Ben and I

Ben and I. When I first met Ben, it was at my college church group, and sparks flew very quickly. As the months passed by I liked the fact he loves the LORD, then the more I got to know him, I learned he loves kids, missions; that’s he intelligent, patient, has a great work ethic, likes purple, art history, and motorcycles, and a sweet, kind guy who seem to know everything about me. Just because he’s a Christian and he’s nice, doesn’t mean it’ll work. The more I got to know him, the more I realized we had nothing in common. I prefer facebook and texting, he hates both. He prefers volleyball, I like soccer. He prefers country, I like Christian rap. He prefers star trek and star wars, I like star-gate. I like riding my scooter, he likes riding his bike. He likes stick shift, I’m horrible at it. So, what could we talk about? We mostly argued about these things….even though the tension is there. Though lately, things went downhill….whenever he’s tired, he won’t talk to me or goes after me saying me stuff. Yesterday he insulted me by saying people have bigger brains if they don’t like Lecrae……it hurt me very much and left a lot of confusion. I recently sent a message on my weird behavior yesterday…which I panicked when Jason called him to hang out with him, but Jason said Ben wasn’t thrilled to see me. So, today I sent him a message apologizing for my behavior but Ben won’t look at his facebook messages…..it hurt because he knows what it is about. I’m sadden it didn’t work out but I’m glad he’s up at PSU because it would have been awkward to have been around him. Because I’m not attending his church on Sundays but going to still going to Loft on Fridays, I won’t see him till November. By then, we’ll be moved on and forgotten about the whole thing. He once asked if my claddaugh necklace was the key to my heart, but if he wants to open my heart, he has to prove he truly cares for me and work hard for it. So, this is my goodbye to Ben. I will let you know when he tells me he doesn’t like me. Faith.