May 2009. Abby checked out Lancaster Bible college. Along there, she met Jeremy, who I discovered grew up in the area I lived in. We decide to meet at Cabela's. While there, I meet Joshua. He doesn't think I'm pretty but only quiet. I don't really find him that interesting...till later on.
We go geocaching, eat at McDs, hike at the Pinnacle in Hamburg (we become official 06/08/10), go walk around sweet arrow lake and eat at the Manheim diner (not all at once LOL!) Then I go to training school....
At training school, I met a guy named Dan. I thought he was attractive but I knew I wouldn't like him, just because I had Josh. But strange things started happening and though we never had an affair, my heart started to go to him. It got to the point where his now girlfriend gave me the biggest glare known to man-kind because her now boyfriend was looking at me. We got along great, he even hugged me goodbye.
After eight days of intense homework and seven days getting up at 6:30, not getting till 11, I was zonked. After a three hour hot car ride home, he wanted to see me but exhausted and feeling guilty, I told him I'd call him the next day. After church, I went to a picnic, forgetting him. I was wounded by my co-workers because they refused to help me and snapped at me when I had questions. June 28th, he changes our facebook relationship status. Didn't talk to me; just changed it. It became a bloodbath after that but you can read May-June 2009 posts of our adventure.
I admit, I feel guilty for liking a guy who lives in CT and will marry his now girlfriend very soon. It was pointless, stupid, and the ironic thing was, the lesson for that week was on temptation...epic fail Faith!
I have to admit, it's hard to see Dan with this girl who hates me so much. They are now leaving CEF and it's going to be hard for them because that's the only training they have. I really hope it works out for them.
CEF is my last summer. After seven years working (five volunteering, two getting paid) I've decided to retire and move on. I want to go to creation one day; a missions trip; even to the summer retreat at Loft! LOL! I'll be done in August.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll do it again...be with somebody and start feeling the temptation again. Thank goodness, I'm going to training school single and most of the guys are under 18 anyway so that's a relief! Ups and downs of being one the oldest. I won't really hang out with them because with the hectic schedule I'm going to bring a book on learning biblical Greek, a fun book, and a journal to document and post later. We do get an hour break everyday. I'll be happy to go to the bonfire, then church and Sunday school to go see my true and real friends!
Okay, goodnight! Love, Faith.
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