wow, it's been two weeks!
anyway, I've been busy with school. Best semester since my first. I've switched my major to paralegal studies. I've decided to get my associates then take a year or two off working for either the Mennonite or the Brethren then possibly going for my bachelors at either Peirce or Central Penn because they are online. I don't think marriage is on the table till later in life or maybe not at all...we'll see.
The guy I was telling you about whose mom and sister wanted me to be with I asked him out. He said though I was an amazing girl he wasn't romantically interested. It was funny I went to Good Friday service at his church and I was trying to avoid him and I was going to the bathroom we almost head-butt I kind of knew it and he was like "sorry...hi Faith" and I quietly said "hi!" but it was a blow to me because I can imagine life with him. It would be crazy and fun. you might think it's a start but I think he'll meet his girl when she walks in the church and that's it. I'm still pretty hurt by it. I can't understand what's wrong with me! I feel like my romance button is off. But I decided for now to just be friends with the guys.
I have a great group of friends who don't judge or pressure me to date! They like me for me. I'm so excited because I get to see fast five with Stef and Jason, good friends of mine. I go to the most hilarious bible study. They are amazing.
Tonight is the banquet for CEF. I just found I'm the official camp photographer and I'm excited though I know my co-worker who loves photography will not like that. She is told she is great at everything and now....my boss says I'm a good photographer. I remember when I was younger I wanted to a photographer but photography is a dying art and I felt discouraged because anyone can pick up a camera and they are a good photographer. I hope to take photography classes and teach people photo classes on the side when I'm a paralegal.
I also hope to find an apartment in the Southern Schuylkill, Northern Berks/Lebanon area and attend the church where they have Loft. Those are very loose plans because God can change them anytime soon.
Anyway, I speak for CEF tomorrow at my church then for Rachel's graduation! I need to start practicing.
God bless! Faith.
:)
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
medz and cleanin'
hi!
I'm on meds for tonsillitis,which is between a sore throat and getting tonsils pulled out. If it keeps up (more than several times a year) I'll probably get them pulled...hopefully on a break.
The pills are plastic and really big, but I swallowed one down, so, it's all good.
Tomorrow I go to WV with Rachel...still really nervous about driving the first two hours but I think I will do a good job. Just praying I will do a good job.
Tonight we're cleaning the church, then I come back for homework...lovely :(...NOT! I'm hoping to finish history and health when I get back from cleaning.
I need to stop listening to Onerepublic! They're a great band and a lot of the times, they describe my life...too much....
I'm hoping to write a short story of sorts this Saturday :) I will let you know if I finish it or not :)
Okay, bye! Faith.
I'm on meds for tonsillitis,which is between a sore throat and getting tonsils pulled out. If it keeps up (more than several times a year) I'll probably get them pulled...hopefully on a break.
The pills are plastic and really big, but I swallowed one down, so, it's all good.
Tomorrow I go to WV with Rachel...still really nervous about driving the first two hours but I think I will do a good job. Just praying I will do a good job.
Tonight we're cleaning the church, then I come back for homework...lovely :(...NOT! I'm hoping to finish history and health when I get back from cleaning.
I need to stop listening to Onerepublic! They're a great band and a lot of the times, they describe my life...too much....
I'm hoping to write a short story of sorts this Saturday :) I will let you know if I finish it or not :)
Okay, bye! Faith.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
God's my cruise control.....
I will not lie, but I am concerned.
I'm just praying about the paralegal thing because I think I only want an associates for the time being then go later on for the bachelors. Anyway, that's a far away thingy.
I'm going to call and see if I can switch over to paralegal studies, but I'll just focus on current schooling for the time being.
Well, the WV trip is on but I am nervous because I drive the first two hours! Very scary for me.....but I'm excited for my first official roadtrip. I know I must do this (even though it's way outside of my comfort zone) because if I want to do day trips, I shouldn't expect the other person to do all the driving...prayers, prayers....
I know you're wondering about my blog title but here's why:
God helps me (the on button) and sets the way (mileage) with everything in life and I can always stop and know He is in control completely. Sometimes I kick myself for to remind myself of that.
I know, weird analogy, but it makes sense to me.
Well, getting sleepy....I'll let you know more tomorrow!
Faith.
I'm just praying about the paralegal thing because I think I only want an associates for the time being then go later on for the bachelors. Anyway, that's a far away thingy.
I'm going to call and see if I can switch over to paralegal studies, but I'll just focus on current schooling for the time being.
Well, the WV trip is on but I am nervous because I drive the first two hours! Very scary for me.....but I'm excited for my first official roadtrip. I know I must do this (even though it's way outside of my comfort zone) because if I want to do day trips, I shouldn't expect the other person to do all the driving...prayers, prayers....
I know you're wondering about my blog title but here's why:
God helps me (the on button) and sets the way (mileage) with everything in life and I can always stop and know He is in control completely. Sometimes I kick myself for to remind myself of that.
I know, weird analogy, but it makes sense to me.
Well, getting sleepy....I'll let you know more tomorrow!
Faith.
much better
Hi!
After sleep twelve out of twenty four hours yesterday, I feel much better!
I have a cold/sore throat but I thought I might of had the flu, so, I'm glad, I'm feeling better.
Anyway, instead of seeing Jane Eyre, I'm going with Rachel to West Virginia. I'm a little nervous, since my parents think it's a good for me to drive for three hours then Rachel for the other half. I'm very nervous since I haven't driven in areas I've never drove in, so, it's way out of my comfort zone, but it would be better for Rachel.
Anyway, I need to get ready for school!
Faith.
After sleep twelve out of twenty four hours yesterday, I feel much better!
I have a cold/sore throat but I thought I might of had the flu, so, I'm glad, I'm feeling better.
Anyway, instead of seeing Jane Eyre, I'm going with Rachel to West Virginia. I'm a little nervous, since my parents think it's a good for me to drive for three hours then Rachel for the other half. I'm very nervous since I haven't driven in areas I've never drove in, so, it's way out of my comfort zone, but it would be better for Rachel.
Anyway, I need to get ready for school!
Faith.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
blah, sick
hi....
I have a really bad sore that I can barely talk and swallowing at times without it hurting so much. I had to cancel club because I knew I would lose my voice at some point or another.
In other news, I registered for classes, which I'm excited about because I'm going to take a paralegal class! Still debating whether to change my major to paralegal studies or not (where I am now)....hmmm
Besides no club, I'm just doing homework, hopefully some fun reading, and I hope to sleep better than I did last night.
Okay, bye!
I have a really bad sore that I can barely talk and swallowing at times without it hurting so much. I had to cancel club because I knew I would lose my voice at some point or another.
In other news, I registered for classes, which I'm excited about because I'm going to take a paralegal class! Still debating whether to change my major to paralegal studies or not (where I am now)....hmmm
Besides no club, I'm just doing homework, hopefully some fun reading, and I hope to sleep better than I did last night.
Okay, bye!
Monday, April 11, 2011
This if the stuff.....
haha, hi there,
Today I got a 95 on my religion research paper! I'm so happy. I wish for the 100, but I am very happy. West civ was canceled. This class has been canceled 5 times!
1. Because of snow (twice)
2. Sick
3. Car problems
4. Personal problems
and don't forget we went for pizza....I guess that is considered canceled class. So, 6?
Anyway, I'm waiting to register for classes. Still debating to change my major at school for paralegal studies or not....thinking, thinking,
I don't want to go to Kutztown due to all the crazy requirements. Peirce is good but it is in Philly and I thought I finish classes at LCCC then go there for a year or two (Peirce), then be done!
Tomorrow is the second to last club...sad, happy, but sad.
Hopefully I get my #2nd exam from West Civ on Wednesday.
I also have a sore throat. Yuck :P
The song is by Francesca Battistelli:
"This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"
Very true! I am very blessed through all the chaos!
Goodnight, Faith.
Today I got a 95 on my religion research paper! I'm so happy. I wish for the 100, but I am very happy. West civ was canceled. This class has been canceled 5 times!
1. Because of snow (twice)
2. Sick
3. Car problems
4. Personal problems
and don't forget we went for pizza....I guess that is considered canceled class. So, 6?
Anyway, I'm waiting to register for classes. Still debating to change my major at school for paralegal studies or not....thinking, thinking,
I don't want to go to Kutztown due to all the crazy requirements. Peirce is good but it is in Philly and I thought I finish classes at LCCC then go there for a year or two (Peirce), then be done!
Tomorrow is the second to last club...sad, happy, but sad.
Hopefully I get my #2nd exam from West Civ on Wednesday.
I also have a sore throat. Yuck :P
The song is by Francesca Battistelli:
"This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"
Very true! I am very blessed through all the chaos!
Goodnight, Faith.
youngest child
hi!
Yahoo! Had an article on how your order affects your love life.
Biologically, I'm the youngest child, but personality I'm the youngest AND middle child. here's why: (I also talk in parentheses)
If you’re a youngest child...
You’re all about fun. The most outgoing of all in the birth order spectrum, youngest children live to have a good time (it may be because your parents were more laid-back by the time you came along). On a typical first date you’ll have your date laughing so hard that water shoots out his or her nose. In fact, “most famous comedians are youngest children,” says Dr. Leman. A partial list of famous examples: Jon Stewart, Jim Carrey, Ellen DeGeneres, Steve Martin and Eddie Murphy. And forget ho-hum plans like dinner and a movie; you love to do the unexpected, often on the spur of the moment. You’re the type to take someone to a party only to whisper, “Let’s get out of here” two minutes later... and then convince your date to take a road trip to Atlantic City or Vegas for the weekend.
Your love challenge: “Babies are the least financially dependable,” (this is me talking: NOT TRUE! I am very careful with my money) warns Dr. Leman (it comes from being, well, taken care of all your life). That means your date may be stuck picking up the tab when your credit card is maxed out (me: which never HAS been and NEVER WILL BE). Also, some youngest children — not you, of course! (me: haha) — use that last-born charm and charisma to be a bit, ahem, manipulative, says Dr. Leman. That breed of baby will leave a date and sneak off to hit golf balls with pals or something similar, leaving the other person wondering what happened.
Best match: Either the oldest child (they serve as a good counterbalance in a parent-child sort of way) or middle child (they value friendships, so they totally understand why you love being the life of the party).
Okay, I've always gone after the oldest child type, but there's a middle child dude I'm interested....hmm
Then, the personality middle child:
If you’re a middle child...
Contrary to their reputation as insecure messes (me:I use to be )(example: Jan Brady), middle kids actually make stable and loyal partners. “One thing you’re not is spoiled,” Dr. Leman says. You probably grew up feeling like you got less attention than your siblings(not from my parents, but from other people), and that drives you to work for every perk — including a happy relationship. Also in the “positives” category: You’re “a compromiser and negotiator,” Dr. Leman notes, so you’ll give your partner plenty of say in everything from how quickly your relationship progresses to where you go on vacation together. And your romance should be free of daily petty squabbles (middles hate conflict. me talking: TRUE!); instead, you try to put others at ease.
Your love challenge: Opening up. Have you ever been told you’re hard to read? (Yes, though my mom says it's not that hard) “Middle children can be very secretive,” (well, I've become more discreet and will not gossip) says Dr. Leman. “They got hammered by the first-born and swindled by the baby, so they keep their cards close to their chests.” You’re also not the best communicator when you’re upset (AMEN!). But if you learn to speak up instead of holding your anger in (um....), you’ll have a more harmonious relationship.
Best match: Youngest child. “Middles aren’t as threatened by last-borns as they are by exacting first-borns,” says Dr. Leman, so the odds are good for open communication.
My parents said I'm a mediator but I don't think so, because if I know there are really big fights (my mom and my sis fought throughout her senior year) I stay out of it. Though, my mom says said it was because I was young (15) I do like it when people are happy. I hate hostility and intenseness. I know I could do that as a career.... never mind....
Well.....there's my personality in an nutshell. I guess for me, Middle or Eldest child works. But I wanted to share that with you.
Today I find out my west civ grade and my religion research paper. I'm praying I've gotten good grades because I studied very hard, especially the research paper.
Okay, I'll let you know how it goes! Faith.
Yahoo! Had an article on how your order affects your love life.
Biologically, I'm the youngest child, but personality I'm the youngest AND middle child. here's why: (I also talk in parentheses)
If you’re a youngest child...
You’re all about fun. The most outgoing of all in the birth order spectrum, youngest children live to have a good time (it may be because your parents were more laid-back by the time you came along). On a typical first date you’ll have your date laughing so hard that water shoots out his or her nose. In fact, “most famous comedians are youngest children,” says Dr. Leman. A partial list of famous examples: Jon Stewart, Jim Carrey, Ellen DeGeneres, Steve Martin and Eddie Murphy. And forget ho-hum plans like dinner and a movie; you love to do the unexpected, often on the spur of the moment. You’re the type to take someone to a party only to whisper, “Let’s get out of here” two minutes later... and then convince your date to take a road trip to Atlantic City or Vegas for the weekend.
Your love challenge: “Babies are the least financially dependable,” (this is me talking: NOT TRUE! I am very careful with my money) warns Dr. Leman (it comes from being, well, taken care of all your life). That means your date may be stuck picking up the tab when your credit card is maxed out (me: which never HAS been and NEVER WILL BE). Also, some youngest children — not you, of course! (me: haha) — use that last-born charm and charisma to be a bit, ahem, manipulative, says Dr. Leman. That breed of baby will leave a date and sneak off to hit golf balls with pals or something similar, leaving the other person wondering what happened.
Best match: Either the oldest child (they serve as a good counterbalance in a parent-child sort of way) or middle child (they value friendships, so they totally understand why you love being the life of the party).
Okay, I've always gone after the oldest child type, but there's a middle child dude I'm interested....hmm
Then, the personality middle child:
If you’re a middle child...
Contrary to their reputation as insecure messes (me:I use to be )(example: Jan Brady), middle kids actually make stable and loyal partners. “One thing you’re not is spoiled,” Dr. Leman says. You probably grew up feeling like you got less attention than your siblings(not from my parents, but from other people), and that drives you to work for every perk — including a happy relationship. Also in the “positives” category: You’re “a compromiser and negotiator,” Dr. Leman notes, so you’ll give your partner plenty of say in everything from how quickly your relationship progresses to where you go on vacation together. And your romance should be free of daily petty squabbles (middles hate conflict. me talking: TRUE!); instead, you try to put others at ease.
Your love challenge: Opening up. Have you ever been told you’re hard to read? (Yes, though my mom says it's not that hard) “Middle children can be very secretive,” (well, I've become more discreet and will not gossip) says Dr. Leman. “They got hammered by the first-born and swindled by the baby, so they keep their cards close to their chests.” You’re also not the best communicator when you’re upset (AMEN!). But if you learn to speak up instead of holding your anger in (um....), you’ll have a more harmonious relationship.
Best match: Youngest child. “Middles aren’t as threatened by last-borns as they are by exacting first-borns,” says Dr. Leman, so the odds are good for open communication.
My parents said I'm a mediator but I don't think so, because if I know there are really big fights (my mom and my sis fought throughout her senior year) I stay out of it. Though, my mom says said it was because I was young (15) I do like it when people are happy. I hate hostility and intenseness. I know I could do that as a career.... never mind....
Well.....there's my personality in an nutshell. I guess for me, Middle or Eldest child works. But I wanted to share that with you.
Today I find out my west civ grade and my religion research paper. I'm praying I've gotten good grades because I studied very hard, especially the research paper.
Okay, I'll let you know how it goes! Faith.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Nepotism
hi,
we did get to go out for dinner. It was nice. According to mom I almost killed her and I driving Marvin (their car) but I say nay.
Anyway, the title of the post means you pass on something for instance Bob Jones, Oral Roberts, Joel Osteen and many others job to job without education and/or experience. It makes you wonder of how church leadership is handled if the torch passed from the 1st generation to the 2nd generation to the 3rd generation. I wonder which generation stops it? Or does it stop at all? What happens if the next generation doesn't want to do it, even if groomed so?
I'm glad I'm a girl because I don't face favoritism, egotistic praising, idol worshipers patronizing (mostly girls) peoples do to guys
Though I would prefer not the back-stabbing, putting heart on platter, blood-thirsty sharks, gossipy, clique, competitive, needs a mood ring called: the teenage girl and grown women.
Yes, I get mad, but mostly at PEOPLE, not their gender. Girls do drive me crazy because of those tendencies. You're probably thinking "what a hypocrite, she's out for blood right now!" I use to be. (it seems to me, girls do more wrong to me than guys....?) anyway, I've learned to forgive because God does not like it when we don't forgive each other. I saw a church sign today:
"Christianity is active forgiveness" (not exactly quoted but very close) and I need to follow to anyone, no matter what the gender.
As for girls: we shouldn't put each other down. Even in the beginning of time (Sarah and Hagar, Rachel and Leah, Hannah and her husband's wife, Mary and Martha) we've fought with each other....we shouldn't. I can't understand why. It really bother me. If you're a girl, why are you out for blood? I mean for other girls? Why do you worship every movement a guy makes, but yet a girl is torn to pieces.
Thank goodness, in the college youth group, there is no out for blood girls. It's a nice break from high school. So glad high school is high school, lol.
As for guys (probably won't get married for this reason) they are not perfect. They are part of the fall. Adam didn't have to listen to Eve. If he was the strong man he was suppose to be, then he could of easily said no. Each patriarch and leader had problems of their own (Abraham, Isaac, Jacob...etc) but we don't seem to attack them as much. I am not insulting Adam, but think before you think there is a thing called a flawless ANYbody. Only Jesus is.
I am not a femme-Nazi. I am a person who is bothered by all types of nepotism: in the family, school, work, and even the church is guilty of so (again, Oral Roberts, Bob Jones....Joel Osteen)
I actually was going to talk about the ministry. Don't know what spur this note on.
Disclaimer: I am not perfect, I pray to God everyday not to judge males and females by gender and stereotypes. I've met great people who I had judged but they prove me wrong. God has a funny way about that......
In conclusion: when there should be praise: Praise all! God has given us different gifts and we're suppose to use them. Don't abuse other gifts God has given to His children. I don't think God appreciates that too much.
Goodbye!
P.S. Ephesians 4:29. I cannot remember the verses on favoritism, but I know they're there in ze New Testament.
Bye again!
we did get to go out for dinner. It was nice. According to mom I almost killed her and I driving Marvin (their car) but I say nay.
Anyway, the title of the post means you pass on something for instance Bob Jones, Oral Roberts, Joel Osteen and many others job to job without education and/or experience. It makes you wonder of how church leadership is handled if the torch passed from the 1st generation to the 2nd generation to the 3rd generation. I wonder which generation stops it? Or does it stop at all? What happens if the next generation doesn't want to do it, even if groomed so?
I'm glad I'm a girl because I don't face favoritism, egotistic praising, idol worshipers patronizing (mostly girls) peoples do to guys
Though I would prefer not the back-stabbing, putting heart on platter, blood-thirsty sharks, gossipy, clique, competitive, needs a mood ring called: the teenage girl and grown women.
Yes, I get mad, but mostly at PEOPLE, not their gender. Girls do drive me crazy because of those tendencies. You're probably thinking "what a hypocrite, she's out for blood right now!" I use to be. (it seems to me, girls do more wrong to me than guys....?) anyway, I've learned to forgive because God does not like it when we don't forgive each other. I saw a church sign today:
"Christianity is active forgiveness" (not exactly quoted but very close) and I need to follow to anyone, no matter what the gender.
As for girls: we shouldn't put each other down. Even in the beginning of time (Sarah and Hagar, Rachel and Leah, Hannah and her husband's wife, Mary and Martha) we've fought with each other....we shouldn't. I can't understand why. It really bother me. If you're a girl, why are you out for blood? I mean for other girls? Why do you worship every movement a guy makes, but yet a girl is torn to pieces.
Thank goodness, in the college youth group, there is no out for blood girls. It's a nice break from high school. So glad high school is high school, lol.
As for guys (probably won't get married for this reason) they are not perfect. They are part of the fall. Adam didn't have to listen to Eve. If he was the strong man he was suppose to be, then he could of easily said no. Each patriarch and leader had problems of their own (Abraham, Isaac, Jacob...etc) but we don't seem to attack them as much. I am not insulting Adam, but think before you think there is a thing called a flawless ANYbody. Only Jesus is.
I am not a femme-Nazi. I am a person who is bothered by all types of nepotism: in the family, school, work, and even the church is guilty of so (again, Oral Roberts, Bob Jones....Joel Osteen)
I actually was going to talk about the ministry. Don't know what spur this note on.
Disclaimer: I am not perfect, I pray to God everyday not to judge males and females by gender and stereotypes. I've met great people who I had judged but they prove me wrong. God has a funny way about that......
In conclusion: when there should be praise: Praise all! God has given us different gifts and we're suppose to use them. Don't abuse other gifts God has given to His children. I don't think God appreciates that too much.
Goodbye!
P.S. Ephesians 4:29. I cannot remember the verses on favoritism, but I know they're there in ze New Testament.
Bye again!
lost and insecure...
hey,
I'm not meeting my grandfather today. My mom didn't sleep too well and she sadly had to work on today from 5-3. It makes me sad, because I kind of know he will die soon. I know it sounds stupid to want to know a man who was abusive to my mom, but I want some type of closure before he dies. You're probably thinking of how crazy I am, and I am crazy lol.
It's one of those days that I can take a long car ride....if only that was the case. Anyway, I'm kind of sad and confused.
Though I am content with my relationship status (being single and all) it's just some guys are giving me mixed signals...and it drives me craazyyyyyyy....!
Okay, I feel better. I need to get work done.
Love ya, Faith.
I'm not meeting my grandfather today. My mom didn't sleep too well and she sadly had to work on today from 5-3. It makes me sad, because I kind of know he will die soon. I know it sounds stupid to want to know a man who was abusive to my mom, but I want some type of closure before he dies. You're probably thinking of how crazy I am, and I am crazy lol.
It's one of those days that I can take a long car ride....if only that was the case. Anyway, I'm kind of sad and confused.
Though I am content with my relationship status (being single and all) it's just some guys are giving me mixed signals...and it drives me craazyyyyyyy....!
Okay, I feel better. I need to get work done.
Love ya, Faith.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
fourteen years is a long time passed to meet you again
hi,
tomorrow (actually today) I'm meeting my maternal grandfather. again. I haven't seen him in over fourteen years. Last time I saw him was when he's at my cousins weddings and he was drunk.
it's weird because he's not expecting me in the least. I'm sure he'll hate my guts because I look like his daughter (aka my mother) and he hates her very much. Or he use to. He has so many health problems, I don't think he even really cares about my mom anymore. We'll see what happens,
But on the brightside, at least we're going to the diner where my mom use to work for. Hopefully, I'll meet her bosses.
Anyway, I need to go to bed....can't wait to be in my own place when my parents stop bugging about going to bed!
Ps...Robin Hood (2006) is amazing!
More about tomorrow to come...today lol.
Night!
tomorrow (actually today) I'm meeting my maternal grandfather. again. I haven't seen him in over fourteen years. Last time I saw him was when he's at my cousins weddings and he was drunk.
it's weird because he's not expecting me in the least. I'm sure he'll hate my guts because I look like his daughter (aka my mother) and he hates her very much. Or he use to. He has so many health problems, I don't think he even really cares about my mom anymore. We'll see what happens,
But on the brightside, at least we're going to the diner where my mom use to work for. Hopefully, I'll meet her bosses.
Anyway, I need to go to bed....can't wait to be in my own place when my parents stop bugging about going to bed!
Ps...Robin Hood (2006) is amazing!
More about tomorrow to come...today lol.
Night!
Last night....
hi!
Last night I went to loft, knowing I'd have a good time, but I didn't realize I WOULD have a amazing time their.
When a musician is there, he usually sings and Pastor Matt is teaching, but Jay Michael did a wonderful time teaching!
Yes, it was about dating and to some people, they say Christians are obsessed with dating but it's good to talk about it. When you're dating a person, you're taking a big risk and the thing...there's another person. Dating is harder for Christians because Christians "should" not sleep with anybody but only their spouse. People who are not Christians can sleep around and it's not big deal.
There are three lies when it comes to dating:
1) Dating is all about me
* like I said there's another person....
2) Love is just a feeling
* true, but it is MORE than that! A lot of marriages, I've read usually die when the passion dies. It's also love is dating your best friend, which sometimes is hard because it's always perfect; there's anger, hurt feelings, annoyance, and mis-communication. When I dated my ex, we knew love is more than feeling. We also fought after breaking up.
3) Love is beyond my control. People will say "I'm madly in love with....[fill in the blank] and it's beyond my control" or "destiny" or "love at first sight" especially in inspired princess chickflicks. He used the analogy of how someone falls in pit and they can't get out.
He also talked about Proverbs 4:23 "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" in my opinion it doesn't mean to avoid all together but make sure you're wise about who you want to date. I know a lot of girls fall over the charmer, but he usually doesn't have the best character. I remember working with one, and he asked me to sleep with him when he had a girlfriend. Later on, he asked another girl out when she had a boyfriend and he was still dating his now ex-girlfriend. Anyway, I knew right away and I have self respect and I knew since everybody is created in His image that He wouldn't want me to date my former co-worker unless he repented and decided to not to have sex till marriage (the irony is, he's married now)
Most of you saw my posts and saw my struggle with this. But yesterday, I thirst for God, because the whole dating thing was making me feel lonely and empty, but I shouldn't feel either because I am not empty and alone!
Lately, I had to remind myself that I am blessed, but instead I should know I am blessed.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart" Psalm 37:4
"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires" Song of Songs 2:7
well....you're wondering when that is, but we (including me) should instead:
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances" Phil. 4:11
It's hard trust but remember..."I can do all things...."
I'm running out of time. I need to take my like grandmother (she's biologically mine, but I consider her mine) for lunch so she can get her nails. While, she's getting her nails, I'll be reading a fun fiction book. Yes, I am a geek.
Yes, the book of Song of Songs is about marriage sex, but I see this verse as an allegory about God's love for us; also it can be used as a verse of what the world thinks of ladies and can be applied of how guy should view the girl they like.
"Like a lily among thorns
is my darling among the young women." Song of Songs 2:2
Ladies don't feel "unspecial", God sees as lilies when the world thinks of us girls as thorns. Trust me, especially women think me as a thorn, but we know deep in our hears not only does the future husband thinks of us as Lilies, so does our Heavenly Father.
Don't feel left out guys! God sees you as beautiful too.
Okay, talk to you later!
Blessings, Faith.
Last night I went to loft, knowing I'd have a good time, but I didn't realize I WOULD have a amazing time their.
When a musician is there, he usually sings and Pastor Matt is teaching, but Jay Michael did a wonderful time teaching!
Yes, it was about dating and to some people, they say Christians are obsessed with dating but it's good to talk about it. When you're dating a person, you're taking a big risk and the thing...there's another person. Dating is harder for Christians because Christians "should" not sleep with anybody but only their spouse. People who are not Christians can sleep around and it's not big deal.
There are three lies when it comes to dating:
1) Dating is all about me
* like I said there's another person....
2) Love is just a feeling
* true, but it is MORE than that! A lot of marriages, I've read usually die when the passion dies. It's also love is dating your best friend, which sometimes is hard because it's always perfect; there's anger, hurt feelings, annoyance, and mis-communication. When I dated my ex, we knew love is more than feeling. We also fought after breaking up.
3) Love is beyond my control. People will say "I'm madly in love with....[fill in the blank] and it's beyond my control" or "destiny" or "love at first sight" especially in inspired princess chickflicks. He used the analogy of how someone falls in pit and they can't get out.
He also talked about Proverbs 4:23 "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" in my opinion it doesn't mean to avoid all together but make sure you're wise about who you want to date. I know a lot of girls fall over the charmer, but he usually doesn't have the best character. I remember working with one, and he asked me to sleep with him when he had a girlfriend. Later on, he asked another girl out when she had a boyfriend and he was still dating his now ex-girlfriend. Anyway, I knew right away and I have self respect and I knew since everybody is created in His image that He wouldn't want me to date my former co-worker unless he repented and decided to not to have sex till marriage (the irony is, he's married now)
Most of you saw my posts and saw my struggle with this. But yesterday, I thirst for God, because the whole dating thing was making me feel lonely and empty, but I shouldn't feel either because I am not empty and alone!
Lately, I had to remind myself that I am blessed, but instead I should know I am blessed.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart" Psalm 37:4
"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires" Song of Songs 2:7
well....you're wondering when that is, but we (including me) should instead:
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances" Phil. 4:11
It's hard trust but remember..."I can do all things...."
I'm running out of time. I need to take my like grandmother (she's biologically mine, but I consider her mine) for lunch so she can get her nails. While, she's getting her nails, I'll be reading a fun fiction book. Yes, I am a geek.
Yes, the book of Song of Songs is about marriage sex, but I see this verse as an allegory about God's love for us; also it can be used as a verse of what the world thinks of ladies and can be applied of how guy should view the girl they like.
"Like a lily among thorns
is my darling among the young women." Song of Songs 2:2
Ladies don't feel "unspecial", God sees as lilies when the world thinks of us girls as thorns. Trust me, especially women think me as a thorn, but we know deep in our hears not only does the future husband thinks of us as Lilies, so does our Heavenly Father.
Don't feel left out guys! God sees you as beautiful too.
Okay, talk to you later!
Blessings, Faith.
Friday, April 8, 2011
living out and faith trust.....
Hi, ya'll
I'm a little tired and will be going to bed soon, but to sum it up, it was amazing!
Great time with Jay Michael, a musician who exceeded my expectations.
Anyway, great time and some people really liked my banana bread, it just there wasn't a lot of people.
anyway, downloading music from my cds to my ipod nano....anyway. goodnight!
I'm a little tired and will be going to bed soon, but to sum it up, it was amazing!
Great time with Jay Michael, a musician who exceeded my expectations.
Anyway, great time and some people really liked my banana bread, it just there wasn't a lot of people.
anyway, downloading music from my cds to my ipod nano....anyway. goodnight!
Rock around the clock tonight....
hi!
Today is decision, which is if the loft people like my Honduran banana bread. The kids loved, and they tend to be the hardest critics.
I'm excited about loft because a musician will be there and he's suppose to teach, so, I'm sure it'll be a great night, minus Stef being away, but I'll see her next loft!
The title is an 50's song that is featured in the movie the Blackboard Jungle. It's an excellent film about teachers in an inner city school. I know I talked about it the last post, but if there any hope for inner city kids today?
People give up and I think that's why kids act up. Possibly not. I want to ask an inner city why they act up so much.....
Until next time....
Faith.
Today is decision, which is if the loft people like my Honduran banana bread. The kids loved, and they tend to be the hardest critics.
I'm excited about loft because a musician will be there and he's suppose to teach, so, I'm sure it'll be a great night, minus Stef being away, but I'll see her next loft!
The title is an 50's song that is featured in the movie the Blackboard Jungle. It's an excellent film about teachers in an inner city school. I know I talked about it the last post, but if there any hope for inner city kids today?
People give up and I think that's why kids act up. Possibly not. I want to ask an inner city why they act up so much.....
Until next time....
Faith.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
it's half an hour after 1...I'm all alone and I need you now
Ugh,
you're probably telling me "shut up and get over him Faith!"
It's hard because I know he's not thinking about me right now or ever thinks about me...period. It hurts because I hate the idea of being matched instead of the natural chemistry....which is zilch on his side.
I run into this situation so much...it's like life laughing at me in my face.
Anyway, I am blessed, blessed, blessed! I don't want to date anybody right away but I just hate thinking he doesn't think of me ever.
Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to have a good time at the LOFT!!!!! I made banana bread for them, so, hopefully they like it :)
you're probably telling me "shut up and get over him Faith!"
It's hard because I know he's not thinking about me right now or ever thinks about me...period. It hurts because I hate the idea of being matched instead of the natural chemistry....which is zilch on his side.
I run into this situation so much...it's like life laughing at me in my face.
Anyway, I am blessed, blessed, blessed! I don't want to date anybody right away but I just hate thinking he doesn't think of me ever.
Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to have a good time at the LOFT!!!!! I made banana bread for them, so, hopefully they like it :)
Friday's eve!
Hi,
I was thinking about my two posts ago and how I thought the guy whose mom and sister are trying to set me up with was arrogant. Maybe he is, but I think another reason people could take it the wrong way:
he's a pastor kid. Being a PK myself, I understand other PK's. People have this weird idea of pastors and their families. Not so much at his church, but when we first came to my church people expected us to do all the work and they expected us to be in every activity. That's what pastors families are for, according to most churches.With that being said, PK's tend to not hang out with people from their church because of this, but the people at the church as to my knowledge are really nice and don't give the pastors much of a problem. Usually family churches can be very hostile and only want their kids back, not other believers or people unsaved.
However, he could be totally stuck up about other people, because some PK's like to think they own the church and get away with anything. I don't know. I wish I saw him more often to figure him out, because he's really hard to figure out.
I made Honduran banana bread for the Loft. I made it for the kids at club and they really liked it. It is very good and I hope the loft people like it. Sadly, the biggest banana fanatic is near Pittsburgh and won't be there to try it, but I know she'll have fun there!
I'm watching a movie for class and doing homework (b00!) talk to y'all later!
I was thinking about my two posts ago and how I thought the guy whose mom and sister are trying to set me up with was arrogant. Maybe he is, but I think another reason people could take it the wrong way:
he's a pastor kid. Being a PK myself, I understand other PK's. People have this weird idea of pastors and their families. Not so much at his church, but when we first came to my church people expected us to do all the work and they expected us to be in every activity. That's what pastors families are for, according to most churches.With that being said, PK's tend to not hang out with people from their church because of this, but the people at the church as to my knowledge are really nice and don't give the pastors much of a problem. Usually family churches can be very hostile and only want their kids back, not other believers or people unsaved.
However, he could be totally stuck up about other people, because some PK's like to think they own the church and get away with anything. I don't know. I wish I saw him more often to figure him out, because he's really hard to figure out.
I made Honduran banana bread for the Loft. I made it for the kids at club and they really liked it. It is very good and I hope the loft people like it. Sadly, the biggest banana fanatic is near Pittsburgh and won't be there to try it, but I know she'll have fun there!
I'm watching a movie for class and doing homework (b00!) talk to y'all later!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
late night post....
hi again!
Sorry for my early post. Just really frustrated, but I had a good day. My religion professor left her suitcase of our papers with her husband in Hazleton, lol. I took my western civilization test today and I say it went really well. I would love an A but I'd be content with a B.
Anyway...what else is new?
tomorrow I'm going out to lunch with Helen, then homework including watching a movie for and I hope to have a new profile picture for facebook.
Anyway, watching videos from monty python....lol
Talk to you later!
Sorry for my early post. Just really frustrated, but I had a good day. My religion professor left her suitcase of our papers with her husband in Hazleton, lol. I took my western civilization test today and I say it went really well. I would love an A but I'd be content with a B.
Anyway...what else is new?
tomorrow I'm going out to lunch with Helen, then homework including watching a movie for and I hope to have a new profile picture for facebook.
Anyway, watching videos from monty python....lol
Talk to you later!
where to begin...
hi! I'll try to keep everyone updated but here are somethings I did recently
Went to a baby shower (they don't know what the gender is)
Went to a arena football game and 429 concert
went to another baby shower (it's a boy!)
Here are somethings coming up:
Test in West Civ (been studying!)
Hopefully my 9 plus citation page paper is graded
Tomorrow is homework and watching The Blackboard Jungle
Friday is loft!
Saturday homework
Sunday Church, and homework
Hopefully I'll have some fun reading to do!
Well, I had fun at the baby showers. The first one was a little more formal but nice. The second was much more informal, smaller, and I liked it. We got to make our own sandwiches, have yummy deserts and relax in a house of a friend's. It's an old farm house and I am a sucker for farmhouses
I've been slacking off doing devotions but I'll get the ball rolling again tomorrow. Sometimes I get discouraged or push it off but I always love doing them, I just don't always have the best judgement in doing them.
There's this great family I know. Great Christian family who are very nice and cool, but they want to set me up with their son. However he could careless about me!
He does have everything I want in a guy: loves the LORD, loves kids (works with them) loves to read, and is well traveled but he bothers me too. He brushes me off every time I see (which is rare) and has a little bit of arrogance about him....I could be wrong but he gives me the impression that he thinks I'm not very smart.
Do you know how girls struggle with beauty? They want to be beautiful and though God created me in His image, my looks can sometimes be a curse. Because with the way I look (blonde haired, blue eyed, tall, skinny) and the way I am(shy) guys don't think I'm very smart or geeky which I am the geekiest girl I know (besides my sister) and here's why:
I like old fashioned movies
I watch shows for instance The big bang theory and Frasier
I like music for instance onerepublic, coldplay, U2, Relient K, etc
I read books for fun!
I wear plain clothes
I mix match my socks...on purpose!
I like talking about politics, religion, faith, and the legal system
My favourite subject is history and going to major in paralegal studies
I like riding my (non motor) scooter
I don't hike very well (though I'm working out to do so)
I like going to libraries, musicals/Broadway shows, and art galleries,
I like taking pictures and drawing
I've been diagnosed with autism, ADHD, ADD by non doctors!
...and the list goes on and on!
But I love my friends who except me anyway! They are blessing from God and I enjoy every minute with them!
Sorry, pardon my French, who ever diagnoses me with something or underestimates me, screw you!
However, I have moved on from them and love my friends who accept me anyway!
As for the guy situation, I don't think anything will happen; though he once stared at me for too long of a period and his sister saw it, I don't think he doesn't think highly of me. Though, he did praise a girl for her love of the LORD and on how God will use her....though he's not 100% arrogant.
Anyway, I need to do the dishes and study some more! I want a good grade on this next test!
God bless and I promise I'll have a more uplifting post tomorrow!
Thanks for reading my blog!
<3 Faith.
Went to a baby shower (they don't know what the gender is)
Went to a arena football game and 429 concert
went to another baby shower (it's a boy!)
Here are somethings coming up:
Test in West Civ (been studying!)
Hopefully my 9 plus citation page paper is graded
Tomorrow is homework and watching The Blackboard Jungle
Friday is loft!
Saturday homework
Sunday Church, and homework
Hopefully I'll have some fun reading to do!
Well, I had fun at the baby showers. The first one was a little more formal but nice. The second was much more informal, smaller, and I liked it. We got to make our own sandwiches, have yummy deserts and relax in a house of a friend's. It's an old farm house and I am a sucker for farmhouses
I've been slacking off doing devotions but I'll get the ball rolling again tomorrow. Sometimes I get discouraged or push it off but I always love doing them, I just don't always have the best judgement in doing them.
There's this great family I know. Great Christian family who are very nice and cool, but they want to set me up with their son. However he could careless about me!
He does have everything I want in a guy: loves the LORD, loves kids (works with them) loves to read, and is well traveled but he bothers me too. He brushes me off every time I see (which is rare) and has a little bit of arrogance about him....I could be wrong but he gives me the impression that he thinks I'm not very smart.
Do you know how girls struggle with beauty? They want to be beautiful and though God created me in His image, my looks can sometimes be a curse. Because with the way I look (blonde haired, blue eyed, tall, skinny) and the way I am(shy) guys don't think I'm very smart or geeky which I am the geekiest girl I know (besides my sister) and here's why:
I like old fashioned movies
I watch shows for instance The big bang theory and Frasier
I like music for instance onerepublic, coldplay, U2, Relient K, etc
I read books for fun!
I wear plain clothes
I mix match my socks...on purpose!
I like talking about politics, religion, faith, and the legal system
My favourite subject is history and going to major in paralegal studies
I like riding my (non motor) scooter
I don't hike very well (though I'm working out to do so)
I like going to libraries, musicals/Broadway shows, and art galleries,
I like taking pictures and drawing
I've been diagnosed with autism, ADHD, ADD by non doctors!
...and the list goes on and on!
But I love my friends who except me anyway! They are blessing from God and I enjoy every minute with them!
Sorry, pardon my French, who ever diagnoses me with something or underestimates me, screw you!
However, I have moved on from them and love my friends who accept me anyway!
As for the guy situation, I don't think anything will happen; though he once stared at me for too long of a period and his sister saw it, I don't think he doesn't think highly of me. Though, he did praise a girl for her love of the LORD and on how God will use her....though he's not 100% arrogant.
Anyway, I need to do the dishes and study some more! I want a good grade on this next test!
God bless and I promise I'll have a more uplifting post tomorrow!
Thanks for reading my blog!
<3 Faith.
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