hey!
Well, I have been really busy with school, two jobs, and hanging out with friends!
So, I like my new job. As I have said before, it's completely different than my other job but I'm thankful for the experience.
I was able to be a notary on Monday and be able to do so again soon.
Finally!: Mock Trial is over.
After 8 weeks of stressful practice, sleepless nights, thoughts consumed about being the crazy doctor Nicolos.
But thank goodness, it's over.
Now, school isn't: I have two research papers, an oral argument, and two presentations, then my Fall Term is over.
Next term will be weird: I will be doing my internship and will be taking a class full time online.
As for the social life, I have seen Thor 2 and Hunger Games 2! Both were awesome and the latter had comfy red chairs.
I am happy that I get to do movie night tomorrow night. And I'm thankful I can still work at my other job.
Though, I think one of my customers has a crush on me, which I don't know why. He likes to party and smoke weed. He knows who my parents are, so, I'd be surprised if he ever acted on those feelings.
I never realized until: after getting my awesome haircut, I just saw this weird look in his eyes. I know it sounds like it's stretching it but I had never seen that look from him before. Plus, his dad & uncle act like I'm the best girl ever, so, I'm thinking that's why.
But thankfully, salesgirls (The Paradise Reference) never get asked out. Especially small-town Christian, Pastor Kid and Assistant Manager's daughter!
I am more quiet, who doesn't party or smoke at all and prefers a book over a drinking party.
I am also so darn busy that I miss the days where I could sleep in past 9am!
Even on my break, I need to figure out my schedule for over the Christmas break. Oy. Everyone happened so fast that I can't let go of my other crazy job.
Plus, I need to figure out housing after September. Hopefully, I can still stay on campus or find nice roommates.
It's weird that I will be independent by the time I graduate. I will be on my own. Thank goodness for the LORD!
I am excited; to go on mission trips, to find a great church, and to grow as a person!
Okay byez!
Faith.
PS. I changed the picture of me and Zach because of reasons I can't say (let's say, I'm starting to get sick of him....he's a great guy but he's a guy, not a god).
:)
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Apples & Oranges
hi!
I started my new job/internship at the law firm.
I wasn't late thank goodness! I was early.
I have my own desk, computer, and chair, and semi-office. His wife, works for the state as an research attorney and won't be there that often but her desk is next to mine.
I didn't do too much legal-ish work. Some but not a lot.
I actually spent more time with IT. You see, the computer hasn't been used in over two years, so, I literally spent 6 out of the 8 hours with IT!
But they were nice and hopefully Monday, everything is fixed.
For lunch, my boss took me to this nice Victorian house cafe and I had a sandwich. We mostly talked about the computer issues, and legal ish stuff.
He left me around 3:30 and I finished with IT around 4. I did some work till 5, then went home.
Traffic was a nightmare!
I-83 is okay in the mornings but not so much at 5. I think it was the truck where the construction sign said "warning: truck is disabled" and I'm thinking "why can't you say, truck broke down?!"
It was about almost seven when I came home.
Then I worked at the Hill today 10-2. What a difference!
It was a good day though. Mostly people were nice.
I kept thinking about the two jobs. One deals with people constantly, and one doesn't so much. Phone, more than actual face to face. One is fast, one is a bit slower. One is loud, and another quiet. One is PC, and another one....not so much.
Since I am working the law firm, my hours at the Hill are getting cut. I knew this would happen because of my new job.
I have been blessed with this awesome experience but there is a bit of a problem.
He wants to keep me even after I graduate and apartments in town are reasonable but my Mom wants me to find something better even though he will pay me $10. I'm getting paid minimum wage now.
But question is: where? And why?
I am blessed with this place and I'm hoping to stay with them at least for two years. Maybe even three.
I don't have a boyfriend tying me down. It's close to the Skook, Lancaster, and Berks area. I would go to Carlisle church and probably still do stuff with school.
I'm hoping to go to the DR after graduation and hopefully India in the next five years.
Anyway, another option is being an RA. Due to the fact school is year round and there are apartments and townhouses, they tend to have RA's who are college graduates.
Even though it's not paid, I would get free housing and free utilities. Free parking too, lol. I would just pay for gas and groceries.
I hope it works out then too because it's in between Carlisle church and work.
but we will see what the LORD has in store for me. Who knew I was going to get a paid internship?!
Anyway, I will miss the Hill. There were customers who I told about this experience and they were happy.
I'm still working there, just probably twice a month.
But I'm still sure what I like better: being on my feet for eight hours, no lunch break, sometimes great, and sometimes not great customers? Or if I like being at a desk for eight hours and getting an hour lunch break?
Hmm, I will let you know. As of now, I will be working at the law firm, Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
But many things still stay the same: for instance, coming home, my family, my awesome friends (we're going to see Thor 2) and of course Jesus.
True, friends tend to change, but I know I will know awesome people throughout my life!
Okay, talk to you all later!
Faith.
I started my new job/internship at the law firm.
I wasn't late thank goodness! I was early.
I have my own desk, computer, and chair, and semi-office. His wife, works for the state as an research attorney and won't be there that often but her desk is next to mine.
I didn't do too much legal-ish work. Some but not a lot.
I actually spent more time with IT. You see, the computer hasn't been used in over two years, so, I literally spent 6 out of the 8 hours with IT!
But they were nice and hopefully Monday, everything is fixed.
For lunch, my boss took me to this nice Victorian house cafe and I had a sandwich. We mostly talked about the computer issues, and legal ish stuff.
He left me around 3:30 and I finished with IT around 4. I did some work till 5, then went home.
Traffic was a nightmare!
I-83 is okay in the mornings but not so much at 5. I think it was the truck where the construction sign said "warning: truck is disabled" and I'm thinking "why can't you say, truck broke down?!"
It was about almost seven when I came home.
Then I worked at the Hill today 10-2. What a difference!
It was a good day though. Mostly people were nice.
I kept thinking about the two jobs. One deals with people constantly, and one doesn't so much. Phone, more than actual face to face. One is fast, one is a bit slower. One is loud, and another quiet. One is PC, and another one....not so much.
Since I am working the law firm, my hours at the Hill are getting cut. I knew this would happen because of my new job.
I have been blessed with this awesome experience but there is a bit of a problem.
He wants to keep me even after I graduate and apartments in town are reasonable but my Mom wants me to find something better even though he will pay me $10. I'm getting paid minimum wage now.
But question is: where? And why?
I am blessed with this place and I'm hoping to stay with them at least for two years. Maybe even three.
I don't have a boyfriend tying me down. It's close to the Skook, Lancaster, and Berks area. I would go to Carlisle church and probably still do stuff with school.
I'm hoping to go to the DR after graduation and hopefully India in the next five years.
Anyway, another option is being an RA. Due to the fact school is year round and there are apartments and townhouses, they tend to have RA's who are college graduates.
Even though it's not paid, I would get free housing and free utilities. Free parking too, lol. I would just pay for gas and groceries.
I hope it works out then too because it's in between Carlisle church and work.
but we will see what the LORD has in store for me. Who knew I was going to get a paid internship?!
Anyway, I will miss the Hill. There were customers who I told about this experience and they were happy.
I'm still working there, just probably twice a month.
But I'm still sure what I like better: being on my feet for eight hours, no lunch break, sometimes great, and sometimes not great customers? Or if I like being at a desk for eight hours and getting an hour lunch break?
Hmm, I will let you know. As of now, I will be working at the law firm, Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
But many things still stay the same: for instance, coming home, my family, my awesome friends (we're going to see Thor 2) and of course Jesus.
True, friends tend to change, but I know I will know awesome people throughout my life!
Okay, talk to you all later!
Faith.
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Break time, NYC time, and back to school time: the 400th Post!
hey everybody!
Wow, I have been one busy girl!
When I came home for break, I actually had to work 11pm-2am! It was crazy when people told me "Good Morning!"
I worked quite a bit during breaks and didn't really see my friends but I did see my great friends on Friday!
Anyway, I am now done with Court Appointed Special Advocates (CASA) and I went to NYC last Saturday. Basically, my weekends won't be as tiring nor insanely busy.
NYC was amazing!
In September, Janelle told me that she wanted to see Zachary Levi in "First Date" but she felt it would only be a dream not a reality.
However, I thought about bus companies do free days usually in DC or NYC. So I told her if all the times worked (pick up time, actual show time, etc) then we could go.
Next day, she had all the details!
So, I bought the broadway show tickets and she bought the bus tickets; we waited two months, worked, and were busy a lot.
The reason we chose last Saturday was because I was very busy and it gave us time to save up money.
Finally, last Friday came and we spent the night watching Skyfall with Jason and Stef. We later played games.
We went to bed around midnight and had to be up by 5am.
We left Hamburg area around 7:30am, but we got to NYC at 9:30!
So, what we were going to do till 2pm?
We (I mean me, Janelle was in a wheelchair) walked 20 blocks to go to Kleinfeld's, the famous bridal store that's on the show "Say Yes to the Dress"
When we got there, we weren't sure if could go inside but as we were leaving, a bridal consultant let us in and take a picture with the designer Lazaro.
We also got to see the beautiful dresses and brides being in them.
Do you know it's a year and a half till a bride can actually go in?! It's crazy!
Before then, we took a picture with the Minions, we stopped at Macy's and after then Five Guys.
By the time we came back to the First Date's theatre, it was about 1:30.
So, as we were walking, we heard about the autographs and decided to stay after the show.
The show was good. Some stuff I know my and Janelle's parents would not like (cursing, suggestive content, and some poking fun at religion) but overall, it was very realistic about first date. And they were all great!
As it came time to wait for Mr. Levi, people let us in the front. While we were last to get autographs, we were the first to get pictures!
Then he started talking Janelle and myself. She had printed out pictures for us, but he thought we actually hadn't gone to the show. The bodyguard told him we had and a random stranger gave me his playbill signed by Mr. Levi. I felt like a jerk because I had my playbill in my backpack.
But because Janelle said my name, Zachary Levi actually said it out-loud! I nearly fell over.
Then we went to Radio City Music Hall, Rockefeller Center, saw street performers, and went to the M&M's store and it was time go home.
What a great day and I keep thinking it was a dream (especially the part where he said my name!) But I know he said it because Janelle heard it too.
But I know he has already forgotten my name. I mean, he has been doing the show since August and has met a million girls!
Anyway, I was surprised how many people were nice to Janelle and I! Many of the doors in NYC are really heavy and many people would open them for us! And even one guy took Janelle and helped her on the sidewalk!
Even after the show, other people let Janelle and I in front of the line!
So, onto to school....
Busy but going well. I am trying to find my internship. So, far, one place is willing to pay me minimum wage and then hire me after school and pay $10.
He was really nice and I hope it works out but I have two interviews on Wednesday and Friday.
So, my interview experience is much better than the first one. Thanks to a pantsuit and job pursuits seminar, I am much better than I was at interviews.
I also went out on a date with a guy that my old housemate set me up with. His name is Tim and we are not friends on FB. Realizing the path we were going down and his lack of interest, I told him we could be friends on campus and he was happy about it.
But I have been reading this amazing called "True Love Dates" by a Christian Counselor and it's amazing!
One of the things that stuck with me is that if you want to date somebody that is confident, you should be confident too. If you want a healthy relationship, you have to be healthy too. Not literally but emotionally and spiritually.
I am going to work on that and when I'm 102, I will have it down to an art! lolz.
I am confident in the LORD because He has blessed with interviews and great friends and I am excited for my future.
It's a great book and I like some of the stuff she writes about, for instance, having a red, yellow, and green flag lists, and thinking about your vision for your future.
She also wrote articles in the relevant magazine. A great Christian magazine!
So, hopefully, before 30, I will be emotionally smart and one day, be married!
Okay, off to do homework. Can't wait till December 3rd with mock trial being over and starting my internship in January!
Byez, Faith.
Wow, I have been one busy girl!
When I came home for break, I actually had to work 11pm-2am! It was crazy when people told me "Good Morning!"
I worked quite a bit during breaks and didn't really see my friends but I did see my great friends on Friday!
Anyway, I am now done with Court Appointed Special Advocates (CASA) and I went to NYC last Saturday. Basically, my weekends won't be as tiring nor insanely busy.
NYC was amazing!
In September, Janelle told me that she wanted to see Zachary Levi in "First Date" but she felt it would only be a dream not a reality.
However, I thought about bus companies do free days usually in DC or NYC. So I told her if all the times worked (pick up time, actual show time, etc) then we could go.
Next day, she had all the details!
So, I bought the broadway show tickets and she bought the bus tickets; we waited two months, worked, and were busy a lot.
The reason we chose last Saturday was because I was very busy and it gave us time to save up money.
Finally, last Friday came and we spent the night watching Skyfall with Jason and Stef. We later played games.
We went to bed around midnight and had to be up by 5am.
We left Hamburg area around 7:30am, but we got to NYC at 9:30!
So, what we were going to do till 2pm?
We (I mean me, Janelle was in a wheelchair) walked 20 blocks to go to Kleinfeld's, the famous bridal store that's on the show "Say Yes to the Dress"
When we got there, we weren't sure if could go inside but as we were leaving, a bridal consultant let us in and take a picture with the designer Lazaro.
We also got to see the beautiful dresses and brides being in them.
Do you know it's a year and a half till a bride can actually go in?! It's crazy!
Before then, we took a picture with the Minions, we stopped at Macy's and after then Five Guys.
By the time we came back to the First Date's theatre, it was about 1:30.
So, as we were walking, we heard about the autographs and decided to stay after the show.
The show was good. Some stuff I know my and Janelle's parents would not like (cursing, suggestive content, and some poking fun at religion) but overall, it was very realistic about first date. And they were all great!
As it came time to wait for Mr. Levi, people let us in the front. While we were last to get autographs, we were the first to get pictures!
Then he started talking Janelle and myself. She had printed out pictures for us, but he thought we actually hadn't gone to the show. The bodyguard told him we had and a random stranger gave me his playbill signed by Mr. Levi. I felt like a jerk because I had my playbill in my backpack.
But because Janelle said my name, Zachary Levi actually said it out-loud! I nearly fell over.
Then we went to Radio City Music Hall, Rockefeller Center, saw street performers, and went to the M&M's store and it was time go home.
What a great day and I keep thinking it was a dream (especially the part where he said my name!) But I know he said it because Janelle heard it too.
But I know he has already forgotten my name. I mean, he has been doing the show since August and has met a million girls!
Anyway, I was surprised how many people were nice to Janelle and I! Many of the doors in NYC are really heavy and many people would open them for us! And even one guy took Janelle and helped her on the sidewalk!
Even after the show, other people let Janelle and I in front of the line!
So, onto to school....
Busy but going well. I am trying to find my internship. So, far, one place is willing to pay me minimum wage and then hire me after school and pay $10.
He was really nice and I hope it works out but I have two interviews on Wednesday and Friday.
So, my interview experience is much better than the first one. Thanks to a pantsuit and job pursuits seminar, I am much better than I was at interviews.
I also went out on a date with a guy that my old housemate set me up with. His name is Tim and we are not friends on FB. Realizing the path we were going down and his lack of interest, I told him we could be friends on campus and he was happy about it.
But I have been reading this amazing called "True Love Dates" by a Christian Counselor and it's amazing!
One of the things that stuck with me is that if you want to date somebody that is confident, you should be confident too. If you want a healthy relationship, you have to be healthy too. Not literally but emotionally and spiritually.
I am going to work on that and when I'm 102, I will have it down to an art! lolz.
I am confident in the LORD because He has blessed with interviews and great friends and I am excited for my future.
It's a great book and I like some of the stuff she writes about, for instance, having a red, yellow, and green flag lists, and thinking about your vision for your future.
She also wrote articles in the relevant magazine. A great Christian magazine!
So, hopefully, before 30, I will be emotionally smart and one day, be married!
Okay, off to do homework. Can't wait till December 3rd with mock trial being over and starting my internship in January!
Byez, Faith.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Heart of Courage
hey!
So, it's the last week of school. I got an 98% on my mock mediation, an 100% on my Criminal Law presentation, and am doing well in the other classes.
So, after the ADR final, I am officially done with school for two weeks.
However, while I am happy about schoolwork, going to see friends on break, and working more, I am disappointed with the college experience.
While I love the fact I have a pretty good roommate, live in an townhouse, have great classes, the people here are sucky.
I cannot find peace anywhere in this school. People are constantly complaining about anything and everything!
Even though you'd think it could be private with a townhouse, it really isn't. Avril's friends are really loud and obnoxious who don't really ask "hey, are you okay with this?" For instance, my late night fight with her one friend resulting me in leaving at 2am.
Even now, they're in our living talking like it's their house. Thankfully, Avril's friend Byron leaves for Croatia. Even though he's a Christian, he drives me nuts!
As for Nate and Dave. All they do is criticize me, call me woman (only Dave does) and make stereotypical comments. They also think it's okay to call people the N-Word!
I have asked Dave over and over again to stop calling me woman but he won't.
So, I'm done with them. Nate will probably not even bother with me. And I'm hoping to have healthy friend relationships with guys.
But anyway, I am excited to take a break studying, continue with training, working, and seeing my true friends. Friends who love me and don't correct everything I say.
Night!
Faith.
PS. Title from Two Steps From Hell.
So, it's the last week of school. I got an 98% on my mock mediation, an 100% on my Criminal Law presentation, and am doing well in the other classes.
So, after the ADR final, I am officially done with school for two weeks.
However, while I am happy about schoolwork, going to see friends on break, and working more, I am disappointed with the college experience.
While I love the fact I have a pretty good roommate, live in an townhouse, have great classes, the people here are sucky.
I cannot find peace anywhere in this school. People are constantly complaining about anything and everything!
Even though you'd think it could be private with a townhouse, it really isn't. Avril's friends are really loud and obnoxious who don't really ask "hey, are you okay with this?" For instance, my late night fight with her one friend resulting me in leaving at 2am.
Even now, they're in our living talking like it's their house. Thankfully, Avril's friend Byron leaves for Croatia. Even though he's a Christian, he drives me nuts!
As for Nate and Dave. All they do is criticize me, call me woman (only Dave does) and make stereotypical comments. They also think it's okay to call people the N-Word!
I have asked Dave over and over again to stop calling me woman but he won't.
So, I'm done with them. Nate will probably not even bother with me. And I'm hoping to have healthy friend relationships with guys.
But anyway, I am excited to take a break studying, continue with training, working, and seeing my true friends. Friends who love me and don't correct everything I say.
Night!
Faith.
PS. Title from Two Steps From Hell.
Friday, September 6, 2013
1st Corinthians 13:7
I was told I'm not pretty tonight.
By a Christian guy.
At first, I was okay but then I balled.
But I realized why I wanted a boyfriend.
It wasn't to fill a void. Only Christ can. Not for people to stop bugging me because people would be like "hey, when are you getting married?!"
It goes back to being 13.
Starting at 13, I volunteered with CEF, where I was exposed to guys. But not in the most positive light.
True they were joking but through the years, they went too harsh.
They made fun of me anyway possible including my menstrual cycles and love of chocolate.
Then came the Christian groups where guys would barely acknowledge my existence.
Then I had two guys lie to me: one about his anti-dating group policy (he ended up with a girl from that group) and another who told me he was not looking for dating (had a profile online)
So, coming to college (residential school) I had high hopes...dashed.
Tonight, it all came crashing down....
But after crying about it, I had an overwhelming peace.....probably from the LORD.
Things have become clearer, less chaotic.
Love is a wonderful thing. God's love is the best. I always forget about it but I know He loves me.
He does! Jesus does love me! He loves because the Bible told me so!
Let a kids song humble you tonight. Let God's love in because I can you, it's wonderful!
I am praying I will trust Him even when things are going smoothly (which career wise is) so I pray I always His Love is amazing!
Thank You Lord for Your Love! Thank You for all Your blessings!
His Love is never ending and I pray I know it at all times!
Goodnight everyone! So excited to see my friends tomorrow!
Love, Faith.
By a Christian guy.
At first, I was okay but then I balled.
But I realized why I wanted a boyfriend.
It wasn't to fill a void. Only Christ can. Not for people to stop bugging me because people would be like "hey, when are you getting married?!"
It goes back to being 13.
Starting at 13, I volunteered with CEF, where I was exposed to guys. But not in the most positive light.
True they were joking but through the years, they went too harsh.
They made fun of me anyway possible including my menstrual cycles and love of chocolate.
Then came the Christian groups where guys would barely acknowledge my existence.
Then I had two guys lie to me: one about his anti-dating group policy (he ended up with a girl from that group) and another who told me he was not looking for dating (had a profile online)
So, coming to college (residential school) I had high hopes...dashed.
Tonight, it all came crashing down....
But after crying about it, I had an overwhelming peace.....probably from the LORD.
Things have become clearer, less chaotic.
Love is a wonderful thing. God's love is the best. I always forget about it but I know He loves me.
He does! Jesus does love me! He loves because the Bible told me so!
Let a kids song humble you tonight. Let God's love in because I can you, it's wonderful!
I am praying I will trust Him even when things are going smoothly (which career wise is) so I pray I always His Love is amazing!
Thank You Lord for Your Love! Thank You for all Your blessings!
His Love is never ending and I pray I know it at all times!
Goodnight everyone! So excited to see my friends tomorrow!
Love, Faith.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Becoming my own....being part of Christ....
hi!
After people telling what I should want or not want! (talking about all areas) I am becoming my own person!
So, how am I?
Hopefully over break, I will do something cooking.
As of now, I take care of my own bills, my dishes, grocery shopping, and laundry.
So, no more lecturing; I will make mistakes but hopefully with prayer and guidance from the LORD, I hope to stay strong.
I love my family, but sometimes, they still treat me like a child.
I won't put up with it anymore. No, sir (ma'am lol!) None of this stuff!
I realize Christ is my Identity (thanks Lecrae!) and He is the true source of everything; contentment, happiness, joy, and being complete.
No other human can do that.
When I'm alone, I'm not. Jesus is there with me always.
I need to remember that but it can be hard sometimes. But I'm hoping my love for the LORD grows!
I realize with all the advice in the world when it comes to relationships and being a grown up, I think I need to experience it first.
As for being ready for stuff (married couple stuff) that will have to wait (to talk about) till my fiance and I decide to talk about it. My sissy wants me to be prepared for something I have never done. Which is like preparing me for my driver's test without ANY experience.
So, somethings in life (college, driving, married life, kids) you have to experience. No matter how much I play with kids, I'm not ready to be a mom. I could have all the experience but not be 100%. I don't think every future parent is!
So, I have learned: somethings you do in life you have to do with faith. And life happens, but God's always in control.
Okay, folks. No perverted stuff intended!
Night.
Faith.
Book Review to follow tomorrow.....
After people telling what I should want or not want! (talking about all areas) I am becoming my own person!
So, how am I?
Hopefully over break, I will do something cooking.
As of now, I take care of my own bills, my dishes, grocery shopping, and laundry.
So, no more lecturing; I will make mistakes but hopefully with prayer and guidance from the LORD, I hope to stay strong.
I love my family, but sometimes, they still treat me like a child.
I won't put up with it anymore. No, sir (ma'am lol!) None of this stuff!
I realize Christ is my Identity (thanks Lecrae!) and He is the true source of everything; contentment, happiness, joy, and being complete.
No other human can do that.
When I'm alone, I'm not. Jesus is there with me always.
I need to remember that but it can be hard sometimes. But I'm hoping my love for the LORD grows!
I realize with all the advice in the world when it comes to relationships and being a grown up, I think I need to experience it first.
As for being ready for stuff (married couple stuff) that will have to wait (to talk about) till my fiance and I decide to talk about it. My sissy wants me to be prepared for something I have never done. Which is like preparing me for my driver's test without ANY experience.
So, somethings in life (college, driving, married life, kids) you have to experience. No matter how much I play with kids, I'm not ready to be a mom. I could have all the experience but not be 100%. I don't think every future parent is!
So, I have learned: somethings you do in life you have to do with faith. And life happens, but God's always in control.
Okay, folks. No perverted stuff intended!
Night.
Faith.
Book Review to follow tomorrow.....
Monday, September 2, 2013
I'm the wild one....and books.
heyy!
Well, I'm back at school, things are resolved with Avril. Still need to talk to Dave & Nate about things.
Anyways, I am excited for the great adventures in my life.
Hoping to learn more during my break including book shelf making.
I know it will take lots of work but I'm hoping I can start creating book shelves like the Batman one on Buzz Feed.
That's an awesome. If I could work for them, writing articles about books.
I'd love to write reviews on Books. If I could write, lol.
Which is why I want to have posts about books without revealing spoilers.
First one: "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak.
Stars: 5XXXXXXXX
The book is about a young girl who lives in Nazi Germany and of course, steals books.
In my opinion, there is a strong message about education and reading. I believe Nazi Germany was the way it was because of ignorance. I think the book burning was a horrible thing to do.
I highly recommend it. They're making a movie about it and I hope it is as great as the movie!
I know short, but I'm hoping for the reviews to become better.
Anyway, I would love to freelance for...anything one day!
Also, I'm looking to work for an Intellectual Property Internship.
Hopefully, it works out!
Well, Good night ya'll!
Faith.
Well, I'm back at school, things are resolved with Avril. Still need to talk to Dave & Nate about things.
Anyways, I am excited for the great adventures in my life.
Hoping to learn more during my break including book shelf making.
I know it will take lots of work but I'm hoping I can start creating book shelves like the Batman one on Buzz Feed.
That's an awesome. If I could work for them, writing articles about books.
I'd love to write reviews on Books. If I could write, lol.
Which is why I want to have posts about books without revealing spoilers.
First one: "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak.
Stars: 5XXXXXXXX
The book is about a young girl who lives in Nazi Germany and of course, steals books.
In my opinion, there is a strong message about education and reading. I believe Nazi Germany was the way it was because of ignorance. I think the book burning was a horrible thing to do.
I highly recommend it. They're making a movie about it and I hope it is as great as the movie!
I know short, but I'm hoping for the reviews to become better.
Anyway, I would love to freelance for...anything one day!
Also, I'm looking to work for an Intellectual Property Internship.
Hopefully, it works out!
Well, Good night ya'll!
Faith.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
"Live your dreams...."
heyy!
Well, things have been crazy lately and they're going to get crazier especially with the next two weeks of the end of the term coming up!
Soooo excited for break.
Relaxin', workin', and hangin' with the friends :)
Anyway, I have a question for meself.
Am I emotionally immature?
Because another Christian couple, only dated for a year, only in their sophomore year of college, are now engaged.
I am happy for them, but for myself, I wonder: am I too immature?
I will admit, I can be.
For instance, I drove home at 2am Saturday night because my roommate's friend who was sleeping over refused to turn off the TV and it was 1:30am.
I had a stressful day and wanted to sleep. I even tried to sleep with the TV on but couldn't.
So, I grabbed my stuff and hit the road.
Yep. I was nuts, totally crazy, but again, I was happy to be home.
I am not the best arguer, I don't have the best eye contact, and I let my shyness take over.
But God has created me for type of purpose.
When I was at an interview for a volunteer spot/potential internship next summer, I didn't think about dating. I just thought of the awesome opportunities that was in store.
But now, my work schedule is acting up. Praying it works out because this would be great to do for school!
So, when I have purpose, I don't soo sad. Just when I go through the same mundane stuff everyday. School & Work, that's when I get lonely.
I know God's plans for me are awesome; they're just waiting to happen.
I think once I'm settled on my own and have my own church, I think things will be great!
For the time being, I hope to do more adultish things. I hope to learn more and not freak out as much.
I'm working on my vibes too. Especially the relationships.
I'm going to try create a goal list of doing stuff before being in a relationship so I can keep myself busy.
There's probably someone out there for me. Probably like most men I know, he's not looking.
Which, I shouldn't be doing; I confuse myself.
But I am going to go full steam ahead, trying to find more girlfriends on campus to hang out with; nicer people anyway since Dave and Nate are driving me nuts.
So, off to bed, but things I want to do before I'm in a relationship:
Visit 90% of the states
Go to a Europe Country
Go to a fancy bookstore
Or a fancy library
Learn to build book shelves
Live in a city
Have a funky apartment
A loft bed would be nice
An overseas missions trip
India.
See every Hitchcock movie
Watch most Bogart, Bacall, Stewart, and Grant movies.
Own a mini cooper. And a motorcycle.
Sit in an Dancing with the Stars show.
Learn to dance.
Publish a book.
Be able to take care of myself 100% like guys can do.
Be my own person.
Nate treated me like an inferior human being has made me realize I am going to stop looking for a guy. Especially his type.
So, I'm following the LORD's, and following my dreams.
Night!
Faith.
"Live your dreams..."-All or Nothing by Athena Cage.
Well, things have been crazy lately and they're going to get crazier especially with the next two weeks of the end of the term coming up!
Soooo excited for break.
Relaxin', workin', and hangin' with the friends :)
Anyway, I have a question for meself.
Am I emotionally immature?
Because another Christian couple, only dated for a year, only in their sophomore year of college, are now engaged.
I am happy for them, but for myself, I wonder: am I too immature?
I will admit, I can be.
For instance, I drove home at 2am Saturday night because my roommate's friend who was sleeping over refused to turn off the TV and it was 1:30am.
I had a stressful day and wanted to sleep. I even tried to sleep with the TV on but couldn't.
So, I grabbed my stuff and hit the road.
Yep. I was nuts, totally crazy, but again, I was happy to be home.
I am not the best arguer, I don't have the best eye contact, and I let my shyness take over.
But God has created me for type of purpose.
When I was at an interview for a volunteer spot/potential internship next summer, I didn't think about dating. I just thought of the awesome opportunities that was in store.
But now, my work schedule is acting up. Praying it works out because this would be great to do for school!
So, when I have purpose, I don't soo sad. Just when I go through the same mundane stuff everyday. School & Work, that's when I get lonely.
I know God's plans for me are awesome; they're just waiting to happen.
I think once I'm settled on my own and have my own church, I think things will be great!
For the time being, I hope to do more adultish things. I hope to learn more and not freak out as much.
I'm working on my vibes too. Especially the relationships.
I'm going to try create a goal list of doing stuff before being in a relationship so I can keep myself busy.
There's probably someone out there for me. Probably like most men I know, he's not looking.
Which, I shouldn't be doing; I confuse myself.
But I am going to go full steam ahead, trying to find more girlfriends on campus to hang out with; nicer people anyway since Dave and Nate are driving me nuts.
So, off to bed, but things I want to do before I'm in a relationship:
Visit 90% of the states
Go to a Europe Country
Go to a fancy bookstore
Or a fancy library
Learn to build book shelves
Live in a city
Have a funky apartment
A loft bed would be nice
An overseas missions trip
India.
See every Hitchcock movie
Watch most Bogart, Bacall, Stewart, and Grant movies.
Own a mini cooper. And a motorcycle.
Sit in an Dancing with the Stars show.
Learn to dance.
Publish a book.
Be able to take care of myself 100% like guys can do.
Be my own person.
Nate treated me like an inferior human being has made me realize I am going to stop looking for a guy. Especially his type.
So, I'm following the LORD's, and following my dreams.
Night!
Faith.
"Live your dreams..."-All or Nothing by Athena Cage.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Trying These Adult Things....
wellll....!
Hey!
Trying to be an adult is a hard balance.
I realize in a year, I will be out of the nest. Officially.
Soon, I have my own bills, my own place, and my own complete.
True, I live on campus, do my own chores, pay my own bills, pay car stuff, and all that jazz.
But I don't truly know how to be my own person.
I have always been labeled. But in the last couple of years, I have been only known as "Faith."
Anyway, I told my parents about my drinking experience back in June.
They freaked. But they were more mad at Beth.
Why? Well, they think since she's 20 years older, she should have known better with my meds.
But yeah, it was stupid but all my fault.
So, Rachel lectured me then but also telling my parents was dumb.
True, it was.
Anyway, she told me to stop being so emotional dependent from them.
Now, I have NO one. I have no idea to go to about advice.
Internships? I can go to my advisers. Volunteer stuff? Easy. Finding a church? Found one.
Finding apartments? Completely lost. Finding a job? Iffy.
I don't know. I'm just frustrated because Nate & Dave are being aholes (pardon my French) by correcting everything I say.
They keep telling me they are trying to teach me to become a "critical thinker" but all they are doing is crushing my ego and raising my blood pressure. Making me more lonely.
I'm so scared. Out of all the women in my family (mom, Rach, and me) I am the weakest.
Mom, at 19, moved out because her family was evil (kept money from her for college, sold all her stuff) didn't want to get married till 26. Married at 29.
Rachel, wanted to get her PH.D. Started dating Stephen at 19. Married at 22. Might go to grad school.
Yes, I am desperate, but because people are not there. My friends are soo far away from me. All my Mom does is criticize me, Dave & Nate, make me feel like I'm on egg shells. I can't find any girl on campus to be with me.
So, yes, the career stuff is working out.....but my personal life sucks right now.
Yet, in all this crazy mess, I am blessed. My persona life might suck but the LORD is still with me.
I know He's still in control. You might think I'm crazy but I believe it.
I can't wait to get away from Nate & Dave. I think I will need to. I can't be around people who made me feel like I was on egg shells.
Remember CEF?
So, I am leaving them behind. I will talk to them. In a calm like manner. I won't get hysterical because I won't get be taken seriously.
Will I become a critical thinker? I don't know and at this point, I don't care.
Nate is treating me like a computer. If a part is acting up or acting funny, he probably tries to fix it. He probably thinks he could get two wires of my brain together like he does with computers.
Yeah, his Sheldon is coming out again. I thought he wasn't. But he is.
So, I'm like a China Doll right now but hopefully, the LORD will be able to keep the pieces together.
No more third wheel. No more crap.
Working tomorrow, spending time with Janelle on Sunday, and working Labor Day Monday.
So, goodnight.
Faith.
Hey!
Trying to be an adult is a hard balance.
I realize in a year, I will be out of the nest. Officially.
Soon, I have my own bills, my own place, and my own complete.
True, I live on campus, do my own chores, pay my own bills, pay car stuff, and all that jazz.
But I don't truly know how to be my own person.
I have always been labeled. But in the last couple of years, I have been only known as "Faith."
Anyway, I told my parents about my drinking experience back in June.
They freaked. But they were more mad at Beth.
Why? Well, they think since she's 20 years older, she should have known better with my meds.
But yeah, it was stupid but all my fault.
So, Rachel lectured me then but also telling my parents was dumb.
True, it was.
Anyway, she told me to stop being so emotional dependent from them.
Now, I have NO one. I have no idea to go to about advice.
Internships? I can go to my advisers. Volunteer stuff? Easy. Finding a church? Found one.
Finding apartments? Completely lost. Finding a job? Iffy.
I don't know. I'm just frustrated because Nate & Dave are being aholes (pardon my French) by correcting everything I say.
They keep telling me they are trying to teach me to become a "critical thinker" but all they are doing is crushing my ego and raising my blood pressure. Making me more lonely.
I'm so scared. Out of all the women in my family (mom, Rach, and me) I am the weakest.
Mom, at 19, moved out because her family was evil (kept money from her for college, sold all her stuff) didn't want to get married till 26. Married at 29.
Rachel, wanted to get her PH.D. Started dating Stephen at 19. Married at 22. Might go to grad school.
Yes, I am desperate, but because people are not there. My friends are soo far away from me. All my Mom does is criticize me, Dave & Nate, make me feel like I'm on egg shells. I can't find any girl on campus to be with me.
So, yes, the career stuff is working out.....but my personal life sucks right now.
Yet, in all this crazy mess, I am blessed. My persona life might suck but the LORD is still with me.
I know He's still in control. You might think I'm crazy but I believe it.
I can't wait to get away from Nate & Dave. I think I will need to. I can't be around people who made me feel like I was on egg shells.
Remember CEF?
So, I am leaving them behind. I will talk to them. In a calm like manner. I won't get hysterical because I won't get be taken seriously.
Will I become a critical thinker? I don't know and at this point, I don't care.
Nate is treating me like a computer. If a part is acting up or acting funny, he probably tries to fix it. He probably thinks he could get two wires of my brain together like he does with computers.
Yeah, his Sheldon is coming out again. I thought he wasn't. But he is.
So, I'm like a China Doll right now but hopefully, the LORD will be able to keep the pieces together.
No more third wheel. No more crap.
Working tomorrow, spending time with Janelle on Sunday, and working Labor Day Monday.
So, goodnight.
Faith.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
A Late Night Inspiration....
A question was raised on Facebook.....
well, from boundless.org anyway:
Agree or Disagree: I have felt embarrassed to admit I want to get married.
I agreed.
Why? Everyone acts if you want to get married, especially if you're a female, that you're not content with your life or desperate or you're not cool with Jesus.
This is not a rant but something I have seen and experienced.
But I don't understand.
God made us. He also made love. What is shameful to love? What is so shameful to have a desire to get married?
If you go back to Genesis, God created marriage right away. He didn't have to. He could have made them friends and they could have been platonic but God designed marriage to beautiful.
Marriage is a beautiful especially when Christ-Centered. I love hearing love stories. I love hearing how one person felt for the other one.
My favorite has to be Darren and Grace's. They knew each other for four years and I think he liked her a lot just was quiet about it.
It's amazing how they knew each other for so long, but now, their love story and marriage has been an inspiration for me because it shows how God works things out for our good.
Will I be married one day? 100% of people have said yes. Most people think I'm married (don't understand that, I don't wear any rings; it's kind of funny at work though)
So, sometimes I think "yes I will be!" other times I'm all like "No, no guy likes a quiet girl." or "I'm never getting married!"
But even Nate knows it will one day work out. When I first met him, I thought he was a machine but he is a man with emotions and sometimes...wisdom. It's kind of freaky.
But yeah, this is not a rant. But a post full of hope, love, faith, peace, and one day, patience.
So, I know whether God calls me to be a housefrau or a single woman who can devote more time to other things, I know His plans are fantastic!
Hopefully though, a little fear of mine is lack of friends. I hope to at least have some friends to hang out with even when they're all married and have kids. I hope to spoil their kids a lot!
I can't wait till I have real nieces and nephews to spoil and travel the world with.
So, God is the greatest dude in my life. Then comes Jesus, my Dad, and Stephen.
So, I'm hoping to keep God, Jesus, and my future whoever in that order!
I pray that I am content during this season. I want God use me in ways to glorify Him now!
So you're single, don't be ashamed. God created you to love and love freely! Just don't be like the crazy stalker people because that's not real love. That's crazy, lol.
On another note, I am going to Carlisle Church and hang out with the crew. I'm excited to see the church since they have a new sanctuary (looks like a movie theater!) and finish some homework. I highly doubt I will hang out with the gang too long especially since some of the ladies won't be there.
Only a couple more weeks and I will be done with the summer term! Excited beyond all measure!
Hang out with friends, work some more, and some roadtrips, oh yeah!
Goodnight. Faith.
well, from boundless.org anyway:
Agree or Disagree: I have felt embarrassed to admit I want to get married.
I agreed.
Why? Everyone acts if you want to get married, especially if you're a female, that you're not content with your life or desperate or you're not cool with Jesus.
This is not a rant but something I have seen and experienced.
But I don't understand.
God made us. He also made love. What is shameful to love? What is so shameful to have a desire to get married?
If you go back to Genesis, God created marriage right away. He didn't have to. He could have made them friends and they could have been platonic but God designed marriage to beautiful.
Marriage is a beautiful especially when Christ-Centered. I love hearing love stories. I love hearing how one person felt for the other one.
My favorite has to be Darren and Grace's. They knew each other for four years and I think he liked her a lot just was quiet about it.
It's amazing how they knew each other for so long, but now, their love story and marriage has been an inspiration for me because it shows how God works things out for our good.
Will I be married one day? 100% of people have said yes. Most people think I'm married (don't understand that, I don't wear any rings; it's kind of funny at work though)
So, sometimes I think "yes I will be!" other times I'm all like "No, no guy likes a quiet girl." or "I'm never getting married!"
But even Nate knows it will one day work out. When I first met him, I thought he was a machine but he is a man with emotions and sometimes...wisdom. It's kind of freaky.
But yeah, this is not a rant. But a post full of hope, love, faith, peace, and one day, patience.
So, I know whether God calls me to be a housefrau or a single woman who can devote more time to other things, I know His plans are fantastic!
Hopefully though, a little fear of mine is lack of friends. I hope to at least have some friends to hang out with even when they're all married and have kids. I hope to spoil their kids a lot!
I can't wait till I have real nieces and nephews to spoil and travel the world with.
So, God is the greatest dude in my life. Then comes Jesus, my Dad, and Stephen.
So, I'm hoping to keep God, Jesus, and my future whoever in that order!
I pray that I am content during this season. I want God use me in ways to glorify Him now!
So you're single, don't be ashamed. God created you to love and love freely! Just don't be like the crazy stalker people because that's not real love. That's crazy, lol.
On another note, I am going to Carlisle Church and hang out with the crew. I'm excited to see the church since they have a new sanctuary (looks like a movie theater!) and finish some homework. I highly doubt I will hang out with the gang too long especially since some of the ladies won't be there.
Only a couple more weeks and I will be done with the summer term! Excited beyond all measure!
Hang out with friends, work some more, and some roadtrips, oh yeah!
Goodnight. Faith.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
is it break yet....?
hey!
Sorry, just had a rough day.
Really rough day.
Things are kind of not working in my favor.
In a way they are; my job is great and my professors are great and I like my classes, it's just people.
People.
WHY?!
I'm not going to say "I don't have any friends" I'm just going to say "I miss them like crazay because the people at my school (not all) suck!"
Even Dave is on the suck level.
Lately, in my sadish/reflective/philosophic moods, I ask myself something: Why do we have friends?
Honestly, think about it. Friends, they're easy to make, but easy to brake.
All a friend has to do is exclude from an event or spend 100% with their boyfriend and you're not friends anymore.
Now, my good friends, have been pretty good but seriously, dropping me because of your boyfriend sucks.
I mean, being content single, is especially hard when the people around you don't hang out with you or with their boyfriends!
That is why I think single people want a boy/girlfriend.
Because, then they won't be lonely, right?
Well, some people say yes, others say no.
I honestly don't want a boyfriend but I wanted one for the longest time because I was lonely.
I know he will have his own friends and his own life, but sometimes, I don't have anyone talk to.
The only people I talk to about stuff are through here, FB or text.
But I miss the one on one, let's hang out and chill thing.
Nate and Dave are great but I realize I'm kind of the third wheel. They have a tight bromance.
Avril is great but she is harassed by people constantly and I really don't talk to her about serious.
So, yes, I need human contact.
I need it.
I need to be told, it's okay, Jesus loves me, and that they (my friend) likes/loves me too.
But I feel most of my friendships are slowly falling apart, crumbling under a weak foundation.
When you meet someone, especially in the friend role, you connect instantly, start doing stuff together, and plan together.
But I don't have any of that at school. I do stuff with Dave & Nate but I realize, as guys, they probably won't miss me.
Am I going to stop eating lunch with them? Probably. Mostly because I feel too sad to sit there, feeling neglected.
Goodness, in this moment, I wish I was a guy.
Idk but guys seem more content. Sometimes, Dave & Nate just play video games and watch movies or things on youtube and they're fine.
Why can't I?
I think I am having a identity crisis.
I know my identity is in Christ, I do, but yet, I feel lost in the shuffle everywhere else.
Now, I feel like because I'm at school, I feel like I'm losing friends and I'm not gaining any.
I'm staying down this weekend and I'm thankful for the Carlisle church because they're are some great people.
I think my problem is I depend on people too much to make me happy that when they do something, I explode.
Idk, doing college, working, and trying to figure out where I will live is bullcrap.
I just know that I'm scared. That I need to talk to God more. Stop depending on people for my happiness. Only depend on Jesus.
So, what else?
It's nuts. My co-mediator partner is still giving me a hard time. I think that's what adding to the stress. Because, we got along great till this term, now she is really snooty. Just to people in general.
I like the older students in my department. The people my age suck.
Anyway, maybe I am an old lady stuck in a young body?
So, sorry for the rant!
I realize I need Jesus's friendship more than I do from people from my school.
Okay, I am tired. Again, sorry!
Faith.
Sorry, just had a rough day.
Really rough day.
Things are kind of not working in my favor.
In a way they are; my job is great and my professors are great and I like my classes, it's just people.
People.
WHY?!
I'm not going to say "I don't have any friends" I'm just going to say "I miss them like crazay because the people at my school (not all) suck!"
Even Dave is on the suck level.
Lately, in my sadish/reflective/philosophic moods, I ask myself something: Why do we have friends?
Honestly, think about it. Friends, they're easy to make, but easy to brake.
All a friend has to do is exclude from an event or spend 100% with their boyfriend and you're not friends anymore.
Now, my good friends, have been pretty good but seriously, dropping me because of your boyfriend sucks.
I mean, being content single, is especially hard when the people around you don't hang out with you or with their boyfriends!
That is why I think single people want a boy/girlfriend.
Because, then they won't be lonely, right?
Well, some people say yes, others say no.
I honestly don't want a boyfriend but I wanted one for the longest time because I was lonely.
I know he will have his own friends and his own life, but sometimes, I don't have anyone talk to.
The only people I talk to about stuff are through here, FB or text.
But I miss the one on one, let's hang out and chill thing.
Nate and Dave are great but I realize I'm kind of the third wheel. They have a tight bromance.
Avril is great but she is harassed by people constantly and I really don't talk to her about serious.
So, yes, I need human contact.
I need it.
I need to be told, it's okay, Jesus loves me, and that they (my friend) likes/loves me too.
But I feel most of my friendships are slowly falling apart, crumbling under a weak foundation.
When you meet someone, especially in the friend role, you connect instantly, start doing stuff together, and plan together.
But I don't have any of that at school. I do stuff with Dave & Nate but I realize, as guys, they probably won't miss me.
Am I going to stop eating lunch with them? Probably. Mostly because I feel too sad to sit there, feeling neglected.
Goodness, in this moment, I wish I was a guy.
Idk but guys seem more content. Sometimes, Dave & Nate just play video games and watch movies or things on youtube and they're fine.
Why can't I?
I think I am having a identity crisis.
I know my identity is in Christ, I do, but yet, I feel lost in the shuffle everywhere else.
Now, I feel like because I'm at school, I feel like I'm losing friends and I'm not gaining any.
I'm staying down this weekend and I'm thankful for the Carlisle church because they're are some great people.
I think my problem is I depend on people too much to make me happy that when they do something, I explode.
Idk, doing college, working, and trying to figure out where I will live is bullcrap.
I just know that I'm scared. That I need to talk to God more. Stop depending on people for my happiness. Only depend on Jesus.
So, what else?
It's nuts. My co-mediator partner is still giving me a hard time. I think that's what adding to the stress. Because, we got along great till this term, now she is really snooty. Just to people in general.
I like the older students in my department. The people my age suck.
Anyway, maybe I am an old lady stuck in a young body?
So, sorry for the rant!
I realize I need Jesus's friendship more than I do from people from my school.
Okay, I am tired. Again, sorry!
Faith.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Music and all that Jazz....
hey ya'll!
Well, school has been good.
I know it's only Tuesday but due to the fact my crim law professor is taking his other class to Eastern State Pen, we will not have class and I already finished the assignment.
So, I only have Legal Com and ADR. Then I will study for Civil Lit and Legal Research. Not much for this week in ADR. Just a video and a discussion board.
What else?
Well, I've been thinking about music.
Most of the music people love back in the Skook is COUNTRY!
Then come to my school where most people are from Philly, NYC, or NJ, they love RAP!
Then you meet my more conservative friends and they only listen to CHRISTIAN!
Then there's me; I listen to everything.
What I don't understand is why people are sooo bothered by classical?
So what if it doesn't have lyrics?
Think about what the pop lyrics are about: one night stands, sex in general breakups, fights, and lost long love.
Sorry Country Lovin' peoples but what I hear on the country channel at work is depressing love songs. On the radio, it's....well, that and some risky stuff....pushing the limits, lolz.
Then Rap is about people each other up, having sex with each other, drugs, and how the world is a terrible place.
With classical music, Piano Guys, Lindsey Stirling, and that genre in general, the music speaks. No sad words, no obsession with love and/or sex.
I find it relaxing and I'm able to escape from the real world.
Plus, it doesn't help that
1. Radio OVERPLAYS (even Christian Radio is guilty) everything!
2. People blast music and sing loudly curse words, sex, or offensive stuff while walking away. BTW, not always the best singers either.
I try not to judge people about their music but goodness, why get sooo weird about classical?!
Remember, that was the ONLY thing people listen to at one time.
Even in the Christian realm, hymns are sometimes soo beautiful but modern churches are dumb and exclude them. So, powerful, and biblical.
God creates everyone and of course, some love classical and others love Country.
As long as people aren't hatin' (yes on purpose!) on Classical, I'm good.
In other news, Byron is staying again!
If they are not dating and not sleeping with each other, then WHY?
I mean, neither Nate or Dave have come to my room. Nate would rather be hurt in the really sensitive area of his body than stand in my room.
So, I don't get it but yet, I don't get Byron. Honestly, for a Christian guy, he actually drives me nuts!
I know he is a young Christian but man, do I want to punch him where it hurt with some of the things he says (surprisedly, he's not rude or crude, if he's not at work-study or class, he's HERE) and when they're here, they don't even talk, they watch TV.
So, yeah. Avril is great, but I already asked her to ask him to stop staying soo many nights.
Oy, but he's going to Croatia so I'm happy he will be gone for two and a half months.
Night ya'll!
Faith.
Well, school has been good.
I know it's only Tuesday but due to the fact my crim law professor is taking his other class to Eastern State Pen, we will not have class and I already finished the assignment.
So, I only have Legal Com and ADR. Then I will study for Civil Lit and Legal Research. Not much for this week in ADR. Just a video and a discussion board.
What else?
Well, I've been thinking about music.
Most of the music people love back in the Skook is COUNTRY!
Then come to my school where most people are from Philly, NYC, or NJ, they love RAP!
Then you meet my more conservative friends and they only listen to CHRISTIAN!
Then there's me; I listen to everything.
What I don't understand is why people are sooo bothered by classical?
So what if it doesn't have lyrics?
Think about what the pop lyrics are about: one night stands, sex in general breakups, fights, and lost long love.
Sorry Country Lovin' peoples but what I hear on the country channel at work is depressing love songs. On the radio, it's....well, that and some risky stuff....pushing the limits, lolz.
Then Rap is about people each other up, having sex with each other, drugs, and how the world is a terrible place.
With classical music, Piano Guys, Lindsey Stirling, and that genre in general, the music speaks. No sad words, no obsession with love and/or sex.
I find it relaxing and I'm able to escape from the real world.
Plus, it doesn't help that
1. Radio OVERPLAYS (even Christian Radio is guilty) everything!
2. People blast music and sing loudly curse words, sex, or offensive stuff while walking away. BTW, not always the best singers either.
I try not to judge people about their music but goodness, why get sooo weird about classical?!
Remember, that was the ONLY thing people listen to at one time.
Even in the Christian realm, hymns are sometimes soo beautiful but modern churches are dumb and exclude them. So, powerful, and biblical.
God creates everyone and of course, some love classical and others love Country.
As long as people aren't hatin' (yes on purpose!) on Classical, I'm good.
In other news, Byron is staying again!
If they are not dating and not sleeping with each other, then WHY?
I mean, neither Nate or Dave have come to my room. Nate would rather be hurt in the really sensitive area of his body than stand in my room.
So, I don't get it but yet, I don't get Byron. Honestly, for a Christian guy, he actually drives me nuts!
I know he is a young Christian but man, do I want to punch him where it hurt with some of the things he says (surprisedly, he's not rude or crude, if he's not at work-study or class, he's HERE) and when they're here, they don't even talk, they watch TV.
So, yeah. Avril is great, but I already asked her to ask him to stop staying soo many nights.
Oy, but he's going to Croatia so I'm happy he will be gone for two and a half months.
Night ya'll!
Faith.
Monday, August 19, 2013
Job History....
hi ya'll!
It's been awhile since I've posted but Stef posted in her blog about her current and she asked, what did we do if we hated our jobs?
Then last night I thought of all the jobs I had:
1. Dishewasher. Green's.
From Jan 2008 till Oct 2009 I worked as a Dishwasher at a local restaurant. It was my first job and by summer 2008, I had gotten my first laptop. It is very close to my house and for the most part, it was great.
Some downs were a good looking co-worker trying to sleep with me (never happened lol) and the fact of how you were promoted there. In August 2008, I was supposed to get the Hostess position. I even practiced. However, a girl got it before.
Co-workers were shocked. Especially the girl my boss hired. She was not nice and I wait on her at my current job and she does not like me. She won't even say hi. She was rude, obnoxious, and weirdly, angry.
So for a year, things were fine. But my boss just yelled at me, screaming. I don't even remember all the details. It's fuzzy. I quit my job.
I didn't go there for a year and when the first time I came back, things seemed to be back to normal and since then, I get along with my co-workers.
Mother's Day was the worst but thankfully, I survived.
2. Package Handler. UPS.
I was worried to find a job. I prayed and I looked. Two weeks after quitting, I saw an opening for UPS. I went to the interview but he told me being in school would not fit the hours.
An hour later, I get a phone call him telling me that they had a warehouse opening for the holiday season.
Two days later, I came and trained. I handled lots of packages and worked at the store. It was crazy but paid well. It was day by day schedule but it was a blessing to work there.
The HR dude, was actually a part time Pastor and knew I was quiet. Yeah, I get that a lot.
So, they didn't keep me on, but I was okay with that. Too busy for my liking.
3. CEF.
As you have all read my CEF posts, there were good times, and there were bad times.
Two months after UPS, I interviewed for the position for CEF and was accepted. As a summer missionary, I was reaching kids!
Even though I have complained about CEF, it is a great place because kids learn about the LORD. Sometimes, though, people in ministry can become legalistic in any place.
But if bosses weren't emotional and yell at you, like at any job, it probably would have been a lot better. Directors need to take a course in professionalism.
I do have some scars from the place but when I worked with them again at the church in H-burg, it was all good.
4. Bon-Ton. Sales Associate.
After a somewhat bad summer with CEF, I went looking again. In October of 2011, I started to work for Bon-Ton.
Out of all the places I wish they would have kept me, I wish it was Bon-Ton!
Bosses were soo nice, customers were good and associates were nice. After knowing co-workers from CEF too well, it was nice to work in an environment where it was more professional.
The ladies were nice to work with too. Sadly, they didn't keep me. But going to school in the next year, I knew I would have quit sooner or later.
5. Kohl's. Sales Associate.
So, for another two months, I was without a job.
Looking again, I went to Kohl's because they were opening a new store.
I remember going to the job fair in January 2012 and didn't even schedule an interview.
I sat down and started filling out the application when all of sudden I heard my name called.
A month later, I got the call.
Though it was nice in the beginning working all those hours, claws started to come out and it was bad.
Finally, my next job needed people. I resigned from Kohl's. The boss was nice; he asked if I wanted to come in once a night but I told thank you but no.
6. Current job. Turkey Hill. Sales Associate.
Days of quitting Kohl's, I started Turkey Hill. From July 2012 till October 2012 I worked 29 hours a week.
Since then, I worked mostly weekends and on breaks, 29 hours a week.
It has its ups and downs like any job but I have great customers, a moody (but I'm use to it by now) good co-workers and I don't have to use lots of gas!
So, it has been a blessing to work there.
After Turkey Hill, of course, I hope to work as a paralegal.
So you wonder, with all those jobs, how did I handle cranky co-workers, bosses, and customers?!
At times it was hard but I did many things: pray, read my bible, and of course, remind myself Jesus loves them.
It sounds easy but it can be hard. CEF and Kohl's made me cry the most, while Bon-Ton and Turkey Hill I only cried one time at both.
Customer service is hard. You try to explain to customers what to do and they refuse. They tell you one and change their minds. They get mad when I ask for ID and throw their ID's at me. They can annoy the heck out of me.
But I am thankful for the job. I worked 17 hours this past weekend and because I don't use gas for work, it has been a blessing to help me out.
Will I miss TH when I leave? Somethings, not all (especially those pumps!)
So, I know Stef and Janelle are not at the jobs they want to be, and I hope & pray they can jobs that are better for them. It'll also be nice to see Stef more often too!
Anyway, on another note, I'm in week 7 of school. Only four more weeks and I will be done for the summer term!
Oh Good Golly Miss Molly!
Faith.
It's been awhile since I've posted but Stef posted in her blog about her current and she asked, what did we do if we hated our jobs?
Then last night I thought of all the jobs I had:
1. Dishewasher. Green's.
From Jan 2008 till Oct 2009 I worked as a Dishwasher at a local restaurant. It was my first job and by summer 2008, I had gotten my first laptop. It is very close to my house and for the most part, it was great.
Some downs were a good looking co-worker trying to sleep with me (never happened lol) and the fact of how you were promoted there. In August 2008, I was supposed to get the Hostess position. I even practiced. However, a girl got it before.
Co-workers were shocked. Especially the girl my boss hired. She was not nice and I wait on her at my current job and she does not like me. She won't even say hi. She was rude, obnoxious, and weirdly, angry.
So for a year, things were fine. But my boss just yelled at me, screaming. I don't even remember all the details. It's fuzzy. I quit my job.
I didn't go there for a year and when the first time I came back, things seemed to be back to normal and since then, I get along with my co-workers.
Mother's Day was the worst but thankfully, I survived.
2. Package Handler. UPS.
I was worried to find a job. I prayed and I looked. Two weeks after quitting, I saw an opening for UPS. I went to the interview but he told me being in school would not fit the hours.
An hour later, I get a phone call him telling me that they had a warehouse opening for the holiday season.
Two days later, I came and trained. I handled lots of packages and worked at the store. It was crazy but paid well. It was day by day schedule but it was a blessing to work there.
The HR dude, was actually a part time Pastor and knew I was quiet. Yeah, I get that a lot.
So, they didn't keep me on, but I was okay with that. Too busy for my liking.
3. CEF.
As you have all read my CEF posts, there were good times, and there were bad times.
Two months after UPS, I interviewed for the position for CEF and was accepted. As a summer missionary, I was reaching kids!
Even though I have complained about CEF, it is a great place because kids learn about the LORD. Sometimes, though, people in ministry can become legalistic in any place.
But if bosses weren't emotional and yell at you, like at any job, it probably would have been a lot better. Directors need to take a course in professionalism.
I do have some scars from the place but when I worked with them again at the church in H-burg, it was all good.
4. Bon-Ton. Sales Associate.
After a somewhat bad summer with CEF, I went looking again. In October of 2011, I started to work for Bon-Ton.
Out of all the places I wish they would have kept me, I wish it was Bon-Ton!
Bosses were soo nice, customers were good and associates were nice. After knowing co-workers from CEF too well, it was nice to work in an environment where it was more professional.
The ladies were nice to work with too. Sadly, they didn't keep me. But going to school in the next year, I knew I would have quit sooner or later.
5. Kohl's. Sales Associate.
So, for another two months, I was without a job.
Looking again, I went to Kohl's because they were opening a new store.
I remember going to the job fair in January 2012 and didn't even schedule an interview.
I sat down and started filling out the application when all of sudden I heard my name called.
A month later, I got the call.
Though it was nice in the beginning working all those hours, claws started to come out and it was bad.
Finally, my next job needed people. I resigned from Kohl's. The boss was nice; he asked if I wanted to come in once a night but I told thank you but no.
6. Current job. Turkey Hill. Sales Associate.
Days of quitting Kohl's, I started Turkey Hill. From July 2012 till October 2012 I worked 29 hours a week.
Since then, I worked mostly weekends and on breaks, 29 hours a week.
It has its ups and downs like any job but I have great customers, a moody (but I'm use to it by now) good co-workers and I don't have to use lots of gas!
So, it has been a blessing to work there.
After Turkey Hill, of course, I hope to work as a paralegal.
So you wonder, with all those jobs, how did I handle cranky co-workers, bosses, and customers?!
At times it was hard but I did many things: pray, read my bible, and of course, remind myself Jesus loves them.
It sounds easy but it can be hard. CEF and Kohl's made me cry the most, while Bon-Ton and Turkey Hill I only cried one time at both.
Customer service is hard. You try to explain to customers what to do and they refuse. They tell you one and change their minds. They get mad when I ask for ID and throw their ID's at me. They can annoy the heck out of me.
But I am thankful for the job. I worked 17 hours this past weekend and because I don't use gas for work, it has been a blessing to help me out.
Will I miss TH when I leave? Somethings, not all (especially those pumps!)
So, I know Stef and Janelle are not at the jobs they want to be, and I hope & pray they can jobs that are better for them. It'll also be nice to see Stef more often too!
Anyway, on another note, I'm in week 7 of school. Only four more weeks and I will be done for the summer term!
Oh Good Golly Miss Molly!
Faith.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
What I wanted to call this post.....
hi!
It was an okay day with Grandma. We had to hang out with her for her birthday.
We went to kind of a sucky Italian place where I hardly ate of the food.
Then we went to a place called Premise Maid which is a big tourist trap.
Thankfully today, I got a Berry Coolatta from Dunkin and a good yummy Chicken Salad Sandwich from Wawa.
Anyway, the only thing was my sister lecturing me on getting a tattoo but good otherwise.
I should be heading to bed. Got get up for the uniform drive and head back to school.
Okay, goodnight!
Faith.
P.S. The only hint is that it would have been a depressing song title.
It was an okay day with Grandma. We had to hang out with her for her birthday.
We went to kind of a sucky Italian place where I hardly ate of the food.
Then we went to a place called Premise Maid which is a big tourist trap.
Thankfully today, I got a Berry Coolatta from Dunkin and a good yummy Chicken Salad Sandwich from Wawa.
Anyway, the only thing was my sister lecturing me on getting a tattoo but good otherwise.
I should be heading to bed. Got get up for the uniform drive and head back to school.
Okay, goodnight!
Faith.
P.S. The only hint is that it would have been a depressing song title.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Rats In Aquafina.....
hi!
Well, I have been busy again. I helped out with the church in Harrisburg with the uniform drive.
I plan on shopping with Beth on Monday to help again with the uniform drive.
Thanks to helping out with the church, I feel like I have purpose again.
With the weeks usually being school & work, sometimes fun and sometimes friends, I felt empty.....
I know my walk with the LORD hasn't been the strongest. But with all the stuff that has happened in my life, it is hard to find a home and I'm talking about a church.
The best church is in Carlisle but due to the fact I have work on Sundays, I can't go.
I'm hoping to go in September. I will have two weekends so I hope I can attend then.
I realize helping out others, going to school, working, and even having a boyfriend won't heal the broken bits that are still in my heart.
I have been emotionally wounded and I'm honestly scared that a guy will never bother with me, especially with my high school behavior. Karma sucks.
I never did anything wrong. I just followed my heart too much. I never did anything bad with guys.
Just in the Christian world, a woman can't follow her heart. It's always about the man's heart.
Sorry, church, you've been hurting ladies too long!
I hope to help out ladies who have been hurt by the purity movement.
There are soooo many wonderful Godly women in this world that guys seem dumb not to notice her!
So, I'm not throwing a pity me party! I want women to realize how wonderfully God created them and how guys are just plain stupid!
I realize I will be a late bloomer with love. I've never been in love and I'm afraid to fall in love. My Mama always said "never love something that doesn't love you back"
I just wish Jake saw the high school graduate and in college me.
Does he realize how I've changed?! But he refuses to get to know me.
I know, you're all telling to let go, but sadly, that is my downfall: not letting things go.
But one question is still bugging why: when I went to my first EEG for my seizure in '09, Jake woke up with his Mom at 5am to pray for me!
None of my girlfriends did at the time! None of the people from my church, yet, he did!
So, why?!
Anyway, that will ever be a question never answered.
I'm realizing God is using me to help out in the bad part of Harrisburg! I know it was nerve racking at first, since it is dangerous but I know God protects!
I just wish He'd get rid of this dark cloud that seems to hover and the bright neon sign that says: "Don't date her!"
Though my housefrau skills sucks and at this point, I don't want to have any children biologically. Helping out in Harrisburg has made me realized that there are sooo many children without loving parents and I hope to adopt one of those kids even though I am not the strongest person on the planet. If all they ever remember me about is me teaching them about God's love, then I will be thankful!
I'm hoping to get a Spanish-English Bible that will help me to learn more Spanish!
Thanks for putting up with me and just keep praying I have the strength and calmness to carry on!
Oh, yeah about the title post, my crazy co-worker believes Aquafina puts rats in their water.
It might explain some customer's and people in Harrisburg's behavior, lol j/k!
Thank you all sooo much!
Love, Faith.
Well, I have been busy again. I helped out with the church in Harrisburg with the uniform drive.
I plan on shopping with Beth on Monday to help again with the uniform drive.
Thanks to helping out with the church, I feel like I have purpose again.
With the weeks usually being school & work, sometimes fun and sometimes friends, I felt empty.....
I know my walk with the LORD hasn't been the strongest. But with all the stuff that has happened in my life, it is hard to find a home and I'm talking about a church.
The best church is in Carlisle but due to the fact I have work on Sundays, I can't go.
I'm hoping to go in September. I will have two weekends so I hope I can attend then.
I realize helping out others, going to school, working, and even having a boyfriend won't heal the broken bits that are still in my heart.
I have been emotionally wounded and I'm honestly scared that a guy will never bother with me, especially with my high school behavior. Karma sucks.
I never did anything wrong. I just followed my heart too much. I never did anything bad with guys.
Just in the Christian world, a woman can't follow her heart. It's always about the man's heart.
Sorry, church, you've been hurting ladies too long!
I hope to help out ladies who have been hurt by the purity movement.
There are soooo many wonderful Godly women in this world that guys seem dumb not to notice her!
So, I'm not throwing a pity me party! I want women to realize how wonderfully God created them and how guys are just plain stupid!
I realize I will be a late bloomer with love. I've never been in love and I'm afraid to fall in love. My Mama always said "never love something that doesn't love you back"
I just wish Jake saw the high school graduate and in college me.
Does he realize how I've changed?! But he refuses to get to know me.
I know, you're all telling to let go, but sadly, that is my downfall: not letting things go.
But one question is still bugging why: when I went to my first EEG for my seizure in '09, Jake woke up with his Mom at 5am to pray for me!
None of my girlfriends did at the time! None of the people from my church, yet, he did!
So, why?!
Anyway, that will ever be a question never answered.
I'm realizing God is using me to help out in the bad part of Harrisburg! I know it was nerve racking at first, since it is dangerous but I know God protects!
I just wish He'd get rid of this dark cloud that seems to hover and the bright neon sign that says: "Don't date her!"
Though my housefrau skills sucks and at this point, I don't want to have any children biologically. Helping out in Harrisburg has made me realized that there are sooo many children without loving parents and I hope to adopt one of those kids even though I am not the strongest person on the planet. If all they ever remember me about is me teaching them about God's love, then I will be thankful!
I'm hoping to get a Spanish-English Bible that will help me to learn more Spanish!
Thanks for putting up with me and just keep praying I have the strength and calmness to carry on!
Oh, yeah about the title post, my crazy co-worker believes Aquafina puts rats in their water.
It might explain some customer's and people in Harrisburg's behavior, lol j/k!
Thank you all sooo much!
Love, Faith.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
old friends create old crap, current friends are awesome, and new friends create new adventures....
hi ya'll!
I have been busy busy busy!
I have been doing lots of school, getting ready for next term and internships, working on the weekends, but having fun too!
Last Sunday, I worked 7-1 and saw Despicable Me 2 with Janelle and Jason. Such a funny movie and they're coming out with a minion spin off movie next year!
I slept over at Janelle's and woke up at 4:30 Monday morning because of OCNJ!
We got stuck on PA Turnpike for four hours thanks to a five car crash but we parked the truck and the van made Channel 6 Philly news!
Then finally, after 7 hours, we made it to the beach.
We had fun. We were almost killed by seagulls, ate huge slices of pizza and walked on the boardwalk. I like both OCNJ and OCMD a lot.
OCNJ had less drama than MD but I still had fun.
Then Tuesday, I became a Public Notary. After months of paperwork and getting materials, I am now done!
Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, I helped out with a club in Harrisburg in what is considered the worst part of the city.
Thanks to my new phone with a GPS, I was able to drive there okay.
The kids were great but their home lives broke my heart :(.
I was able to work with my former boss Shelley and we got along.
We ate yummy Mexican food and I even had a bit of cow tongue!
As for Sunday when things were dwindling down, I found out something:
Remember Jake? Well, I found he refuses to hang out with me because the way I acted two-three years ago.
I cared deeply about him. I won't go into details but he told his mom who told my friend Beth.
He wasn't being nice. He is a narcissist. He doesn't care about other people's feelings.
He once said a rocket scientist was smart than his (now) sister in law.
So, no boys till I'm 102. I realize I am not girlfriend material.
Though I thought and his family thinks my behavior was extreme, my family doesn't. His family is basically judging me for things like getting him a b-day when I was 17 and dropping it off his house. Then for his graduation present, I gave him a $25 or $50 gift card to Cabela's.
My sister thinks my behavior was one of a friend. I did apologize to him but my family wants me to stay away from Beth.
But I don't do that behavior anymore. With God's grace and love, I hope to get this black cloud gone and change my future behavior.
So, no boys, 100% school!
But I got the best news today: getting a good grade in Civil Lit. I got 45 out of 50 points for my intake memo.
Now waiting for Crim Law to start.
I am thankful for my friends Van, Stef, Janelle, Jason, Nate, and Dave who remind me of what great friends really mean.
I am thankful for the people I went to the beach with. No judgement and had a good time.
I am thankful for my family who loves me and think Jake's family is making this a bigger deal than it is.
I'm thankful for my God who cares about me and loves me even though I flirted a little too much and was a little stalkish.
When I love somebody, I kind of over keel it. I will calm it down though.
Okay, hopefully, you all have a good day today, and remember, old friends sometimes are the not friends you once thought they were but the current and new friends are always the best and the new adventures are waiting all of us!
Bye, Faith.
I have been busy busy busy!
I have been doing lots of school, getting ready for next term and internships, working on the weekends, but having fun too!
Last Sunday, I worked 7-1 and saw Despicable Me 2 with Janelle and Jason. Such a funny movie and they're coming out with a minion spin off movie next year!
I slept over at Janelle's and woke up at 4:30 Monday morning because of OCNJ!
We got stuck on PA Turnpike for four hours thanks to a five car crash but we parked the truck and the van made Channel 6 Philly news!
Then finally, after 7 hours, we made it to the beach.
We had fun. We were almost killed by seagulls, ate huge slices of pizza and walked on the boardwalk. I like both OCNJ and OCMD a lot.
OCNJ had less drama than MD but I still had fun.
Then Tuesday, I became a Public Notary. After months of paperwork and getting materials, I am now done!
Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, I helped out with a club in Harrisburg in what is considered the worst part of the city.
Thanks to my new phone with a GPS, I was able to drive there okay.
The kids were great but their home lives broke my heart :(.
I was able to work with my former boss Shelley and we got along.
We ate yummy Mexican food and I even had a bit of cow tongue!
As for Sunday when things were dwindling down, I found out something:
Remember Jake? Well, I found he refuses to hang out with me because the way I acted two-three years ago.
I cared deeply about him. I won't go into details but he told his mom who told my friend Beth.
He wasn't being nice. He is a narcissist. He doesn't care about other people's feelings.
He once said a rocket scientist was smart than his (now) sister in law.
So, no boys till I'm 102. I realize I am not girlfriend material.
Though I thought and his family thinks my behavior was extreme, my family doesn't. His family is basically judging me for things like getting him a b-day when I was 17 and dropping it off his house. Then for his graduation present, I gave him a $25 or $50 gift card to Cabela's.
My sister thinks my behavior was one of a friend. I did apologize to him but my family wants me to stay away from Beth.
But I don't do that behavior anymore. With God's grace and love, I hope to get this black cloud gone and change my future behavior.
So, no boys, 100% school!
But I got the best news today: getting a good grade in Civil Lit. I got 45 out of 50 points for my intake memo.
Now waiting for Crim Law to start.
I am thankful for my friends Van, Stef, Janelle, Jason, Nate, and Dave who remind me of what great friends really mean.
I am thankful for the people I went to the beach with. No judgement and had a good time.
I am thankful for my family who loves me and think Jake's family is making this a bigger deal than it is.
I'm thankful for my God who cares about me and loves me even though I flirted a little too much and was a little stalkish.
When I love somebody, I kind of over keel it. I will calm it down though.
Okay, hopefully, you all have a good day today, and remember, old friends sometimes are the not friends you once thought they were but the current and new friends are always the best and the new adventures are waiting all of us!
Bye, Faith.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Freedom! (Bless the LORD!)
Hi, ya'll!
I have been reading some excellent that has given me room to breathe!
I am breaking away from the chain of being obsessed in a relationship!
Praise the LORD! I hope you are all happy with me!
I am embracing my life now. I am enjoying my classes; work was nuts today but it is pretty good for the most part and I am thankful for all the blessings in my life!
I work again tomorrow, go see Despicable Me 2 with Janelle & Jason, then go to OCNJ with Stef & Loft crew!
Then on Tuesday, I go to the county courthouse to become an official public notary!
Thankfully, that whole process since April/May will be done, then I can relax for four years!
Then on Thursday & Friday, I will be again busy doing stuff with a kids club and helping out on Saturday in Harry-burg!
Even though I have some other struggles, for instance, I have gained some weight that a usually nice customer said that I was chunky, I still feel thankful for all the blessings of my life.
my school is on a hill, doesn't have a gym, and really only have salads for healthy stuff. I have tried to take walks but the weather has been awful and I have been busy with school.
Even at work today, I hardly left the register. Usually when I'm working later in the night, I get more physical exercise because of trash and doing the cooler and you usually have to run around like crazy!
I have been trying to cut out sugar, eating healthier foods and snacks. For instance, I eat cereal or waffles for breakfast, have my greasy meal for Lunch, and something healthy for dinner.
I even tried this "healthy" soda and it's kind of gross. So gross, that I had to get regular soda just to swallow Aleve pills!
So, hopefully, with healthy diet and finding a way to exercise, I can lose the weight.
I do admit I have other troubles but not one I am going to go into. I just pray God helps me soon. I know His timing is perfect, but it scares me at the same time.
I know He is amazing but as the Monk theme sings "it's a jungle out there"
So, just keep praying for me. I need it, friend.
As I go through this journey, I am not alone. Most people and even churches would assume so, but I have my family, my friends, and of course, my loving Savior, Jesus Christ!
"Bless the LORD, oh my soul....."
Goodnight ya'll!
Faith.
I have been reading some excellent that has given me room to breathe!
I am breaking away from the chain of being obsessed in a relationship!
Praise the LORD! I hope you are all happy with me!
I am embracing my life now. I am enjoying my classes; work was nuts today but it is pretty good for the most part and I am thankful for all the blessings in my life!
I work again tomorrow, go see Despicable Me 2 with Janelle & Jason, then go to OCNJ with Stef & Loft crew!
Then on Tuesday, I go to the county courthouse to become an official public notary!
Thankfully, that whole process since April/May will be done, then I can relax for four years!
Then on Thursday & Friday, I will be again busy doing stuff with a kids club and helping out on Saturday in Harry-burg!
Even though I have some other struggles, for instance, I have gained some weight that a usually nice customer said that I was chunky, I still feel thankful for all the blessings of my life.
my school is on a hill, doesn't have a gym, and really only have salads for healthy stuff. I have tried to take walks but the weather has been awful and I have been busy with school.
Even at work today, I hardly left the register. Usually when I'm working later in the night, I get more physical exercise because of trash and doing the cooler and you usually have to run around like crazy!
I have been trying to cut out sugar, eating healthier foods and snacks. For instance, I eat cereal or waffles for breakfast, have my greasy meal for Lunch, and something healthy for dinner.
I even tried this "healthy" soda and it's kind of gross. So gross, that I had to get regular soda just to swallow Aleve pills!
So, hopefully, with healthy diet and finding a way to exercise, I can lose the weight.
I do admit I have other troubles but not one I am going to go into. I just pray God helps me soon. I know His timing is perfect, but it scares me at the same time.
I know He is amazing but as the Monk theme sings "it's a jungle out there"
So, just keep praying for me. I need it, friend.
As I go through this journey, I am not alone. Most people and even churches would assume so, but I have my family, my friends, and of course, my loving Savior, Jesus Christ!
"Bless the LORD, oh my soul....."
Goodnight ya'll!
Faith.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Feelin' 22
hi ya'll!
Today is my birthday and it went well.
I had classes but I like them; I'm a little nervous about ADR but hopefully it goes well.
Also, I think a boy likes me. He makes me feel like I'm in high school again, lol.
He has been staring at me for months and I just wish he'd talk to me.
I would talk to him, but he seems quiet and I don't want to scare him. Remember what happens whenever I talk to guys? Yep, I scare them!
Anyway, he goes to my school, he is a business administration major, and plans to go in the military soon.
He played football in high school and is obsessed with all things German.
I know this through FB and Nate, his new housemate who might be helping to get Collan to talk to me.
I haven't asked him to be his FB friend! I'm just scared to scare him away.
As for presents, I will see the Piano Guys in October and got the Stargate SG-1 whole series on DVD and have an amazon gift card!
Night!
Faith.
Today is my birthday and it went well.
I had classes but I like them; I'm a little nervous about ADR but hopefully it goes well.
Also, I think a boy likes me. He makes me feel like I'm in high school again, lol.
He has been staring at me for months and I just wish he'd talk to me.
I would talk to him, but he seems quiet and I don't want to scare him. Remember what happens whenever I talk to guys? Yep, I scare them!
Anyway, he goes to my school, he is a business administration major, and plans to go in the military soon.
He played football in high school and is obsessed with all things German.
I know this through FB and Nate, his new housemate who might be helping to get Collan to talk to me.
I haven't asked him to be his FB friend! I'm just scared to scare him away.
As for presents, I will see the Piano Guys in October and got the Stargate SG-1 whole series on DVD and have an amazon gift card!
Night!
Faith.
Friday, June 28, 2013
Roadtrippin'
Hey ya'll!
I had a wonderful trip at DC where if I described it here, it would take a couple of posts to describe the craziness of it all!
Beth and I went to Georgetown which is a expensive but beautiful place!
We did some exploring till we went to her friends house where we basically crashed.
Saturday, we went to Arlington where we tried to find Great Grandpa from my Mom's side but we think he was reburied somewhere else.
There was a beautiful change of the guard ceremony. They change the guard every half hour for the tomb of the unknown soldier; dedicated to the soldiers who were never found.
Then it was off to Union station where we did some shopping and I found a necklace and earrings for $10 but it would look something Grace Kelly or Audrey Hepburn would wear except it'd be ten times more expensive (lolz!)
Then off to Marcel's, a French Restaurant on PA Avenue where I was called "Mademoiselle" and I ate great food and dun dun, had WINE!
I won't be a wine and I was dying for soda the next day.
The concert was awesome with performances by Grieg whose work is actually referenced in pop culture. "Morning Mood" and "In the Hall of the Mountain King"
First act of the National Symphony Orchestra was great but sadly, not so much in the second act.
I got yelled for taking pictures during intermission. Oy vey!
But I did get to see Jackie's replica jewelry!
Then Sunday, we went to church, saw Manassa Battlefield and got to go to Monticello. Beautiful place with great history.
Then we did a last minute to Luray Caverns where I got to see such amazing stuff (amazing rock stuff!)
Then we had a long trip home from VA to WV to MD to PA and guess what....?!
I woke up Monday morning where I found out my tire was low! It was the stem so thankfully, it was fixed with a cheap price.
I have worked Monday, Wednesday, tonight, work tomorrow, and Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday!
Sunday, I will go to Strausstown church and hiking...so excited!
I will also see Rachel Tuesday and Wednesday
Then the 7th, I move the poor chillens into their new places at school and the 9th, is school all over again!
These are all the happy posts.....I won't write any sad ones in this one!
Talk to you all later!
Faith.
I had a wonderful trip at DC where if I described it here, it would take a couple of posts to describe the craziness of it all!
Beth and I went to Georgetown which is a expensive but beautiful place!
We did some exploring till we went to her friends house where we basically crashed.
Saturday, we went to Arlington where we tried to find Great Grandpa from my Mom's side but we think he was reburied somewhere else.
There was a beautiful change of the guard ceremony. They change the guard every half hour for the tomb of the unknown soldier; dedicated to the soldiers who were never found.
Then it was off to Union station where we did some shopping and I found a necklace and earrings for $10 but it would look something Grace Kelly or Audrey Hepburn would wear except it'd be ten times more expensive (lolz!)
Then off to Marcel's, a French Restaurant on PA Avenue where I was called "Mademoiselle" and I ate great food and dun dun, had WINE!
I won't be a wine and I was dying for soda the next day.
The concert was awesome with performances by Grieg whose work is actually referenced in pop culture. "Morning Mood" and "In the Hall of the Mountain King"
First act of the National Symphony Orchestra was great but sadly, not so much in the second act.
I got yelled for taking pictures during intermission. Oy vey!
But I did get to see Jackie's replica jewelry!
Then Sunday, we went to church, saw Manassa Battlefield and got to go to Monticello. Beautiful place with great history.
Then we did a last minute to Luray Caverns where I got to see such amazing stuff (amazing rock stuff!)
Then we had a long trip home from VA to WV to MD to PA and guess what....?!
I woke up Monday morning where I found out my tire was low! It was the stem so thankfully, it was fixed with a cheap price.
I have worked Monday, Wednesday, tonight, work tomorrow, and Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday!
Sunday, I will go to Strausstown church and hiking...so excited!
I will also see Rachel Tuesday and Wednesday
Then the 7th, I move the poor chillens into their new places at school and the 9th, is school all over again!
These are all the happy posts.....I won't write any sad ones in this one!
Talk to you all later!
Faith.
Monday, June 17, 2013
One Step At A Time.....5 days
hey!
It has been busy busy busy!!!!
Well, I went to CCM on Wednesday which was awesome!
However, things weren't so hot on Thursday (I believe, either Wednesday or Thursday)
I went to the library because I have doing that for almost everyday since first term. Guess who I see who told me not to talk to him in the library and talking to a girl, then leaving when I come in?!
Yup. Zach himself. We got into a big nasty fight about it. I did start it. Via Text. But he still does not see the irony.
Even though we are on decent terms, he was leaving as I was coming in.
It drives me crazy he does that!
Even my Dad and Nate thought that was low. When I told my Dad that Zach said it was someone he once dated, my Dad even thought that was dumb to add.
But it's over, next term he said he'll hardly be there anyway so I probably won't see him.
Then work has been crazy as well. My boss screwed up the schedule but thankfully, Mummy fixed it.
Avril is my roommate next term and two girls are moving upstairs. Em and Courtney are liking that it's not the last week.
I was hoping to do something with them but sadly, it doesn't look like that.
Also, I might need glasses. I could barely read the powerpoint for final tonight. I had to move to the front!
So excited for DC. No boys, no work, no school. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep!
Now that Final #1 is done and the paper is done, I only have the assignment and presentation tomorrow and two finals Thursday then I am done!
Please let it be Friday soon!
Faith.
It has been busy busy busy!!!!
Well, I went to CCM on Wednesday which was awesome!
However, things weren't so hot on Thursday (I believe, either Wednesday or Thursday)
I went to the library because I have doing that for almost everyday since first term. Guess who I see who told me not to talk to him in the library and talking to a girl, then leaving when I come in?!
Yup. Zach himself. We got into a big nasty fight about it. I did start it. Via Text. But he still does not see the irony.
Even though we are on decent terms, he was leaving as I was coming in.
It drives me crazy he does that!
Even my Dad and Nate thought that was low. When I told my Dad that Zach said it was someone he once dated, my Dad even thought that was dumb to add.
But it's over, next term he said he'll hardly be there anyway so I probably won't see him.
Then work has been crazy as well. My boss screwed up the schedule but thankfully, Mummy fixed it.
Avril is my roommate next term and two girls are moving upstairs. Em and Courtney are liking that it's not the last week.
I was hoping to do something with them but sadly, it doesn't look like that.
Also, I might need glasses. I could barely read the powerpoint for final tonight. I had to move to the front!
So excited for DC. No boys, no work, no school. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep!
Now that Final #1 is done and the paper is done, I only have the assignment and presentation tomorrow and two finals Thursday then I am done!
Please let it be Friday soon!
Faith.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Awkward Encounters....
hi!
I had a wonderful time with Zach. We went to Starbucks where I had quiche, a caramel mocha, and walked around the store.
He's a total gentleman; he walked to my door, offered me his umbrella and opened the car door for me. He didn't pay but it's okay; it wasn't really date and I wasn't offended.
He's a great guy who is going for business and is joining the military after he graduates.
But things are kind of awkward:
Zach likes to get things done at the library and doesn't want any distractions so I needed to get a movie for my text & film and guess who is sitting next there? Yep, you guessed it.
So, I tried to be like a spy and I thought, he's pretty oblivious, listening to music, and working on his computer; guess what? Yep you guessed it! He noticed it.
I honestly wanted to look for "Rear Window" and he happened to be there.
Though, tonight he is reading his poem at open mic night, so, I am going to again sneak in and out and leave after he reads his poem.
Hopefully, he won't notice me then.
I just expect a long friendship and I hope we become pen pals as he is serving the navy.
Also, I am in the living room of the townhouse and the girls basically ignored me the whole time.
But we'll part ways soon and we won't see each other again.
So, off to do some schoolwork then see him read his poem.
Ttyl!
Faith.
I had a wonderful time with Zach. We went to Starbucks where I had quiche, a caramel mocha, and walked around the store.
He's a total gentleman; he walked to my door, offered me his umbrella and opened the car door for me. He didn't pay but it's okay; it wasn't really date and I wasn't offended.
He's a great guy who is going for business and is joining the military after he graduates.
But things are kind of awkward:
Zach likes to get things done at the library and doesn't want any distractions so I needed to get a movie for my text & film and guess who is sitting next there? Yep, you guessed it.
So, I tried to be like a spy and I thought, he's pretty oblivious, listening to music, and working on his computer; guess what? Yep you guessed it! He noticed it.
I honestly wanted to look for "Rear Window" and he happened to be there.
Though, tonight he is reading his poem at open mic night, so, I am going to again sneak in and out and leave after he reads his poem.
Hopefully, he won't notice me then.
I just expect a long friendship and I hope we become pen pals as he is serving the navy.
Also, I am in the living room of the townhouse and the girls basically ignored me the whole time.
But we'll part ways soon and we won't see each other again.
So, off to do some schoolwork then see him read his poem.
Ttyl!
Faith.
Friday, June 7, 2013
If you see this Nate....
hey Nate!
Welcome to my blog aka my virtual diary!
You recently told me you were going to look up my family and myself...so, I wonder if you will ever find this blog?!
I commanded you, but you claim I challenged you.
Honestly, I don't know if anything I say in the blog is interesting or not. Some posts have been really sad; some really happy; some, just "bleh."
Whatever I say in the blog, sometimes I say in the heat of moment, so I apologize if anything I say makes anyone upset, angry, or annoyed.
As for today; it was okay; I accidentally woke up later than usual, ate lunch with Mr. Nate, went to both classes, where I tried to talk to Zach, the guy who I wanted to cancel the thingy on Monday.
I tried to in contracts class but as I was giving him my number, Kristina walked in, so I didn't want to give anything away. I know, what you're thinking, lol.
So, in contracts, we looked over the lease, then, he left.
I went to my evidence class where we have to give a presentation on our evidence! (Nate, thank Josh for warning me, lol j/k!)
Finally, I saw Zach in the library but I was nervous because when I talked to him yesterday in the library, he freaked out on me.
First, I texted him when I was only a couple seats away in the computer labish area of the library.
Nothing.
When he went to print something out, he saw me. I stopped him....but sadly, I didn't have the right words to say.
So, we are still going on Monday, but I think that'll be it after that. That is fine with me. At least, I will get some city driving in.
Nate, I have a "what else?" section, so here it is:
I got a novel from the library called "Hotel on the Corner of Bitter and Sweet." A love story about how two people were separated because of internment camps for the Japanese during WWII.
Tell Josh that Dillon and I are arguing over Earl Warren because he supported them. Tell Josh that Dillon and I went to the same community college so that's why we know each other.
I also work tomorrow 2-9 and Sunday 12-8 so I probably won't be back on the blog till Monday.
Well, that's it Nate. I'm wondering if you will ever find this or anything about my family and myself.
Sorry for the many typos; I don't pay attention when I'm writing.
Okay, I have Nate and the rest of my readers have a wonderful weekend!
Only two more weeks then DC!
Bye!
-Faith.
P.S. to my readers, Josh is Nate's roommate; not my ex-boyfriend from many years ago Josh.
Welcome to my blog aka my virtual diary!
You recently told me you were going to look up my family and myself...so, I wonder if you will ever find this blog?!
I commanded you, but you claim I challenged you.
Honestly, I don't know if anything I say in the blog is interesting or not. Some posts have been really sad; some really happy; some, just "bleh."
Whatever I say in the blog, sometimes I say in the heat of moment, so I apologize if anything I say makes anyone upset, angry, or annoyed.
As for today; it was okay; I accidentally woke up later than usual, ate lunch with Mr. Nate, went to both classes, where I tried to talk to Zach, the guy who I wanted to cancel the thingy on Monday.
I tried to in contracts class but as I was giving him my number, Kristina walked in, so I didn't want to give anything away. I know, what you're thinking, lol.
So, in contracts, we looked over the lease, then, he left.
I went to my evidence class where we have to give a presentation on our evidence! (Nate, thank Josh for warning me, lol j/k!)
Finally, I saw Zach in the library but I was nervous because when I talked to him yesterday in the library, he freaked out on me.
First, I texted him when I was only a couple seats away in the computer labish area of the library.
Nothing.
When he went to print something out, he saw me. I stopped him....but sadly, I didn't have the right words to say.
So, we are still going on Monday, but I think that'll be it after that. That is fine with me. At least, I will get some city driving in.
Nate, I have a "what else?" section, so here it is:
I got a novel from the library called "Hotel on the Corner of Bitter and Sweet." A love story about how two people were separated because of internment camps for the Japanese during WWII.
Tell Josh that Dillon and I are arguing over Earl Warren because he supported them. Tell Josh that Dillon and I went to the same community college so that's why we know each other.
I also work tomorrow 2-9 and Sunday 12-8 so I probably won't be back on the blog till Monday.
Well, that's it Nate. I'm wondering if you will ever find this or anything about my family and myself.
Sorry for the many typos; I don't pay attention when I'm writing.
Okay, I have Nate and the rest of my readers have a wonderful weekend!
Only two more weeks then DC!
Bye!
-Faith.
P.S. to my readers, Josh is Nate's roommate; not my ex-boyfriend from many years ago Josh.
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Almost...Gone.....
hey ya'll!
Well, it has been crazay, crazay, crazay!
With school, housing, dealing with moody roommates, work, and planning for DC, it has been mighty busy!
Can't wait for the next term to start new classes, can't wait to get rid of my roommates!
As you know, we have fought time to time, we have laughed, and done great stuff but for some strange reason, we are now fighting.
Well, Emily sends me angry texts about the trash. Honestly, I forgot to do it.
So, they now took the kitchen trash bag from me out of spite. Without even talking to me.
Also, I was kind of sort asked out. Well, I asked a guy from school to go swing dancing with me.
So, my intent today was going to the library, telling him not to do that.
Now, he's taking me out for coffee.
I wish I could explain what happened but I realize, I need to cancel. He's a wonderful Christian who I can talk to about Harry Potter and Gregorian Chants, but he also works full time and goes to school full time, and seemed exhausted when I talked to him.
I met him through my contracts class. He's a business fiance major but took the class to fill that time slot.
So, we slowly talked to each other. And we realized we had a lot in common.
Honestly, I am looking for a platonic friend who I can talk to about deep stuff. Dave and Nate are amazing but I love talking about deep stuff.
So, sadly, I think, for being wise, I will cancel or possibly do later when hopefully he gets a job with better hours.
For some strange reason, he wants to get to know me, but I don't think romantically.
Of course, I apologize a lot, and he told me not to.
It's going to be horrible but I think it's for the best if we wait.
But two more weeks till DC. Two more weeks till crabby roommates leave. About, a couple of more weeks till a crazy and new but exciting term.
Okay, goodnight! Wish me luck!
Faith.
Well, it has been crazay, crazay, crazay!
With school, housing, dealing with moody roommates, work, and planning for DC, it has been mighty busy!
Can't wait for the next term to start new classes, can't wait to get rid of my roommates!
As you know, we have fought time to time, we have laughed, and done great stuff but for some strange reason, we are now fighting.
Well, Emily sends me angry texts about the trash. Honestly, I forgot to do it.
So, they now took the kitchen trash bag from me out of spite. Without even talking to me.
Also, I was kind of sort asked out. Well, I asked a guy from school to go swing dancing with me.
So, my intent today was going to the library, telling him not to do that.
Now, he's taking me out for coffee.
I wish I could explain what happened but I realize, I need to cancel. He's a wonderful Christian who I can talk to about Harry Potter and Gregorian Chants, but he also works full time and goes to school full time, and seemed exhausted when I talked to him.
I met him through my contracts class. He's a business fiance major but took the class to fill that time slot.
So, we slowly talked to each other. And we realized we had a lot in common.
Honestly, I am looking for a platonic friend who I can talk to about deep stuff. Dave and Nate are amazing but I love talking about deep stuff.
So, sadly, I think, for being wise, I will cancel or possibly do later when hopefully he gets a job with better hours.
For some strange reason, he wants to get to know me, but I don't think romantically.
Of course, I apologize a lot, and he told me not to.
It's going to be horrible but I think it's for the best if we wait.
But two more weeks till DC. Two more weeks till crabby roommates leave. About, a couple of more weeks till a crazy and new but exciting term.
Okay, goodnight! Wish me luck!
Faith.
Friday, May 31, 2013
Finally...got some Closure!
hi everybody!
Well,
This week has been busy with homework! My goodness, only three more weeks and I have a two week break!
Tomorrow, I will start the official countdown for DC.
Sadly though, I will have to say goodbye to Emily and Courtney.
Months ago, I wanted them gone but we have become much closer this term. I think it has to do with the time they thought I was kidnapped, lolz.
If I didn't tell you about the law firm, I will most likely be volunteering there soon.
My paperwork for official notary will be sent in soon.
As for the closure, Nate and I talked about the whole controversy months ago between.
We both realize that we would not work. He wants someone who doesn't like pets but loves outdoorsy stuff.
So, that might not seem a big deal to you but it is to him.
He also wants to take the initiative in the relationship.
He also only likes my hair straightened and apparently, a guy is supposed to love your hair naturally.
So, we're all good!
Tomorrow I work 8-3, Sunday 12-5 and I have no homework for the weekend so I am going to read and relax!
I am watching Lark Rise to Candleford and let's say, I can relate!
Night!
Faith.
Well,
This week has been busy with homework! My goodness, only three more weeks and I have a two week break!
Tomorrow, I will start the official countdown for DC.
Sadly though, I will have to say goodbye to Emily and Courtney.
Months ago, I wanted them gone but we have become much closer this term. I think it has to do with the time they thought I was kidnapped, lolz.
If I didn't tell you about the law firm, I will most likely be volunteering there soon.
My paperwork for official notary will be sent in soon.
As for the closure, Nate and I talked about the whole controversy months ago between.
We both realize that we would not work. He wants someone who doesn't like pets but loves outdoorsy stuff.
So, that might not seem a big deal to you but it is to him.
He also wants to take the initiative in the relationship.
He also only likes my hair straightened and apparently, a guy is supposed to love your hair naturally.
So, we're all good!
Tomorrow I work 8-3, Sunday 12-5 and I have no homework for the weekend so I am going to read and relax!
I am watching Lark Rise to Candleford and let's say, I can relate!
Night!
Faith.
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Celebrate Good Times Come On!
Hey!
Well, today was good.
Thankfully, I went to church where we got to sing great American hymns like "My Country, Tis of Thee" and my personal favorite "Mine Eyes Have Seen the Glory."
Then I worked two hours because my co-worker needed to go home early.
So, I worked 12-2 and it went fast and there was some interesting things said but it would be too complicated to explain here.
Tomorrow I work 12-4 and get time and a half. I guess the pay is more like 12-6 so it makes me happy to have the extra cash before the big DC trip :).
Then I start the week again with homework, calling government agencies, and possibly watching the movie "Gettysburg."
It's a late night; my brain needs to finish Harry Potter this week and I need to get a better contracts.
Hopefully, my contract draft will be perfect and the interpretation will be fantastic!
As for the other classes, we haven't done much in text & film; Evidence, there is a project, at least one or two more quizzes and the final exam.
Principles includes more exams and exercises and that's all folks!
Be thankful for our troops who are willing to serve our country so we can whine about much it sucks! lol.
Please, be truly thankful tomorrow!
Goodnight before I ramble on!
Faith.b
Well, today was good.
Thankfully, I went to church where we got to sing great American hymns like "My Country, Tis of Thee" and my personal favorite "Mine Eyes Have Seen the Glory."
Then I worked two hours because my co-worker needed to go home early.
So, I worked 12-2 and it went fast and there was some interesting things said but it would be too complicated to explain here.
Tomorrow I work 12-4 and get time and a half. I guess the pay is more like 12-6 so it makes me happy to have the extra cash before the big DC trip :).
Then I start the week again with homework, calling government agencies, and possibly watching the movie "Gettysburg."
It's a late night; my brain needs to finish Harry Potter this week and I need to get a better contracts.
Hopefully, my contract draft will be perfect and the interpretation will be fantastic!
As for the other classes, we haven't done much in text & film; Evidence, there is a project, at least one or two more quizzes and the final exam.
Principles includes more exams and exercises and that's all folks!
Be thankful for our troops who are willing to serve our country so we can whine about much it sucks! lol.
Please, be truly thankful tomorrow!
Goodnight before I ramble on!
Faith.b
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Let the Bodies hit the floor! Gettysburg style....
hi!
Well, this week has been crazy!
In the beginning of the week, it was warm. I mean really, really warm!
Then Thursday, it decided to rain all day and gets to be in the 50's!
Yesterday we had planned a trip to Gettysburg which included Dave, his girlfriend Monica, Nate, and of course me, which was indeed chilly but successful.
We got the historical tour; almost visiting each spot that mattered most on each day.
Though it wasn't though, for me anyway, at Pickett's Charge, where it hit me. The charge was led on the last day and Lee made them go. But, it's an open field basically. This lead to many men's death including one general's unit totally wiped.
For some strange reason, it wasn't interesting; it was sad. As I was imagining these men knowing they were going to die, I became more serious.
It's weird to think somewhere to close to where I live, there was a battle.
Of course, most people believe it had to do with slavery. Slavery wasn't really the main focus till much later; most Southerners even to this day believe in more state's rights then federal government.
But thankfully, Gettysburg changed that. With a heavy blow to the South, it helped for the Union Army to become stronger. Then it two years later, the war was over.
So, I'm thankful for the fact that Gettysburg changed that. We had a lot of fun even though we were as cold as icebergs.
I think only in PA would it get cold in May!
So, I've been hanging out with Nathan for months now, almost everyday. It was our first time together really outside of school since our date from Hell.
Lately, I've been noticing how we get along so well. I've also noticed how much he has matured in the last couple of months.
Lately, he has been talking his wedding, which is surprising because after our second date, he did not want anything to do with that!
But I have forgiven him. Both of us were naive and did not know what we were doing.
As we both have busy terms especially next term, and he is going to Croatia in the Fall, and we both have internships coming up, I don't mind that we're not together.
I doubt we will be together as a couple but I think we will be great friends for awhile.
Though some people like my good friend from community college and who goes to my school now believes Nate likes me but I highly doubt it. Dillon says I'm in denial but I say I'm being logical.
Until I hear it from Nate himself, I refuse he likes me.
Though, this past week he told me the wisest thing he ever said; when I will probably never marry he told me as my class always work out, so one way or another, it will work out that I am getting married one day.
So, it will!
Anyway, I need to do stuff. Janelle was supposed to come down but she canceled on me so I need to work on Memorial Day and need to do homework for this weekend.
So, talk to you all later!
Faith.
Well, this week has been crazy!
In the beginning of the week, it was warm. I mean really, really warm!
Then Thursday, it decided to rain all day and gets to be in the 50's!
Yesterday we had planned a trip to Gettysburg which included Dave, his girlfriend Monica, Nate, and of course me, which was indeed chilly but successful.
We got the historical tour; almost visiting each spot that mattered most on each day.
Though it wasn't though, for me anyway, at Pickett's Charge, where it hit me. The charge was led on the last day and Lee made them go. But, it's an open field basically. This lead to many men's death including one general's unit totally wiped.
For some strange reason, it wasn't interesting; it was sad. As I was imagining these men knowing they were going to die, I became more serious.
It's weird to think somewhere to close to where I live, there was a battle.
Of course, most people believe it had to do with slavery. Slavery wasn't really the main focus till much later; most Southerners even to this day believe in more state's rights then federal government.
But thankfully, Gettysburg changed that. With a heavy blow to the South, it helped for the Union Army to become stronger. Then it two years later, the war was over.
So, I'm thankful for the fact that Gettysburg changed that. We had a lot of fun even though we were as cold as icebergs.
I think only in PA would it get cold in May!
So, I've been hanging out with Nathan for months now, almost everyday. It was our first time together really outside of school since our date from Hell.
Lately, I've been noticing how we get along so well. I've also noticed how much he has matured in the last couple of months.
Lately, he has been talking his wedding, which is surprising because after our second date, he did not want anything to do with that!
But I have forgiven him. Both of us were naive and did not know what we were doing.
As we both have busy terms especially next term, and he is going to Croatia in the Fall, and we both have internships coming up, I don't mind that we're not together.
I doubt we will be together as a couple but I think we will be great friends for awhile.
Though some people like my good friend from community college and who goes to my school now believes Nate likes me but I highly doubt it. Dillon says I'm in denial but I say I'm being logical.
Until I hear it from Nate himself, I refuse he likes me.
Though, this past week he told me the wisest thing he ever said; when I will probably never marry he told me as my class always work out, so one way or another, it will work out that I am getting married one day.
So, it will!
Anyway, I need to do stuff. Janelle was supposed to come down but she canceled on me so I need to work on Memorial Day and need to do homework for this weekend.
So, talk to you all later!
Faith.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Hitting people's heads with your knee....
heyyy!
Well, today was interesting to say the least.
It actually started off badly with me embarrassing myself in front of class and then being bullied, by who I call the legal studies bully because she mocks everyone in the program. Cruelly and to a point where my one professor had to tell her to be quiet!
Then Contracts was a bit bad. I was stuck with the bully who made fun of my handwriting and spelling skills.
She told me if I want to be a lawyer, I should have my paralegal check my work. I told her I'm not going to law school. Then there was silence.
So, I'm going through some self doubt right now. I was tired in principles but I'm just frustrated with myself. I know working at the Hill won't ever come close to paying my loans but I don't know if I'm ready to deal with competitive lawyers.
My professor said if a student was a nice paralegal or lawyer, they should do contracts. He was looking at me.
Anyway, the day did get better. Thanks to non noncompetitive guys like Nate and Dave to goof off with.
Then I hung out with Courtney and Emily (the roommates) and we had fun.
I have never been competitive. Sometimes it comes out, but honestly, I'm more about having fun in sports. When it comes to homework, I do my work and do it well but I'm just plain scared that my misdiagnosis ADD.
Yep; I think it explains everything. I'm not going on medicine but I am getting books to learn how to cope with it. I hope my friends accept me for who I am as a person. I hope whoever I marry will too.
But I'm excited to go home and figure everything out, especially trying to make a schedule. I hate them, but I need them. I also need to learn to type slowly and try not to make anymore mistakes.
I also need to work on my handwriting skills. I'm thinking of writing something every-night to get use to handwriting well.
My Momma has always said, "the best revenge is being successful."
I'm also going to try to see if I can get a second opinion on my seizure condition to see if there anything else wrong with me.
Yes, I've always been crazy. Apparently, being a strong-willed, wanting to play all the time child is a child with ADD. I just wish my parents would have addressed it.
I also admit, I've been eating like crap too. I've cut my soda (only drink once a day) but still drink Sprite Zero.
So, I'm praying these things work and I can, hopefully, become a successful paralegal.
Here's where I hit someone's head with my knee:
During Lunch, I accidentally went ahead of somebody because he was goofing and I thought he was with someone else and Carlos, our somewhat strange guy behind the counter, started laughing and then as I turned around, he was bent down and somehow, my knee hit his head.
I was shocked at the weirdness of it all. But Nate, Dave, and I laughed it off. Love those guys; they make my day all the time. Love my girls too. I'm going to miss them like crazy.
Funny, right? Yep. Things happen in less than year and when you see the same person for five days a week, you become closer.
I hope I become a better version of myself. I hope I am a living testimony of how God's grace worked through my two disorders and through my fears.
I think I'm doing what my parents refused to do; which is acknowledge there is something wrong with me.
I'm off to bed. On Sunday, I am going to start myself on a schedule where I get up, eat small meals throughout the day, and take my daily walk.
Talk to you all later!
-Faith.
Well, today was interesting to say the least.
It actually started off badly with me embarrassing myself in front of class and then being bullied, by who I call the legal studies bully because she mocks everyone in the program. Cruelly and to a point where my one professor had to tell her to be quiet!
Then Contracts was a bit bad. I was stuck with the bully who made fun of my handwriting and spelling skills.
She told me if I want to be a lawyer, I should have my paralegal check my work. I told her I'm not going to law school. Then there was silence.
So, I'm going through some self doubt right now. I was tired in principles but I'm just frustrated with myself. I know working at the Hill won't ever come close to paying my loans but I don't know if I'm ready to deal with competitive lawyers.
My professor said if a student was a nice paralegal or lawyer, they should do contracts. He was looking at me.
Anyway, the day did get better. Thanks to non noncompetitive guys like Nate and Dave to goof off with.
Then I hung out with Courtney and Emily (the roommates) and we had fun.
I have never been competitive. Sometimes it comes out, but honestly, I'm more about having fun in sports. When it comes to homework, I do my work and do it well but I'm just plain scared that my misdiagnosis ADD.
Yep; I think it explains everything. I'm not going on medicine but I am getting books to learn how to cope with it. I hope my friends accept me for who I am as a person. I hope whoever I marry will too.
But I'm excited to go home and figure everything out, especially trying to make a schedule. I hate them, but I need them. I also need to learn to type slowly and try not to make anymore mistakes.
I also need to work on my handwriting skills. I'm thinking of writing something every-night to get use to handwriting well.
My Momma has always said, "the best revenge is being successful."
I'm also going to try to see if I can get a second opinion on my seizure condition to see if there anything else wrong with me.
Yes, I've always been crazy. Apparently, being a strong-willed, wanting to play all the time child is a child with ADD. I just wish my parents would have addressed it.
I also admit, I've been eating like crap too. I've cut my soda (only drink once a day) but still drink Sprite Zero.
So, I'm praying these things work and I can, hopefully, become a successful paralegal.
Here's where I hit someone's head with my knee:
During Lunch, I accidentally went ahead of somebody because he was goofing and I thought he was with someone else and Carlos, our somewhat strange guy behind the counter, started laughing and then as I turned around, he was bent down and somehow, my knee hit his head.
I was shocked at the weirdness of it all. But Nate, Dave, and I laughed it off. Love those guys; they make my day all the time. Love my girls too. I'm going to miss them like crazy.
Funny, right? Yep. Things happen in less than year and when you see the same person for five days a week, you become closer.
I hope I become a better version of myself. I hope I am a living testimony of how God's grace worked through my two disorders and through my fears.
I think I'm doing what my parents refused to do; which is acknowledge there is something wrong with me.
I'm off to bed. On Sunday, I am going to start myself on a schedule where I get up, eat small meals throughout the day, and take my daily walk.
Talk to you all later!
-Faith.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Settling for more!
heyyy ya'll!
You will all be proud of me!
I was kind of sort asked out by a guy who wanted to go on a non date as friends type of thing.
At first, I said yes.
Then he asked me, "aren't you settling?"
Later, I realize I was and texted him back:
Basically, I said I will do friends stuff with him when there's other people with us!
But I am putting my foot down when it's one on one opposite sex friend stuff.
I want to be on a real date. Not a phony!
If we don't, that's fine. I mean, for Heaven's sake, ask me out on a real date!
Not this "friend" crap!
So, I'm not settling for less. I'm settling for more.
You might think that sounds strange but let me explain:
I won't settle for someone like him who doesn't like the fact I'm quiet, who gave me a hard time at first for trying to make it real!
So, I also look at it as settling more for God's plans for my life.
Right now, the only thing I know is that I will graduate from school next year. But besides that, the rest is up to the LORD!
His plans for my life are greater than this guy who refuses to respect me as a person!
Whether or not I marry (most people believe I will and I'm sure I will be by 30). It's up to God!
So, whatever His plans, they're amazing and I can't wait to see them unfold!
At the end of the text, I asked him,
"is that settling for you?"
Goodnight ya'll!
Faith.
You will all be proud of me!
I was kind of sort asked out by a guy who wanted to go on a non date as friends type of thing.
At first, I said yes.
Then he asked me, "aren't you settling?"
Later, I realize I was and texted him back:
Basically, I said I will do friends stuff with him when there's other people with us!
But I am putting my foot down when it's one on one opposite sex friend stuff.
I want to be on a real date. Not a phony!
If we don't, that's fine. I mean, for Heaven's sake, ask me out on a real date!
Not this "friend" crap!
So, I'm not settling for less. I'm settling for more.
You might think that sounds strange but let me explain:
I won't settle for someone like him who doesn't like the fact I'm quiet, who gave me a hard time at first for trying to make it real!
So, I also look at it as settling more for God's plans for my life.
Right now, the only thing I know is that I will graduate from school next year. But besides that, the rest is up to the LORD!
His plans for my life are greater than this guy who refuses to respect me as a person!
Whether or not I marry (most people believe I will and I'm sure I will be by 30). It's up to God!
So, whatever His plans, they're amazing and I can't wait to see them unfold!
At the end of the text, I asked him,
"is that settling for you?"
Goodnight ya'll!
Faith.
Field of Dreams
heyy!
Like I said, in my night class, we had to watch "Field of Dreams" and it was amazing!
We have to write a reaction paper to it and my reaction is:
I believe it is about the American Dream. Not having a lot of money but following your heart and your dreams and doing something that seems out of reach but works out in the end. Americans love that.
Americans love sports as well especially baseball and football.
It has to do somewhat with Heaven. In my opinion, everyone has their own vision of Heaven.
When someone loves doing something, sometimes people will say "they're in Heaven" or even "I'm in Heaven."
But it was a great movie and I'm happy we watched it.
In other news, my other class went well this morning; it was a little confusing but not as confusing as last week. I was sooo frustrated with Principles and Contracts, I nearly pulled my hair out.
What else? I realize I'm neither a country girl or city girl.
I love the country for the laid back, go with the flow, work hard but have fun at the same time, and everyone knowing each other but I love being close to things and being able to experience walking around the city. Plus, a lot of paralegal jobs are in cities.
As for music taste, I like all types. I don't think I'll ever be 100% country but I like it a lot better than before.
I do want a truck but not because it's cool but because I can haul all my crap/crud (pick your preference) around in one fell swoop.
I also like mini coopers and motorcycles, coffee shops, bookstores, and jazz music and all types of dancing.
So, where will I live? I leave that up to the LORD;
Before I decide where I want to live, I want to go to Paris and do other mission trips. I don't know if I want to go Widener to take those classes for paralegals or do something missions like.
But I know one thing: I don't think I will ever a country guy happy.
Here's what I've learned about most countries guys; they want girls who love John Deere, four wheeling, dirt biking, motorcycles, ice tea, loud, outgoing, fish, hunt, and willing to try new things. Not a quiet girl who loves law and reading books.
But yet, I don't think I can make a city guy happy; I'm not sophisticated, graceful, and I'm not the most politically correct. I sometimes refer to ladies as girls or will call someone who is African American "Black" because I'm not called German American or Irish American, I'm called white.
I do want to own a gun and I hope to do fishing again. One day anyway, lol.
So, in all honestly, I do believe maybe I'm not meant for any guy anyway. I mean, my one guy friend told it drove him crazy I was so quiet when he first met me that he remembers me not saying hi to him.
Now, he's pursuing, a very mature and outgoing young lady and I hope it works out for the both of them. I really do hope so.
I did like him but I realize, I'm not country or adventurous enough. If he asked me to jump off a building with him, I'd be like "well, what about the parachute?" or some safety him.
We're too opposite. Opposites do attract but not extreme ones!
My sister doesn't like the system of dating I have to deal with. She's says it's because guys are immature and insecure and don't know want what they want.
But I told her, I am picking my battles, and I throw in the towel for that one. If a guy likes, like my Dad liked Mom, and Stephen liked Rachel, then he'll ask me out too.
But until that day, I am going to make myself a better person and hopefully, will be able to volunteer more this summer at kids' clubs and at a law office and focus on studies since I have five CORE classes!
Okay, talk to y'all (lol) later!
Faith.
Like I said, in my night class, we had to watch "Field of Dreams" and it was amazing!
We have to write a reaction paper to it and my reaction is:
I believe it is about the American Dream. Not having a lot of money but following your heart and your dreams and doing something that seems out of reach but works out in the end. Americans love that.
Americans love sports as well especially baseball and football.
It has to do somewhat with Heaven. In my opinion, everyone has their own vision of Heaven.
When someone loves doing something, sometimes people will say "they're in Heaven" or even "I'm in Heaven."
But it was a great movie and I'm happy we watched it.
In other news, my other class went well this morning; it was a little confusing but not as confusing as last week. I was sooo frustrated with Principles and Contracts, I nearly pulled my hair out.
What else? I realize I'm neither a country girl or city girl.
I love the country for the laid back, go with the flow, work hard but have fun at the same time, and everyone knowing each other but I love being close to things and being able to experience walking around the city. Plus, a lot of paralegal jobs are in cities.
As for music taste, I like all types. I don't think I'll ever be 100% country but I like it a lot better than before.
I do want a truck but not because it's cool but because I can haul all my crap/crud (pick your preference) around in one fell swoop.
I also like mini coopers and motorcycles, coffee shops, bookstores, and jazz music and all types of dancing.
So, where will I live? I leave that up to the LORD;
Before I decide where I want to live, I want to go to Paris and do other mission trips. I don't know if I want to go Widener to take those classes for paralegals or do something missions like.
But I know one thing: I don't think I will ever a country guy happy.
Here's what I've learned about most countries guys; they want girls who love John Deere, four wheeling, dirt biking, motorcycles, ice tea, loud, outgoing, fish, hunt, and willing to try new things. Not a quiet girl who loves law and reading books.
But yet, I don't think I can make a city guy happy; I'm not sophisticated, graceful, and I'm not the most politically correct. I sometimes refer to ladies as girls or will call someone who is African American "Black" because I'm not called German American or Irish American, I'm called white.
I do want to own a gun and I hope to do fishing again. One day anyway, lol.
So, in all honestly, I do believe maybe I'm not meant for any guy anyway. I mean, my one guy friend told it drove him crazy I was so quiet when he first met me that he remembers me not saying hi to him.
Now, he's pursuing, a very mature and outgoing young lady and I hope it works out for the both of them. I really do hope so.
I did like him but I realize, I'm not country or adventurous enough. If he asked me to jump off a building with him, I'd be like "well, what about the parachute?" or some safety him.
We're too opposite. Opposites do attract but not extreme ones!
My sister doesn't like the system of dating I have to deal with. She's says it's because guys are immature and insecure and don't know want what they want.
But I told her, I am picking my battles, and I throw in the towel for that one. If a guy likes, like my Dad liked Mom, and Stephen liked Rachel, then he'll ask me out too.
But until that day, I am going to make myself a better person and hopefully, will be able to volunteer more this summer at kids' clubs and at a law office and focus on studies since I have five CORE classes!
Okay, talk to y'all (lol) later!
Faith.
Monday, May 13, 2013
A Rock Thrown Explains My Insanity.....
hi!
Well, the weekend was crazy!
On Saturday, I thought I was going to be picked up by my Dad when I found out his car had a flat tire.
So, I had to take the turnpike home where I almost went to Pittsburgh instead of Philly! LOL!
It took about two hours and I was about an hour late for work but they understood
The shift went well. I worked till 8 and then I came home and relaxed and learned more about country music.
I'm listening to some Jason Aldean now; I also was recommended a bunch of songs of Justin Moore's and Eric Church.
I listened to the radio yesterday and heard Boots On, American Ride, and Come Over.
I really liked the last two songs....however, I was a little surprised who they were by and shocked I liked them!
But only those songs by them; the other songs, yuck!
So, tonight, we're watching Field of Dreams instead of yucky sci-films. I love sci-fi but those two films were depressing!
Anything else? The usual tomorrow; school, hanging out with the guys, and studying for the evidence mid term that's on Friday.
Also, my parents took me home today and as I was saying goodbye, a guy with a wheedwacker was doing his job but a rock hit my head!
Can explain why I am enjoying country music soo much?! lol j/k!
I can relate to being in a small town and I know a lot of people they sing about because I come from a small town. Not Southern but a Northern Coal Proud area! Oh good ole Skook!
I don't think I'd be a good country girl. Those girls they sing about, I'm not like them!
Okay, talk to you all later! I wish it was Sunday because of post high and volleyball!
Faith.
Well, the weekend was crazy!
On Saturday, I thought I was going to be picked up by my Dad when I found out his car had a flat tire.
So, I had to take the turnpike home where I almost went to Pittsburgh instead of Philly! LOL!
It took about two hours and I was about an hour late for work but they understood
The shift went well. I worked till 8 and then I came home and relaxed and learned more about country music.
I'm listening to some Jason Aldean now; I also was recommended a bunch of songs of Justin Moore's and Eric Church.
I listened to the radio yesterday and heard Boots On, American Ride, and Come Over.
I really liked the last two songs....however, I was a little surprised who they were by and shocked I liked them!
But only those songs by them; the other songs, yuck!
So, tonight, we're watching Field of Dreams instead of yucky sci-films. I love sci-fi but those two films were depressing!
Anything else? The usual tomorrow; school, hanging out with the guys, and studying for the evidence mid term that's on Friday.
Also, my parents took me home today and as I was saying goodbye, a guy with a wheedwacker was doing his job but a rock hit my head!
Can explain why I am enjoying country music soo much?! lol j/k!
I can relate to being in a small town and I know a lot of people they sing about because I come from a small town. Not Southern but a Northern Coal Proud area! Oh good ole Skook!
I don't think I'd be a good country girl. Those girls they sing about, I'm not like them!
Okay, talk to you all later! I wish it was Sunday because of post high and volleyball!
Faith.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Like a Bird/Point At You...
hey!
Well, the last two days have been average.
Last night, the roommates and I had fun.
They got haircuts while I studied and we went to the grocery store where I got my hair straightener!
I've been hesitant to get ones for months but I finally got the right one.
Anyway, I really do think I bombed my contracts exam. Contracts is soo frustrating!
But I finally relaxed with Dave and Nate watching Major Payne which is hilarious.
It might be annoying when your friends quote the whole entire time but it's funny when they're funny!
In other news, there was a horrible accident near my school and my Dad is picking me up and taking me the back way.
With homework nearly done, I am excited for Monday to come!
I work tomorrow 12-8pm and 7-11pm Sunday this weekend and won't be seeing any friends this weekend.
I'm excited to see Rachel and Stephen but they talk to me but Rachel does a lot of the talking and when Mom and Rach talk, no one else can.
But it's Mother's day; I can't wait to give my mom her D&D presents! I think she will like them!
I just need to finish the short story that inspired "Field of Dreams."
So, I can't wait till the 19th....we're playing v-ball and I can't wait to hang out with friends.
hopefully the 21st I can help with the senior banquet!
I've recently realized I'm like a lil birdie. I use to have a very high pitch voice; I sometimes eat like a bird; I spazz out. I haven't flown but I want to. I like nature as well.
I tolerate winter, lol.
Then there's the new Justin Moore song "Point At You" which I really like a lot. I hope a guy is like that, lol. Minus "the few." lol.
Hopefully this weekend goes fast!
Faith.
Well, the last two days have been average.
Last night, the roommates and I had fun.
They got haircuts while I studied and we went to the grocery store where I got my hair straightener!
I've been hesitant to get ones for months but I finally got the right one.
Anyway, I really do think I bombed my contracts exam. Contracts is soo frustrating!
But I finally relaxed with Dave and Nate watching Major Payne which is hilarious.
It might be annoying when your friends quote the whole entire time but it's funny when they're funny!
In other news, there was a horrible accident near my school and my Dad is picking me up and taking me the back way.
With homework nearly done, I am excited for Monday to come!
I work tomorrow 12-8pm and 7-11pm Sunday this weekend and won't be seeing any friends this weekend.
I'm excited to see Rachel and Stephen but they talk to me but Rachel does a lot of the talking and when Mom and Rach talk, no one else can.
But it's Mother's day; I can't wait to give my mom her D&D presents! I think she will like them!
I just need to finish the short story that inspired "Field of Dreams."
So, I can't wait till the 19th....we're playing v-ball and I can't wait to hang out with friends.
hopefully the 21st I can help with the senior banquet!
I've recently realized I'm like a lil birdie. I use to have a very high pitch voice; I sometimes eat like a bird; I spazz out. I haven't flown but I want to. I like nature as well.
I tolerate winter, lol.
Then there's the new Justin Moore song "Point At You" which I really like a lot. I hope a guy is like that, lol. Minus "the few." lol.
Hopefully this weekend goes fast!
Faith.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
A stormy but non starry night
Hi!
Today kind of sucked. At first anyway.
I woke up late (non 8:40 day) then went to lunch where I was still dealing with the pain.
But my two classes were good.
We reviewed for our contracts exam. It's a lot of work but we get to use ONE 3x5 card.
Then in Evidence, I got a good grade in my quiz and project. We have an mid term exam next week but she makes them easier for some strange reason.
So, it has gotten better.
I just need to learn to trust Him more. I think it's still a lack of trust, but deep down, I know His plans are greater than mine!
Due to the fact I did my graded work for Principles in class the other day, I have been just relaxin' though I have a huge hankering for chips and dip and apple pie.
But due to the loud tunder (on purpose!) storm, I did not go.
Tomorrow will be laundry night and grocery night!
I think I forgot to mention I will be watching "Field of Dreams." for my text & film. If I did, I am really excited about it!
Anyway, my dog and cat were fighting over a mouse, things are a lot better with that person I was telling you about, and I am going to watch more Buffy.
Byez!
Faith.
Today kind of sucked. At first anyway.
I woke up late (non 8:40 day) then went to lunch where I was still dealing with the pain.
But my two classes were good.
We reviewed for our contracts exam. It's a lot of work but we get to use ONE 3x5 card.
Then in Evidence, I got a good grade in my quiz and project. We have an mid term exam next week but she makes them easier for some strange reason.
So, it has gotten better.
I just need to learn to trust Him more. I think it's still a lack of trust, but deep down, I know His plans are greater than mine!
Due to the fact I did my graded work for Principles in class the other day, I have been just relaxin' though I have a huge hankering for chips and dip and apple pie.
But due to the loud tunder (on purpose!) storm, I did not go.
Tomorrow will be laundry night and grocery night!
I think I forgot to mention I will be watching "Field of Dreams." for my text & film. If I did, I am really excited about it!
Anyway, my dog and cat were fighting over a mouse, things are a lot better with that person I was telling you about, and I am going to watch more Buffy.
Byez!
Faith.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Breaking a Broken Record
Hi!
How do you break one?
Well, not literally. Just mentally and emotionally;
How do you climb out of the abyss that never seems to go away?
Or move around the elephant in the room?
I know what really works:
Prayer. Faith. Hope. Trust.
But this is what I want:
Adrenaline rush. A reassurance from a another person. Venting. Doing something impulsive. Trying to forget it.
You see, I'm stuck. Not physically but mentally and emotionally,
goodness me, I wish I were a man; guys never get stuck emotionally into a deep abyss. They have it lucky!
Most of the guys in my life know how to handle their emotions. However, whenever I ask them how they do it, they refuse to help!
I would think I would do them a favor if I knew to find a way to control my sadness and vulnerably. To be happy go lucky all the time; to go with the flow all the time. I wish I was the girl men wanted.
But I'm not. I'm naive, geekish, emotional, and above else, a girl. Guys want someone like them; outgoing, not emotional, and above all, not a girl but a tomboy!
I'm accepting the fact that these are the two situations that are going to happen to me:
1. Never get married.
2. Won't date or marry till I'm 30.
I'm pretty #2 but who knows what God is doing in my life. He's not a bully; His plans are ten times better than mine.
I'm just blinded and binded by sadness. I just see what I don't have instead of what I do have.
That is where my downfall is and that is what I need to break from. I need break that record of being sad.
I realize it's going to take a miracle to change any guy's mind that I know but I can't wait to meet that guy.
The guy when I open up to, doesn't tell me then he likes someone and thinks I'm a good friend.
Yep, that happened to me tonight. I thought, "finally he gets me! Someone who understands me unlike the guys before my past."
But after telling me I need to be more outgoing, then the other girl he's interested in, I told him I'm going to stop texting him.
Mostly for her sake. I'm sure the last thing she wants is him texting me for days at a time. Yes, we have texted for nearly two-three days straight. He thinks it's fine but I want to respect them.
I'm going to dig deeper and deeper into my studies so I can graduate and leave this place. I want to go to Paris. India. England. Canada (Emerald Lake anyway, lol). Heck, even go to Florida or South Carolina or Boston or live in DC. Anywhere away from guys!
I love my friends but I need to step back. I've been bombarded with being women telling that guys don't like me for being myself and for guys telling me I'm not pretty or smart or I need to be outgoing.
I am giving up all types of dating. I know you're rolling eyes at me at this point and think I'm dramatic. But I am really going to try.
I realize I need to let God work in my heart; I am a Christian and I love the LORD but I do not trust him with my love life.
I know trusting God with my love life won't bring a guy any faster but that's not the point; the point is being content with my life in the current.
Remember:
"Forget (or Learn from (my mom added)) Yesterday. Live for Today. Hope for tomorrow."
I am going to completely forget AND learn from my conversations with this guy. I am going to live in the moment and I am going to hope AND pray for my tomorrows!
Sorry if you're sick of my sad posts but I've been pretty good, haven't I?!
In other news, in my night class, we're watching a happy movie: Field of Dreams! SO HAPPY!
And Zendaya got the first 30 for the season for an unconventional salsa. Kellie performed a great Paso, but it did lack some Paso, lol (great music though!). It's going to be an another girls/women/ladies finals!
Gosh, I wish I need to learn how to dance! And go to Zumba.
And go to Paris.
Go to DC for a weekend (end of term, start of break, woot woot!)
Start volunteering more!
Grow more with the LORD (I am a lazy saint, I will admit!)
Go see Ironman 3, Great Gatsby, Fast Six and Despicable me 2.
And just enjoy life. I wish I was more content like the guys in my life. They are completely content without girlfriends. It's amazing! I need to find a way to think like them!
But I do feel better. Thank you for your patience with my typos and rants! You do not realize how much it means to me that you read these posts!
Again, thank you and sorry!
Love you all and God bless!
Faith.
How do you break one?
Well, not literally. Just mentally and emotionally;
How do you climb out of the abyss that never seems to go away?
Or move around the elephant in the room?
I know what really works:
Prayer. Faith. Hope. Trust.
But this is what I want:
Adrenaline rush. A reassurance from a another person. Venting. Doing something impulsive. Trying to forget it.
You see, I'm stuck. Not physically but mentally and emotionally,
goodness me, I wish I were a man; guys never get stuck emotionally into a deep abyss. They have it lucky!
Most of the guys in my life know how to handle their emotions. However, whenever I ask them how they do it, they refuse to help!
I would think I would do them a favor if I knew to find a way to control my sadness and vulnerably. To be happy go lucky all the time; to go with the flow all the time. I wish I was the girl men wanted.
But I'm not. I'm naive, geekish, emotional, and above else, a girl. Guys want someone like them; outgoing, not emotional, and above all, not a girl but a tomboy!
I'm accepting the fact that these are the two situations that are going to happen to me:
1. Never get married.
2. Won't date or marry till I'm 30.
I'm pretty #2 but who knows what God is doing in my life. He's not a bully; His plans are ten times better than mine.
I'm just blinded and binded by sadness. I just see what I don't have instead of what I do have.
That is where my downfall is and that is what I need to break from. I need break that record of being sad.
I realize it's going to take a miracle to change any guy's mind that I know but I can't wait to meet that guy.
The guy when I open up to, doesn't tell me then he likes someone and thinks I'm a good friend.
Yep, that happened to me tonight. I thought, "finally he gets me! Someone who understands me unlike the guys before my past."
But after telling me I need to be more outgoing, then the other girl he's interested in, I told him I'm going to stop texting him.
Mostly for her sake. I'm sure the last thing she wants is him texting me for days at a time. Yes, we have texted for nearly two-three days straight. He thinks it's fine but I want to respect them.
I'm going to dig deeper and deeper into my studies so I can graduate and leave this place. I want to go to Paris. India. England. Canada (Emerald Lake anyway, lol). Heck, even go to Florida or South Carolina or Boston or live in DC. Anywhere away from guys!
I love my friends but I need to step back. I've been bombarded with being women telling that guys don't like me for being myself and for guys telling me I'm not pretty or smart or I need to be outgoing.
I am giving up all types of dating. I know you're rolling eyes at me at this point and think I'm dramatic. But I am really going to try.
I realize I need to let God work in my heart; I am a Christian and I love the LORD but I do not trust him with my love life.
I know trusting God with my love life won't bring a guy any faster but that's not the point; the point is being content with my life in the current.
Remember:
"Forget (or Learn from (my mom added)) Yesterday. Live for Today. Hope for tomorrow."
I am going to completely forget AND learn from my conversations with this guy. I am going to live in the moment and I am going to hope AND pray for my tomorrows!
Sorry if you're sick of my sad posts but I've been pretty good, haven't I?!
In other news, in my night class, we're watching a happy movie: Field of Dreams! SO HAPPY!
And Zendaya got the first 30 for the season for an unconventional salsa. Kellie performed a great Paso, but it did lack some Paso, lol (great music though!). It's going to be an another girls/women/ladies finals!
Gosh, I wish I need to learn how to dance! And go to Zumba.
And go to Paris.
Go to DC for a weekend (end of term, start of break, woot woot!)
Start volunteering more!
Grow more with the LORD (I am a lazy saint, I will admit!)
Go see Ironman 3, Great Gatsby, Fast Six and Despicable me 2.
And just enjoy life. I wish I was more content like the guys in my life. They are completely content without girlfriends. It's amazing! I need to find a way to think like them!
But I do feel better. Thank you for your patience with my typos and rants! You do not realize how much it means to me that you read these posts!
Again, thank you and sorry!
Love you all and God bless!
Faith.
Monday, May 6, 2013
Surprise of the night: Rhythm of the Night...
hey!
Post High was awesome!
The big surprise I was telling you about: Van and Lance are engaged!
Though I probably won't be in their wedding, they said I'm invited though!
Mama always says it's more fun to be a guest at a wedding than be in the party and I know their wedding will be a blast!
Anyway, another surprise: post high itself.
We were wrapping up Proverbs when one of the guys started going crazy. As Matt was talking about advice from wise people and letting Jesus work through you to tell others about Him, this guy just started asking that I have never thought about:
Who created God?
Who wrote the Bible?
How does Jesus work in you?
Does He even control you when you say hi?
Then it came to the heart of the issue: he thinks being a Christian would be boring; that he would have to give up stuff.
To be honest, I think the opposite. With many jobs I have had especially being a dishwasher, at UPS, Kohl's, and working at a gas station, I see how empty people's live ares. At school, people's favorite day is Thursday because they can party.
They look forward to it. But the rest of the time, they complain and act miserable!
For me, having Jesus as my Savior is my JOY. The only reason my life would be considered dull would be because I am a college student and have NO money!
But once I get my Mon-Fri, I am going to do crazy stuff!
I don't need to get drunk; I don't need to smoke or do drugs; I don't need to gamble.
As long as I have my family and my friends, I am really content with my life.
I believe if this guy lets Jesus work in His heart, he will be blessed by Jesus's love and joy.
Being a Christian is not easy; there will be trials ahead as long as there is sin but the amazing thing about Jesus is He is always there for you!
As for Jesus working in you, you have to pray; I usually pray and stay calm, not jumping or yelling or judging somebody.
Sometimes, you never know when He is in working in you. Action speaks louder than words.
For instance, when Courtney told me that I was such a forgiving person, I was shocked! But it shows with God's grace and a lot of prayer, He does work in you!
Well, what else? I worked from 11-5; twas indeed busy but thankfully, I left at 5 and was able to have a great time at Post High!
I have my night class tonight. We're going to talk about AI and I will def participate this time! I will say: sad, sad, sad, and more sad! lol.
I also have lots of homework. Contracts is a killer. I will probably stay up and finish so my friend can see it. I'm halfway done!
Bye!
Faith.
Post High was awesome!
The big surprise I was telling you about: Van and Lance are engaged!
Though I probably won't be in their wedding, they said I'm invited though!
Mama always says it's more fun to be a guest at a wedding than be in the party and I know their wedding will be a blast!
Anyway, another surprise: post high itself.
We were wrapping up Proverbs when one of the guys started going crazy. As Matt was talking about advice from wise people and letting Jesus work through you to tell others about Him, this guy just started asking that I have never thought about:
Who created God?
Who wrote the Bible?
How does Jesus work in you?
Does He even control you when you say hi?
Then it came to the heart of the issue: he thinks being a Christian would be boring; that he would have to give up stuff.
To be honest, I think the opposite. With many jobs I have had especially being a dishwasher, at UPS, Kohl's, and working at a gas station, I see how empty people's live ares. At school, people's favorite day is Thursday because they can party.
They look forward to it. But the rest of the time, they complain and act miserable!
For me, having Jesus as my Savior is my JOY. The only reason my life would be considered dull would be because I am a college student and have NO money!
But once I get my Mon-Fri, I am going to do crazy stuff!
I don't need to get drunk; I don't need to smoke or do drugs; I don't need to gamble.
As long as I have my family and my friends, I am really content with my life.
I believe if this guy lets Jesus work in His heart, he will be blessed by Jesus's love and joy.
Being a Christian is not easy; there will be trials ahead as long as there is sin but the amazing thing about Jesus is He is always there for you!
As for Jesus working in you, you have to pray; I usually pray and stay calm, not jumping or yelling or judging somebody.
Sometimes, you never know when He is in working in you. Action speaks louder than words.
For instance, when Courtney told me that I was such a forgiving person, I was shocked! But it shows with God's grace and a lot of prayer, He does work in you!
Well, what else? I worked from 11-5; twas indeed busy but thankfully, I left at 5 and was able to have a great time at Post High!
I have my night class tonight. We're going to talk about AI and I will def participate this time! I will say: sad, sad, sad, and more sad! lol.
I also have lots of homework. Contracts is a killer. I will probably stay up and finish so my friend can see it. I'm halfway done!
Bye!
Faith.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Heartbeat....
hey!
Well, I worked 4-11 today and it was crazy!
It wasn't the craziest day of work but it was def busy fer sure!
Thankfully, it died away after 9pm.
The usual people; some nice, some cranky, some rude, being nicknamed (one guy called me sweetheart and sweetie) people clueless about prepay the promises of if the person wins the lottery, they'll pay for my education, and being harassed by regulars.
Even guys flirted with their eyes. Flirtation with the eyes makes me shiver. But a good one; when you see a sparkle in a guy's eyes especially when he smiles, sometimes it makes me want to swoon over him.
Sometimes, when I know it's a cute guy and when he smiles and looks me in the eye, I get scared I will blush but thankfully, I think I am getting better at it; if I smile, then I won't blush.
What else? I don't know why I am staying up soo late because of the triple whammy coming up! But I am excited for it. Especially for LOFT!
Okay, goodnight y'all!
Faith.
P.S. new favorite by Enrique Iglesias: "Heartbeat"
Well, I worked 4-11 today and it was crazy!
It wasn't the craziest day of work but it was def busy fer sure!
Thankfully, it died away after 9pm.
The usual people; some nice, some cranky, some rude, being nicknamed (one guy called me sweetheart and sweetie) people clueless about prepay the promises of if the person wins the lottery, they'll pay for my education, and being harassed by regulars.
Even guys flirted with their eyes. Flirtation with the eyes makes me shiver. But a good one; when you see a sparkle in a guy's eyes especially when he smiles, sometimes it makes me want to swoon over him.
Sometimes, when I know it's a cute guy and when he smiles and looks me in the eye, I get scared I will blush but thankfully, I think I am getting better at it; if I smile, then I won't blush.
What else? I don't know why I am staying up soo late because of the triple whammy coming up! But I am excited for it. Especially for LOFT!
Okay, goodnight y'all!
Faith.
P.S. new favorite by Enrique Iglesias: "Heartbeat"
May the 4th be with you!
Hi!
Yes, I am a geek, lolz!!!!! But I am a proud geek.
I have been busy with school lately. Contracts is getting better though it is hard to come up with your own situation but my friend is going to look over my worksheet and hopefully, we're all good!
tonight I work till really late! Ahhhh! It's going to be busy tonight but hopefully, it goes well.
Then tomorrow, I have church, work 11-5, then, POST HIGH!!!!!! Triple wammy!
But this post besides upcoming crud, is something that came up between a friend and I.
My friend and I were just talking and out of nowhere, she told me men don't like it when I'm too strong.
She just had pinch a nerve when she told me that men don't like me.
I have struggled wondering why guys aren't interested in me. Then when she said and told me whatever I was doing was wrong, I became ticked.
It wasn't that I was being strong; I was trying to help her out with a guy she likes. If the opportunity rises, I grab it! Whereas, she wanted either his sister or him suggest it. However, he was being a stubborn ole mule.
I was only doing it for her, not me. I have no interest in him romantically; he's an amazing guy but I look at him as a good friend who we can talk about things like law and sports but nothing romantic.
My roommates as much as I love them, I cannot talk to them about law. I only have a handful of legal studies friends on campus and I only see them during class. So, it's nice to talk to him.
Yes, I can be a little strong and controlling especially with guys. But I was raised to take the opportunity when it came to me; to be independent, smart, and not let sexism and chauvinism get in the way of my life. Heck, they've (my parents) been anti-dating for a long time, which is ironic that I want a boyfriend!
I shouldn't though; guys don't complete me and he won't want to do everything with me. Plus, I don't want to be that "Girlfriend" who always harasses the guy while he's out with friends.
In my opinion, I think it's totally chauvinistic that a woman cannot ask a men out or she breaks some type of stupid moral code.
But the thing is, there is not strategy in dating. Whether it's regular dating or courtships, strategies don't work.
We're still good friends; it was a personality clash.
My Mom is right though; even though there's courtship in Christian dating, the divorce is still as high as with regular marriage.
So in-conclusion, courtship doesn't work either.
So, here's my strategy when it comes to dating; not God's timing, looking or not looking; just pray that I can be a great person whoever my future spouse is and let it just happen.
So, I have no strategy!
Honestly, with my busy term schedules, it'd be unfair to the guy! So, I'm not dating till 30 when I am well traveled, paid off most of loans and done mission trips. Hopefully, when I'm 30, I will meet a guy as serious as me because I keep running into that; not enough serious Christian guys around my age.
It worked for my parents, it can work for me too!
I think the church should chilax on dating and let the person have the freedom to like someone. Of course, no sexy time before marriage, but let the church start teaching that it doesn't really matter who asks who out.
The Bible does not address dating. Remember, even Boaz and Ruth is not a love story! Just a respectful guy marrying a wonderful person!
Alright all, I work tonight and did most of my contracts homework. The best I could anyway. It was fun creating my own situations!
Okay, bye!
Faith.
Yes, I am a geek, lolz!!!!! But I am a proud geek.
I have been busy with school lately. Contracts is getting better though it is hard to come up with your own situation but my friend is going to look over my worksheet and hopefully, we're all good!
tonight I work till really late! Ahhhh! It's going to be busy tonight but hopefully, it goes well.
Then tomorrow, I have church, work 11-5, then, POST HIGH!!!!!! Triple wammy!
But this post besides upcoming crud, is something that came up between a friend and I.
My friend and I were just talking and out of nowhere, she told me men don't like it when I'm too strong.
She just had pinch a nerve when she told me that men don't like me.
I have struggled wondering why guys aren't interested in me. Then when she said and told me whatever I was doing was wrong, I became ticked.
It wasn't that I was being strong; I was trying to help her out with a guy she likes. If the opportunity rises, I grab it! Whereas, she wanted either his sister or him suggest it. However, he was being a stubborn ole mule.
I was only doing it for her, not me. I have no interest in him romantically; he's an amazing guy but I look at him as a good friend who we can talk about things like law and sports but nothing romantic.
My roommates as much as I love them, I cannot talk to them about law. I only have a handful of legal studies friends on campus and I only see them during class. So, it's nice to talk to him.
Yes, I can be a little strong and controlling especially with guys. But I was raised to take the opportunity when it came to me; to be independent, smart, and not let sexism and chauvinism get in the way of my life. Heck, they've (my parents) been anti-dating for a long time, which is ironic that I want a boyfriend!
I shouldn't though; guys don't complete me and he won't want to do everything with me. Plus, I don't want to be that "Girlfriend" who always harasses the guy while he's out with friends.
In my opinion, I think it's totally chauvinistic that a woman cannot ask a men out or she breaks some type of stupid moral code.
But the thing is, there is not strategy in dating. Whether it's regular dating or courtships, strategies don't work.
We're still good friends; it was a personality clash.
My Mom is right though; even though there's courtship in Christian dating, the divorce is still as high as with regular marriage.
So in-conclusion, courtship doesn't work either.
So, here's my strategy when it comes to dating; not God's timing, looking or not looking; just pray that I can be a great person whoever my future spouse is and let it just happen.
So, I have no strategy!
Honestly, with my busy term schedules, it'd be unfair to the guy! So, I'm not dating till 30 when I am well traveled, paid off most of loans and done mission trips. Hopefully, when I'm 30, I will meet a guy as serious as me because I keep running into that; not enough serious Christian guys around my age.
It worked for my parents, it can work for me too!
I think the church should chilax on dating and let the person have the freedom to like someone. Of course, no sexy time before marriage, but let the church start teaching that it doesn't really matter who asks who out.
The Bible does not address dating. Remember, even Boaz and Ruth is not a love story! Just a respectful guy marrying a wonderful person!
Alright all, I work tonight and did most of my contracts homework. The best I could anyway. It was fun creating my own situations!
Okay, bye!
Faith.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
The post about random and crazy but interesting crap.....
hi!
Well, another good day today. Beautiful weather, great classes, and spent time with people.
Thankfully, Nathan and I are just good friends. Now before you think that either of us like each other, that's not the truth. Heck, both of us argue when we first started talking to each other. If you like somebody, shouldn't you remember the first time you talked to them?
Not that you realized you liked them right anyway; but you remember later when you talked to them for the first time.
Anyway, we are good friends. You can be friends with the opposite sex and not have any romantic feelings. I have hung out with not only Nate but with my friend Dave as well and I never thought of him but as a friend.
Also, I love hanging out with guys, especially Dave and Nate. They are soo funny and when they were playing the medieval people version of Angry Birds, they were making the best sound effects and I was laughing sooo hard.
We also are planning a quidditch match. Hopefully, we all can play!
What else? I have been listening to country music and I like and still dislike some. I'm debating between Blake and Miranda. They both seem very different but good. Some people don't like Miranda but Courtney says you don't mess with her, lol.
I like random songs; the most songs I like from a band is Lady A but they're not really count as "country" (you know that well Stef! lol)
I really wanted to get a motorcycle but the problem is I can't till my get own health insurance, and that won't be till after college.
I wanted to go on 81 and blast country music. My sis and Mom (who are against me getting a motorcycle) said I should go on a more minor highway on a mo-ped with bluegrass. However, if you knew what area I lived in, a mo ped would not be a great idea!
I was in a gated community where I went on a motor school and almost fell down on a hill! It was kind of scary but exciting too!
Then I started watching clips from my favorite car movie: The Italian Job. Amazing film!
Due to the fact I will be much older when I get married, I am getting a coop and a bike after school. If I want to live in a city, it's a perfect way to have vehicles!
Okay, I need to study!
Byez!
Faith.
Well, another good day today. Beautiful weather, great classes, and spent time with people.
Thankfully, Nathan and I are just good friends. Now before you think that either of us like each other, that's not the truth. Heck, both of us argue when we first started talking to each other. If you like somebody, shouldn't you remember the first time you talked to them?
Not that you realized you liked them right anyway; but you remember later when you talked to them for the first time.
Anyway, we are good friends. You can be friends with the opposite sex and not have any romantic feelings. I have hung out with not only Nate but with my friend Dave as well and I never thought of him but as a friend.
Also, I love hanging out with guys, especially Dave and Nate. They are soo funny and when they were playing the medieval people version of Angry Birds, they were making the best sound effects and I was laughing sooo hard.
We also are planning a quidditch match. Hopefully, we all can play!
What else? I have been listening to country music and I like and still dislike some. I'm debating between Blake and Miranda. They both seem very different but good. Some people don't like Miranda but Courtney says you don't mess with her, lol.
I like random songs; the most songs I like from a band is Lady A but they're not really count as "country" (you know that well Stef! lol)
I really wanted to get a motorcycle but the problem is I can't till my get own health insurance, and that won't be till after college.
I wanted to go on 81 and blast country music. My sis and Mom (who are against me getting a motorcycle) said I should go on a more minor highway on a mo-ped with bluegrass. However, if you knew what area I lived in, a mo ped would not be a great idea!
I was in a gated community where I went on a motor school and almost fell down on a hill! It was kind of scary but exciting too!
Then I started watching clips from my favorite car movie: The Italian Job. Amazing film!
Due to the fact I will be much older when I get married, I am getting a coop and a bike after school. If I want to live in a city, it's a perfect way to have vehicles!
Okay, I need to study!
Byez!
Faith.
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