Pearls Before Swine

Hi!

It's probably going to be a short post but I wanted to talk a little bit more about Easter.

I watched the ending of The Bible Miniseries about Paul.  Out of all of the people in the Bible, He has to be my favourite person from the Bible. A man who was religious and killed Christians then became a missionary and wrote the majority of the New Testament.

It showed Paul quoting 1st Corinthians and it was beautiful.

I have been thinking lately of things I use to care about. Mom use to tell me "Pearls Before Swine" (Matthew 7:6) when I was working at a restaurant and the one co-worker was really rude to me for no reason, mom would quote that.

People have said it means if the audience is not welcoming or being close minded, then basically ignore them. Focus on more important things.

It's vague and confusing but think about Swine and Pearls. Pigs; very dirty creatures who are stinky and eat horribly. Pearls, something beautiful, something not to be trampled upon.

I have been through places and spaces in life where I had to do the Pearls before Swine. I have had to let go completely and learned to not care what other people think.

I am soon going to learn how to become a more mature person; some who is the proof of His Love; of how He works in my life because, He has!

I have a busy week ahead with getting ready for school but I am excited and wondering where the time has gone?!

Okay, Goodnight!

-Faith.

Happy Happy Happy Easter!

Hi!

Well, Easter is a great time to worship and celebrate Jesus's resurrection but my problem with it is the fact it is the only other time when people come to church. The other time is Christmas Eve.

Easter is celebrated every week. Churches worship Jesus and talk about the Gospel where includes when Jesus died on the Cross.

It's amazing to thinking that one person took billions---even trillions of people's sins so we can all have the chance to go to Heaven.

I know most people hate Jesus, but why? People act Christianity is religious but sacrificing yourself for someone who doesn't love you, is that religious?

Anyway, I am hoping I can one day share the gospel with other people not for numbers but that people know the Joy of Jesus!

Today I work 1-5. Last year, My Mom worked it and she said someone came up asked her if she really believed in that Easter stuff and if someone asks me that, I will say I do too. Because I truly do believe in it and I am not ashamed!

Then I come home and I am going to watch Anna Karenina, then finish the Bible miniseries from the History Channel.

I've been watching some Duck Dynasty episodes and the one guy always says "Happy Happy Happy!" and there was a meme saying "Happy Happy Happy Easter!"

Have a blessed Easter!

-Faith.

An Intense Drawing Competition

Hi!

Wow, have I been busy!

I went to Good Friday service, then we set up flowers at the church, then went out to eat for the traditional mac and cheese, then I get a call that I need to work from 8-11!

So, I worked it went well; I accidentally stayed up late!

But man, I was sooo busy from 10-3 today. I swear I hardly got anything done!

Then I went to Rachel and Stephen's grandparents house. We had a celebration for Easter and we ate yummy food! Rachel always make the best food!

Then, Stephen's cousin Peter and his somewhat cousin (like family but not blood related) Angela wanted me to participate in an intense drawing competition, where I was last place. It's okay; I just drew Harold and the Purple Crayon!

Stephen won and we all had pieces of gum, lol!

So, tomorrow is Easter. A celebration of Christ's Resurrection, however, every Sunday is the celebration of Jesus; the church just decided to designate a random Sunday once a year to celebrate it.

But if I had it my way, I would not have an official holiday. Just too religious for me!

So I work tomorrow, then will be relaxing till my busy week ahead!

Goodnight!

-Faith.

Via Dolorosa

Hi!

Last night was beautiful. At Maundy Thursday Service, we read scripture about the Last Supper and there twelve candles. As each reading was done, a candle was blown (blew?) out. I was the last one; my Dad had the last two and it was completely dark, showing what it was like before Jesus.

We don't know when Jesus died for us, but that doesn't matter. Every Sunday is the celebration of Jesus dying on the cross for us.

Today is Good Friday Service. We usually give the money to someone in need and I'm hoping we give it to a  mom who lost two little girls in a horrible accident and she needs to the money for their funeral. I'm so thankful those little girls are in Heaven, dancing with Jesus and having a blast there, probably making the adults very happy to see little girls who laugh and play.

Tomorrow I work then I go see my brother in laws family. I'm excited to see them!

Sunday is church and work (lol!) I am working a lot these days!

But last night, I cried out to the LORD and read something from a book called "Jesus Calling" and here's what it said:

"Stop trying to work things out before their times have come. Accept the limitations of living one day at a time. When something comes to your attention, ask Me whether or not it is part of today's agenda. If it isn't. release it into My care and go on about today's duties. When you follow this practice, there were will be a simplicity about your life: a time for everything, and everything in its time. 

A life lived close to Me is not complicated or cluttered. When your focus is on My Presence, many  things that once troubled you lose their power over you. Though the world around you is messy and confusing, remember that I have overcome the world. I have told you these things,  so that in Me you may have peace."

Ecc. 3:1, John 16:33.

So, if you are like me and struggle with trying to controlling everything instead of letting God control your life, I hope you realize that God loves you and wants what's best for you.

I hope if you are not a Christian, that you will one day accept Jesus as your Savior. It is only through my pride and ego that I do not let God's grace work in me but I am praying to realize that God is a great God who is not a bully or a big meanie. He loves me and He cares for me :)

I am sorry if I am a poor example of what a Christian but I hope people can how much the LORD has changed my life!

I hope you all have a Good Friday whether you celebrate or not!

Love, Faith.

The Homeless Girl/Au Revoir

Hi!

I had two strange dreams last night: one was where I was upset that the two girls upstairs were graduating and I was crying. That was random.

But this one spoke to my heart: I was running away. I don't know from what but I was in rags running in wild fields, and I was trying to steal things; at one point, I was in a house where I was going to steal and ran into an old friend where she didn't recognize me.  She was going to give me food when her husband recognize me; I ran away, then (thankfully) my alarm went off.

I realize, lately, I have been homeless. Not the physical sense; I have my parent's house and my townhouse, but emotionally and spiritually, I have been homeless. At times, I want to leave school, come back home and do school online but I don't want to move back home. I love my (semi) independence.

I realize I have a year and a half until I graduate; I will have an associate in paralegal and a bachelor's in legal studies; I will be working, hopefully living on my own.

I am closer to be going to Paris and India. Possibly Grad school.

One thing I am far away from as of now is love. I know you are probably rolling your eyes at me, but men do not fall madly in love with me like they do with my other friends.

I realize I am emotional, I get crazy, I love chocolate, I am on FB a lot but I do have a life.

Last night, I did movie night. We watched A-Team and I won at killer bunnies. Tonight is Maundy Thursday, Friday is Good Friday where we set up the flowers and go to a local restaurant and eat yummy mac & cheese.

Saturday, I work then go to Stephen's family Easter dinner

Then Sunday is Easter and work, Monday I am volunteering, Tuesday I work, Thursday I work and meet a little Darlin, then I will getting ready to go back to school.

I have done a billion things, been to a billion places, and I have a billion plans. I mean, how busy do I have to be in order to get a guy's attention? To the point where I have no time for him whatsoever?

Do I have to be busy to the point where I have no time for him at all?

At one point in my life, I won't have time for a guy; with all my post grad plans, I probably won't see my family for months at a time.

And this upcoming term, I have classes everyday and I won't be going home every weekend.

Is that not busy enough for a guy, then what is busy for a guy?

Well, I realize the guy who will love me will be someone who will love my crazy quirks, my crazy plans, and won't mind me being on FB a lot (though someone made the point that I won't be spending that much time on FB when I do meet him)

As for the spiritual, I realize lately I have not let God's grace come into my life. I have accepted Jesus into my life, but I am hard on myself and I will let mean comments bother me. I am better than I use to be; it's only people I am close that those comments hurt.

However, God created me with purpose and I have flaws. Somehow, I will give Him glory in one form or another. I feel safe and secure in His Love and when I put my confidence in Him, I feel more content with my life.

I am sooo thankful for a Christian roommate who plays worship music and is a really wonderful person. I think that will help me a lot because I have become more negative since going residential.

Tonight is the night of (in my opinion) a symbolic celebration of the Last Supper. Before Jesus was taken to the Cross. He took my place so I could go to Heaven and celebrate with Him. I wish there was a way I could thank Him that was equal to what He did for me but I am content and I am letting God's grace work in my life.

Happy Maundy Thursday y'all!

-Faith.

P.S. Au Revoir by One Republic. Homeless girl refers to me.

I was here.

hi!

I am sorry for the awful blog posts I have had. I'm sure you guys get annoyed at me, but here are some highlights from break:

Working has been great! It was busy on Saturday due to the Power-Ball being at $320 million. However, someone from Jersey won and work slowed down.

It is nice not study. I sadly regret that I could not finish Harry Potter #6 but I will finish when I get back!

I'm sure I have told you about my future roommate, but she's an awesome Christian and I hope we can become better friends.

Tomorrow, I work but I get to go to Pizza Hut with my Dad tomorrow!

DWTS is pretty good. I think it'll be another all-female finale: Aly Raisman, Kellie Pickler, and Zendaya. They are all really good and I like them all. Andy Dick is crazy! His jazz routine was crazy but it was good!

March Madness is not the best for me because my favorite teams keep losing but I'm thinking it'll be a Duke vs. Fla Gulf Coast final!

Hopefully, movie night with the gang! Skyfall + Killer Bunnies= awesomeness!

Okay, see you all!

I was here. I lived. I loved.

-Faith.

(D-I-S) R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Hi!

It's been kind of a stressful last few days but good news is, this term is almost to an end! Only one more week and I am home!

It's International Women's Month and I think it's great we're celebrating it but I have another problem:

Women are very competitive, especially with each other. When the Feminist movement came along, the assumptions was a woman CEO would help and mentor the women below her. Boy, were they wrong.

I have worked with women as bosses and co-workers. At Green's, the ladies favored the guys over the girls and would stab them in the back.

At Kohl's, I had problems with three managers who are all woman. Very high strong, type-A, and highly critical of you. However, I also got along with other women supervisors.

I wondered why? Well, those ladies were not high strung nor competitive. They were very nice.

Since the beginning of time, women have been competitive with one another. The first female cat fight and love triangle was with Sarah and Hagar from the Bible.

Most of you know that God promised Sarah, a son, but Sarah did not believe God so she had Hagar sleep with Abraham.

She soon became insanely jealous of Hagar and kicked out her to the desert.

Hagar returned home but soon things became worse, then Hagar and Ishmael (Abraham and Hagar's son) had to leave again. God blessed them but there are many more examples of women fighting with each other throughout the Bible.

I have heard since growing and I have experienced this myself that women get along better with men. One would think that same gender would get along with their own, because guys get along great with guys but yet women still fight each other.

 I think society really screwed over women. Since the 60's, women have been told not to be a housewife, but a career women who is higher than men. Women have been told that men stink and to destroy them.

We live in a world confused about their "roles." Especially when it comes to the opposite sex.

The world is still a sexist place. Not so obvious anymore, but there is one sided sexism that is what experience here at school.

Since I have come here, I've been called a donkey and the female dog word by females for really stupid reasons. I have been made fun of because I get upset over them but I know if I did it to any of my lady friends, they would be sooo mad. 

But the only thing we can do is try to change people's attitude. In order to change their attitude, they need to change their hearts and in order to do that, parents need to raise their children.

People are so disrespectful of each other, especially my age. At my school, they disobey the dress code, text, and talk in class. They also shove and slam the door in your face.

I know when I have kids, I am going to teach them how to respect their elders and people their age.

On another note, Janelle is coming to school tonight. I am super duper excited for this fun weekend to start!

-Faith.

All About Tonight....

hey!

Well, I am in a up-beat. Sorry for being moody; kind of a rough day.

However, when I started writing my own myth, I was so enjoying myself that I said "I need to get back to studying!" I had forgotten it was for world mythology!

I still do not like that class. However, it's over soon (Praise the LORD!) He's getting a big F on his big report card.


Anyway, I realized something: a friend of mine, has gotten engaged at age 19. Dated the guy for only a year and now is the planning.

My sister has gotten married at 22; I almost 22 and marriage scares the crap out of me!

But, I am content being single. I am not going to wallow in self pity.

I am reading awesome book by Chad Eastham called "The Truth About dating love & just being friends" and it's awesome because he had a section about being friends and he says it's actually a compliment when a guy says that. It's not insulting when somebody want to be your friend.

I realize that men are not machines. They just keep more inside than outside like us ladies do.

But I realize, Paris, India, mission trips, & other things are more important than dating, love, weddings, and marriages.

I am going to embrace my freedom. My freedom to move in and out of places. The freedom to go to the grocery store, hang out with friends, and be my own person. I don't want to be someone's elses; I want my identity in Christ.

Which speaking of, I am not doing a good job of. I am sorry for trashing people but anyway, I am going TO TRY to focus on my eating habits, soda reducing, and exercise more often.

Next term, after reading #6 and #7 of Harry Potter, I am going to read Toni Morrison novels. They looked interesting at the library today.

Okay, byez!

Faith.

Freindships

hi!

Well, lately, I have been thinking about the past. The past where every Sunday was a new adventure  We usually do something fun and crazy. We would laugh and have a good time.

But that never happens anymore. Ever since Pastor Bob left, all of have changed in one way or another. We don't do anything fun.

True that I am not at home either but even on breaks and they have busy jobs, the only true fun things I do with anybody is Janelle. The rest of my friends have boyfriends or girlfriends or just don't have that same friendship anymore.

That is why sometimes I want a boyfriend. Someone I can talk to and laugh with and have a good time with.

That is why sometimes I hate it when my friends are dating. They never have any time for you.

Honestly, it's not an personal attack on anybody. It's more of a frustration. I know people tell me I need to talk them and ask them, "Hey what's up?" but people are really oblivious to it and don't think there's anything wrong with your friendship with them.

You see, my love languages are affirmation and quality time. I need to be told that the person wants to spend time with me and I want them to spend time with me.

They're the worst love languages honestly. I'd love to have the love language of physical touch. That was my lowest score and I'm sure most guys want girls who are very physical.

But next term,  I need to find new friends at school. My roommates don't ask me to anything and the two girls I hang out with at lunch aren't very nice either.

I know a Christian girl who is nice but I never get the chance to hang out with her. I also know a really nice legal studies girl and a guy who are really nice. Nate and I are still not talking to each other.

But anyway, I am not here to bash, trash or attack anyone. I just get very frustrated sometimes and never quite sure how to communicate them except in a passive aggressive venting type of way.

But I am off to do homework. Two more weeks, then I am done!

-Faith.