I throw my hands up in the air sometimes.....

hi!

Well, it's been a crazy weekend.

On Saturday, we went to Stephen's grandparents house where we celebrated birthdays. The food was sooo good (had sushi without the fish, yummy!)

However, I think my mom embarrasses me. While we were eating, my mom blurted to my sister, I flirt with every guy. Most of the people at the table had bachelor's degree with some people having master's degree( Stephen's aunt and uncle have master's in engineering) but still, I said "I do not flirt with every guy."

Anyway, on Sunday, I agreed to work a co-worker's 6-11 but I showed up a little early to talk to him to see he was by himself. I had to come around 5 instead! My mom had to work with me 6-9. She was sooo ticked, I thought someone was going to get shot.

Thankfully, it was an accident. He (the MIA co-worker) thought he was working tonight.

Anyway, I work tonight with a girl who has gotten better but I don't want to leave her by herself. I am conflicted. I wish I could now, but I's (did it on purpose) tired :/

Anyway, listening to music!


Faith.

"I hope this is your profile and I hope you liked my water color paintings"

I only sent Tom Hiddleston a letter. A fan sent him water color paintings! How pathetic am I?!

Question is: are his statuses real or done by a staff person or fan?!

Hi!

Well, today, I did not get a lot done. Between switching banks, getting up late, babysitting Bo, doing chores and working 4-9 (not all in order sorry) I feel like my brain cells are slowing dying.


I so want to finish Part 2 of "Tender is the Night!" I need to get cracking on "Anna Karenina" soon!

I also don't understand why everyone loves Ryan Lochte. He seems to be a arrogant, chauvinistic, and charming jerk! I don't even like Michael Phelps either. I like Nathan Adrian better. He seems to be a better guy.


I am a little disappointed that LOFT is still on Sundays. The thing is, people say Sundays work best or Fridays work best but no matter the outcome, still get the same crowd! We seriously need to take a poll!

Anyway, I want to do some reading before I go to work. I usually have serious, light hearted or sarcastic conversations but nothing deep or serious. I am having a hard time finding somebody to talk to about how they thought back in the 20's, one of the symptoms of schizophrenia is being scared of men.

Okay, bye!---Faith.

Delusions

hi!

The last couple days have gone well. Working, reading, listening to music, making plans, it's been great!


I like my job. I worked 29 hours this past week (Thursday till Wednesday) and I am excited for that paycheck!

Though, there are some people who creep me out. One guy just seems to have a crush on me; I wouldn't mind but he works at Wegman's and is a bit oldish. I'd say early 30's, plus he's always talking about how

Things are a little frustrating with friends. Just some conflicts of schedule and other stuff. I laugh because I finally have the chance to drive and everybody is busy!


I am halfway in "Tender is the Night" I am hoping to finish "Anna Karenina" before late September! I am also hoping to finish "The Hobbit" before December! What a challenge!


I also recently finished "Up" it's funny and cute, and I just loved Dug. Bo is similar to him, which made me laugh even more. I watched it because there was a customer from Turkey Hill who reminded me of him.

Well, I am hungry, bye!---Faith

"It's always a delusion when I see what you don't want me to see" ---Nicole Diver, "Tender is the Night"

Honey Boo Boo

hi!

Well, the movie "Bourne Legacy" I'd give it a B+

But MJ's was soo yummy. I had a roast beef panini and eclair cake. A+++++++++++++++++!

Anyway, today I work. I work the famous 3-11 but I am glad I am working. Bo and my Dad are driving me crazy. Bo won't stop barking in the house while Dad is trying to be a control freak. He won't let me do this and that. I am my own human being! Let me decide on my own!

Anyway, there are two movies coming out that I want to see: Oz: The Great and Powerful and Trouble with the Curve.

What else? I need to go do stuff before work!

Faith.

PS. My mom was so tired on Sunday, she started calling me "Honey Boo Boo"

Schrödinger's cat....

is dead or alive?!

Hi!

I finally can drive again! Yesterday, I drove to my grandmother's place where we went out to Texas Roadhouse. Anyway, the food was yummy but it was so loud and my grandmother was really obnoxious.

It is so great to drive again. I am so blessed but I need and pray to find a "newer" car before school starts.

What else? I worked Thursday till yesterday, I have today, tomorrow, and Thursday off, and I work Wednesday

Tonight I am going line dancing. So excited to hang out with Jason and possibly Vanesca. I hope I am still good at it.

Other driving opportunities? LOFT, sleepovers, Zumba, Walmart, school, Rachel and Stephen's. I am sooo excited!

Anyway, I am off to do chores and other exciting stuff while Bo is howling for no apparent reason!

Faith.

"Wait"

Hi!

Lately you have seen my posts about Tom Hiddleston. You see, I know I will never meet him but he seems to be a wonderful non Christian.

One of the reasons I like him is because I know he'll never break my heart. Many guys I know don't think I'm attractive or smart. In my letter, I wrote about Fitzgerald, Regina Spektor, Midnight in Paris, Return to Cranford, and Tender is the Night, which many guys would have made fun for me.


It's a way to numb the reality that guys only think of me as a friend. I easily forget the pain guys have afflicted on me; to forget their thoughts on what they think of me.

I know you think of me as melodramatic but seeing my lady friends getting boyfriends right away without doing any work to get his attention, it hurts for me. I shouldn't be jealous because I don't want a boyfriend now. I just want to know that guys find me pretty and smart. I need encouragement from my guy friends

Yes, I am a piece of work.

I think about Tender is the Night and reading it, the one character Nicole is brought by her father to Switzerland because of her fear of men. However, her father failed her. After her mother died, they use to hold hands, sleep in the same (my dad doesn't do this! I promise!) and were called "lovers" then, he wanted to leave her as soon as possible at the clinic.

As for me, I do have a little fear of guys. My dad has been a wonderful fatherly figure and I don't need to marry someone like my dad. But I am afraid that there is no one out there for me. No one interested in me now. It's like I am a wallflower. I refuse to marry a guy who is controlling, mean or a liar so I might be single all my life.

I know God has a purpose for my life, but I have asked Him if I am ever getting married or staying single, all He says is "Wait" but wait for what?! All I hear is "Wait"

So, I wait for what He has planned for my life. I know He cares for me and even if I am in my abyss of self pity and pain, I know if I turn to Him, He gives me comfort and strength.

I worked five hours last night, which went well, but tonight I work 3-11, teaching a new girl for two hours by myself. It scares me to death!

Then I work 9-5 tomorrow and then 9-3 Sunday! (crazy weekend!)

Bye! Faith

A busy but an exciting weekend.....

hi!

Well, I start driving again this Sunday. I cannot wait but the downside is my car. I am praying for a newer car but it seems impossible and out of reach. But I know God provides in His own time.

I am working tonight 4-9, tomorrow 3-11, Saturday 9-2, then (gasp!) Sunday 9-3, then two days off!

I am hoping to go line dancing this Monday or going to Knoebels or going to a movie. Tuesday, I want to do something....something crazy!

Sunday, sadly though, I have to see my grandmother. She's my biologically grandmother but there's not a relationship between my family and her. We only go see her since Dad has this weird idea we have to put up with family even no matter how narcissistic, neurotic, and self centered they are!

On another note, my letter probably has made it to its location in London, probably needs to be sorted out by the mail room peoples. Tom is filming in "Thor 2" in London. I thought it'd be in an another country but probably won't make it to him for months. It's 5:30pm now there!

Anyway, need to finish work!

Faith.

"Can't hold us down....."

hi!

The school visit went well and I like school more.

Got to see an old friend and hang out with Rach and Stephen.


As for the letter, I know 99.9% that it's in London. I know 99.9% out of the plane. Now, 70% sure it's somewhere in a post office. 99.9% sure it'll be read by a staff member by Friday. 100% sure Tom won't see it :)


Anyway, I realize obsessing over boys is a waste a time. A couple of my friends have no desire to date and are content with their lives. I don't have a clock clicking in my head anymore; looking forward to traveling the world; being content with the LORD.

Like the saying I created, "Sisters before Misters (&Hipsters)"

Okay Bye--! Faith.

Bigger Than My Body....

hi!

Bo iss so much better!

Actually, the pool party turned into a boat party. They live in a gated community with an awesome lake and we went on an awesome boat ride. I like riding boats, especially ones with comfy seats and fun people on it.

I stink at foosball! (whatever you call it with the soccer dudes or spell it!) and have met some great people! I had a blast!

Work is going well. Some idiots and an occasional hypocrite, which I created the saying "For the Love of Hypocrites!"

It's a long story but the short version: A guy annoys another, the other guy calls him a hypocrite even though he is one himself.

What else?  I am listening to John Mayer now more than ever. He has some great songs....too many about sex and seems to be a crummy person. I am conflicted now.

Anyway, I am tired. I worked 8 hours today....but I am excited for more! I am working an average of 25 hours. Cannot wait to drive; only five days (almost 1am) left!

Probably the letter has arrived in London, quietly waiting to be sorted out in a big mail London post office. Probably won't arrive to the building

Visiting school, then Rachel and Stephen!

Bye! Faith.

"Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for...."

cabin fever.

hi!

After a week of working, getting use to a dog who needs constant attention (even now, in the same room, he won't leave me alone on the computer) I need to see my friends!

At this point, Dad wants to get rid of him, while Mom wants to keep him. After church today, Bo chewed Dad's wallet. Dad is tired of moving and hiding everything around Bo. Mom wants to get him a crate while Dad wants to wait till Tuesday when someone offered one.


I think the best family was us 15 years ago. My mom homeschooled Rachel and I, and we never went out a lot. He needs a family around all the time!

Anyway, tonight I see most the gang. Talk to you later!

Faith.

"Hello, Sunshine"

hi!

Well, today was good.

Bo is doing better and work went well. It was crazy at times but it went well!

Kind of the bored at the moment. Toooo excited for the pool party to hang out with Vanesca, Stefanie, and the rest of the gang tomorrow!

I will say.....only 8 more days till driving! Then I will be a busy beeeeeeeeeeee!

Cannot wait to see "The Bourne Legacy"

Probably the letter is sitting somewhere in London; just don't know where exactly. Trying to imagine where it is but having a hard time!

Anyway, I guess I will read "Tender is the Night."

Byez gang---

Faith.

My co-worker almost had an aneurysm......

Hi!

Work went well. Some weird things happened. Stuff I shouldn't say but wow....when someone said something earlier, I laughed but when it actually happened to me...it was different.

Anyway, my co-worker was sooooo upset about how much was ordered! She did a good job putting the cigarettes away. It was funny seeing her whine and complain. But anyway......

It was a good day at work but my goodness, people getting cash 5 like crazy!

Bo seems to be doing better. I found taking him for walks in the early afternoon helps him. I will try as much as possible!

Goodnight and off to read "Tender is the Night"! While you sleep in, I am working 12pm-5pm!

Faith.

Workin, Workin, Workin Day and Night....

hi!

Well, Bo has been doing pretty good today. I took him on a 40 minute walk today but I am hoping my parents will take him on a walk this afternoon so then he won't be so jumpy tonight.

Thankfully, I am working an average 25 hours a week, which is good because the paychecks are nice!

So excited to visit school, get stuff situated, then see Rachel!

I am also very excited to be driving soon! Line Dancing, Zumba, LOFT, and hanging out friends till school starts.

Anyway, I seriously need to get ready for work tonight! I work 2-9. Cannot wait for that paycheck!

Faith.

On My Mind.....

hi!

Work was so-so. My family and I have mixed reviews about Bo. Sometimes, he's great and loving, then other times, he destroys things and won't get off your lap, and howllllllllllll.

I cannot believe the many people today who tried to tick me. I had one lady trying to get free cigarettes with lottery. Another lady wanted a dollar lottery ticket when it's two dollars. My Mom says both ladies do it all the time.

I had a couple come in who got two slushies thinking it's 79 cents, when in reality it added 1.89. He was only going to give me a $1. Other customers get the fountain drinks and slushies confused but my mom thinks they tried to get away with it. He cursed at me then.

When going into Turkey Hill, make sure you know the difference between fountain soda and slushies.

Oh goodness....it's been a stressful last couple days and cannot wait for a pool party this Sunday!

Spending time with Vanesca, Stef & Co will be great! I am sad Janelle won't be there but she gets to go to the beach! Lucky!

Then, lastly on my mind.....since London is five hours ahead. It's 5:31 now, which means, most likely my letter has been there or has just landed. Idk

Here is the processed I figured out:

Leave my post office
Harrisburg or Reading
Philly or straight to NYC
NYC
London-a post office
The Agency's Mail Room (most big places do have one)
Staff reads it

I give it a month until that is all processed then...


Sends to Tom
Writes back;

I'll probably 30 when he gets back to me, LOL!

Faith.

Go On.....

hi!

Well, it's been a stressful two days. Bo has good moments, and not so great moments. He's calmed down and doesn't howl as much but he still sometimes chews on stuff and want to jump in our laps and lick us to death.

Last night, I broke down crying, mostly because I realized how I missed Bear. He's been gone a year and a half now but I know he'd never jump on me, lick me, or try to bite me. He always protected my sister and I, then I felt safe with him. He never was high maintenance and was a great family pet. Maybe my parents and I are in over our heads, I don't know.

I feel better now, especially, since I can now drive again soon. Clean bill of health, but I have to get the whooping cough shot :/ I hate shots! August 19th I will drive! I want to go Line Dancing, Zumba, and hang out with friends!

Well, in other news. I worked 3-11, on Tuesday, and it went well. I work today from 4-9.

I wonder how far my letter has gone to London? I think it takes about one or two weeks. It's Thursday, I'm thinking it will today or has left the United States Already. However, getting to the actual destination, might not be till next week sometime. Until it's read by the staff, it might be a month, then possibly given to Tom in a couple of months....or years, depending on how busy he is!

As for the movie "The Deep Blue Sea" I skipped out on the really bad scene. If you want to watch it, skip 9:00-10:00 minute scene. Actually, if it weren't for that scene, it'd probably be rated PG-13. They do curse from time to time, then some movies will be rated for smoking and drinking.

"Go On" is a new show where a guy loses his wife and needs to go to group therapy. However, he is really sarcastic and doesn't want to do therapy. The last scene, he and Owen decide to chase the Google Earth Car, which the rest of the gang join too, dressing up in Ren Faire outfits. I hope it is as funny as it was last night! Sometimes, shows aren't that funny and fail miserably.

Hopefully, this thunder will cool the mugginess. I will talk to you later! Faith. 

The Deep Blue Sea.....

hi!

Bo is a very energetic dog! Though, the vet tech says it will be two weeks and he will be back to normal. Also, we're getting him a chain because he seems to be content outside. We'll of course, keep him inside if he wants to come in, give him lots of water, and food! He likes cat treats!

Anyway, I sent my letter to Tom. For one thing, it probably won't get there in a month, second, the staff will laugh at it and throw it away, or if he gets it, I'll probably be one of those fans he'll laugh at. I am hoping for a response before I am 50!

Yes, I am completely silly. I know he won't come after he reads it and sweep me off my feet. It's a nice thought but we're so different: He was born in London, age 31, went to Cambridge, and got a degree in Classics. Now, he's an actor loved by all and will probably win an Oscar.

Meanwhile, Faith is a 21 year old American College student, who lives in a small town, works at a gas station, went to community college, going to a small school to become a paralegal, a very introverted job. Plus, I don't think he talks to himself in the third person either.

Work went well today. A rude customer came up and apologized. For the most part, people are nice, but most are in a hurry or sometimes have weird things to say.

Tomorrow, I am at home most of the day, then going to work. I will spend time with Bo and then we're going to try keep  
Bo outside more often. Not all the time. I hope it works out.


I have yet to see "War Horse" I know I'll cry...so one day home alone I will watch it. With a bucket of ice cream and tissues.

Not too thrilled with some of the upcoming films he will be starring in. Let's just say, he's not a Christian :/ but most actors are not and if they are, they only star in Christian Movies.

"The Deep Blue Sea" is a film about a woman who is stuck in a loveless marriage and has a passionate lover.
From what I am gathering, she is in a dilemma between the Devil and the title of the movie. Tom-Boy plays the lover who is a jerk. It was good, but sporadic and sometimes too vague. Also, I feel, Rachel Weitz's character, could have better. I dearly like Tom, but his character was awful to her.

Many times, she brought up her dad. I think he really messed her up when it came to love. A lot of women will go after jerks when their fathers do not care for them or show them love. Thankfully, I refuse to date someone like Freddie Paige or marry someone like William Collyer. Also, Rachel's character name is Hester. I think, in some way, it references to "The Scarlet Letter." I could be wrong though.


Anyway, I am going to try to sleep. You see, I am a little nervous if I do, Bo will start barking, but I am praying he is asleep.

Okay, goodnight!

Faith!

"I give my respect to those who earned it; to everyone else, I am civil."--The Deep Blue Sea.

What An Unexpected Surprise.....

hi!

We're getting ready for "Bo" (our new beagle!). We went to five guys and Walmart, but it rained hard once we were in the latter. However, I ran into Vanesca and Lance, which made me happy. We went through CD's and rambled. Saw Ben H (Stef's boyfriend Sam's brother) a little bit; mostly talked to Lance though. Then my parents saw somebody and we saw people we knew at Five Guys! What is Hamburg?! The Capital of Running into everybody?!

Yesterday, I also found out something! I went to Tom Hiddleston's fb page and he said fans could write to him. I wrote it and no, I did not write "marry me and I will have your babies!" As much as he talented and handsome, he is a person, and a super duper busy person, most likely not a Christian if he's playing a big porn star soon. He'll probably laugh at my first letter to a celebrity.


I am excited to meet Bo tomorrow and send my letter through the mail. I probably won't sleep tonight and I have to work 12-8! Thank the LORD the post office is a walk away! I wish it were tomorrow NOW!

Anyway, off to finish "Tender is The Night" with his voice as the narrator (once I have a boyfriend, I will stop  talking about him!)

Faith.

Human of the Year.....

*update* everything is fine now!

Hi!

Well, today is going so-so. I found Downton Abbey Season 2 on Hulu. Watched the first two episodes. Maggie Smith is amazing!

But the other downside is this: one of my biggest pet peeves is people not getting back to me. I'm (nevermind, WAS) making plans to go to a demo derby at a county fair with Darla, who I don't see very often and Janelle, but the latter, won't get back to me. Nothing, nothing, nothing!!!!!!

A simple, "no, I am sorry I cannot do it" will be sufficient. I don't understand people......

I shouldn't be mad at her. But I've tried to contact every way possible. I'd understand if there was a problem, but this unlike her.....

I hope I get it over soon....

by the way, we're getting a puppy....well he's a year old beagle named Bo! I'm kind of nervous. We have to go shopping for him because we got rid of our dog stuff....

anything else? Well, work is going mostly well but sometimes it can be frustrating. Thank goodness not a career.

Okay, bye!--Faith.

"Human of the year and you have won!"-Regina Spektor!

you know you're a geek when....

you get bored with "Whom The Bells Toll" then start picking back up "Anna Karenina" then re-read Wuthering Heights.

re-watch British adaptions.

you wish those guys were your future man.

Can quote shows like Stargate and the Big Bang Theory

Listening to classical and non traditional music.

Get a gift card and spend an hour in the store not sure what you want because you don't think you need anything.

Gets excited for free books

Try to speak grammatically correct even texting.

Write two books at one time. Even writing a book mocking Twilight and Hunger Games, LOL!

horrible at Just Dance.

Only sport you like is not popular in America!

Likes going to historical places.

Plays 39 clues and Killer Bunnies

Yeah, that's me!!!!!!!! I once took one of those facebook note test about homeschoolers and I am a hopeless case!

Though, you know there's still hope for you when....

you work at a gas station and have people skills

watches shows like dancing with the stars

Likes some popular music

Doesn't like Settlers (sorry Stef, I promise the next time we meet we will play)

I like sports. Basketball, soccer, and gymnastics.

Okay, getting tired....

bye! Faith.