Hitting people's heads with your knee....

heyyy!


Well, today was interesting to say the least.

It actually started off badly with me embarrassing myself in front of class and then being bullied, by who I call the legal studies bully because she mocks everyone in the program. Cruelly and to a point where my one professor had to tell her to be quiet!

Then Contracts was a bit bad. I was stuck with the bully who made fun of my handwriting and spelling skills.

She told me if I want to be a lawyer, I should have my paralegal check my work. I told her I'm not going to law school. Then there was silence.

So, I'm going through some self doubt right now. I was tired in principles but I'm just frustrated with myself. I know working at the Hill won't ever come close to paying my loans but I don't know if I'm ready to deal with competitive lawyers.

My professor said if a student was a nice paralegal or lawyer, they should do contracts. He was looking at me.

Anyway, the day did get better. Thanks to non noncompetitive guys like Nate and Dave to goof off with.

Then I hung out with Courtney and Emily (the roommates) and we had fun.

I have never been competitive. Sometimes it comes out, but honestly, I'm more about having fun in sports. When it comes to homework, I do my work and do it well but I'm just plain scared that my misdiagnosis ADD.

Yep; I think it explains everything. I'm not going on medicine but I am getting books to learn how to cope with it. I hope my friends accept me for who I am as a person. I hope whoever I marry will too.

But I'm excited to go home and figure everything out, especially trying to make a schedule. I hate them, but I need them. I also need to learn to type slowly and try not to make anymore mistakes.

I also need to work on my handwriting skills. I'm thinking of writing something every-night to get use to handwriting well.

My Momma has always said, "the best revenge is being successful."

I'm also going to try to see if I can get a second opinion on my seizure condition to see if there anything else wrong with me.

Yes, I've always been crazy. Apparently, being a strong-willed, wanting to play all the time child is a child with ADD. I just wish my parents would have addressed it.

I also admit, I've been eating like crap too. I've cut my soda (only drink once a day) but still drink Sprite Zero.

So, I'm praying these things work and I can, hopefully, become a successful paralegal.

Here's where I hit someone's head with my knee:

During Lunch, I accidentally went ahead of somebody because he was goofing and I thought he was with someone else and Carlos, our somewhat strange  guy behind the counter, started laughing and then as I turned around, he was bent down and somehow, my knee hit his head.

I was shocked at the weirdness of it all. But Nate, Dave, and I laughed it off. Love those guys; they make my day all the time. Love my girls too. I'm going to miss them like crazy.

Funny, right? Yep. Things happen in less than year and when you see the same person for five days a week, you become closer.

I hope I become a better version of myself. I hope I am a living testimony of how God's grace worked through my two disorders and through my fears.

I think I'm doing what my parents refused to do; which is acknowledge there is something wrong with me.

I'm off to bed. On Sunday, I am going to start myself on a schedule where I get up, eat small meals throughout the day, and take my daily walk.

Talk to you all later!

-Faith.