then I went to loft. It was fun and I got to hold little Marianne who has a really bad case of colic. Becky Jo has a way of comforting babies, and Marianne just feel asleep. Becky Jo would have been an awesome teacher or some type of children's worker if she had gone to college but she works at a daycare and I'm sure she does an amazing job there too. At least I'll visit Grace and Marianne. She's cute!
So, after hearing an awesome message of how we should pray for people's salvation instead of our convenience or health I'm driving home when there was a check point. I've seen videos where cops get out of control so I was nervous. The statie I talked to was nice, but another one said "poor bugger's petrified" they all laughed. It hurt because I was thinking on how guys think about me before the check point. I don't think I'm girlfriend material simply because guys like girls who are fearless and I'm very fearful. I do get nervous easily but I'm trying to work through it and it's just hard. I should be fearless with the crud I've gone throughout high school (last year posts to get an idea)
So, if I do date, I'm sure the adrenaline junkie won't be after me. Even though I love a good rush, I can't do it all the time. I think that's what a guy wants: fearless and up for adventure anytime. I need to build up to it.
title is where Ben works and arrogant staties are the state police. Okay, long day tomorrow! Goodnight! Faith.
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