Maycomb aka my small town....

Hi!

Well, I started re-reading "To Kill A Mockingbird" (if I said I read "The Old Man and The Sea" sorry. It was okay, not my favourite, but good) and the small town reminds me a lot of my small town. There are strange people like Boo Radley.

There was a guy named Victor who rode his bike around town and was fed by the town. He lived in a shack, didn't have running water, but had cable. How he could afford those things, I never knew. When he died, the neighbors of each of his house inherited whatever part was on their side. They, of course, tore it down.

There have been other strange men. Some, lived in their cars, other lived in trailers. Sadly, I know who they are and even friends with their relatives.

But anyway, living in a small town has its advantages and disadvantages  Some are the same thing: knowing the person. Sometimes, there's some things you don't want to know about them.


Sometimes, you are the target of people's wrath or harassment  but overall, I am not bug too much, since you know, people know my parents :)

There is some but not a lot of racism. People like to joke about the Middle Eastern who own the gas station near me but besides that, it's not like the South back in the 60's.


What else? Work was everlasting crazy yesterday! My co-worker, he cannot come in today because of the snow, so I work a late shift. The latest I worked since before I left school.

I cannot believe school starts in 8 days! At first, I thought break was slow but as it gets closer to school, it feels like it's going really fast.

One of the things I look forward to the MOST is not being bugged so much by my parents. Age is just a number in my house; they do drive me crazy though. When I am here, I am expected to fold and put the wash away, but when I am gone, they take the wash from the basket!

Anyway, I am off to take the dog in the cold (he loves snow) and read "To Kill a Mockingbird" till work.

Okay, bye!

Faith.

Winter Winds....

Hi!

I hope y'all had a wonderful Christmas! I def did!

I worked from Saturday till Christmas Day, which was CRAZY!

Crazy customers, things constantly breaking, good craziness! Then finally, we drove down to Lancaster City!

We went to Stephen's parents house where I saw my favourite cousin in law once removed. Karl; he's an awesome guy. He loves the LORD, is funny, and REALLY smart. He's in grad school for music and is looking into getting his doctorate.

You might think, I am boy crazy. I have to admit, I do like men but I am not a flirt. Here is a difference with Karl and I: he want things logically planned out whereas I am up for adventures. I am basically saying I don't want to miss out if there is someone out there. But with Karl, I would stop being soo boy obsessed.

Whether Karl and I end up together is totally up to him. I refuse to get into his way of getting his doctorate. Dad says people can be married while in grad school but Karl wants to go back for his doctorate in 2014 and I will have just graduated from school.

So, the logical plan would have to go bye bye. I don't want to be married now and I am not upset that I won't be married right after college.

However, I am really hoping Karl will see what I see and maybe consider to talk to me to more besides months at a time facebook posts and family get togethers.

But guys are oblivious to EVERYTHING! You can something right in front of them and they totally miss it!

I kind of think of our friendship as with Larry and Megan from Numb3rs. We kind of sort of have that same type of relationship. I kind of like it too.

Besides a wonderful Christmas, I now miss the townhouse. I miss the Independence I have there. People never bug me where I am. It's nice.

I go back on the 7th. My four classes are going to kick my butt. However, with no TV, only one day class, I will devote my time to studying as much as possible. And reading the whole Harry Potter series to see if it's good or not.

Anyway,  I finished "The Great Gatsby" (I had read it before but need to read it for Great American Novels) and am almost done with "Old Man and the Sea" then I am off to read "To Kill A Mockingbird" (read it before)

"Old Man" is good but not my type of book. It is well written.

Okay, bye! I am off to read before bed!

Faith.

Beginning to the end....

hey!

I cannot believe I am almost done my first term!

In Math, I have an A- Final Grade!
In Constitutional Law, before the final, I have an A- average
In Foundations of Law, before the final, I have an B-Average
In Natural Disasters, before the final and presentation, I have an C- average (didn't do too well in the mid term) but I have an 100% on my first presentation and a 84% for my research paper :)


It's been a crazy term. From not making friends to making friends to being called a whore and donkey and other things to loud neighbors + getting my hair straightened + laughing really hard + having mental breakdowns +to having bad grades and bad days + having good grades and good (sometimes great!) days= a roller coaster term!

I did meet a boy, but it did not go anywhere. Sadly, that's the case with me, but it's okay, I have an amazing life ahead of me and if it doesn't involve a guy, God still has great plans for me!!!!!!!!

Anyway, some room/housemate drama here and there, but it's all good now.

I should go back to studying!

Faith.

I Samuel 16:7B

hi!

Well, it's been crazy, crazy, crazy!

School is going well. The students drive me crazy with their dumb behavior. I have a couple of guys who like to flirt with me (one is really bad and NO, I will never date him!) and some nice gentlemen who open the doors for you.

Lately, I have been getting the most hilarious comments though:

One night, I chose dinner instead of lunch, and there was a group of guys sitting at a table, and the one guy looked at me and said:

"Is she a professor?" and one whistled. I just rolled my eyes.

Then yesterday at McDonald's, some guy and girl were in the corner talking and the girl said:

"She's pretty but she's skinny. And she isn't your type"

Anyway, lately, I have been sad because guys ONLY look at the outside and don't care to dig deeper. I have some guy friends but not what it used to be.

I did try online dating till something REALLY BAD happened and I am done with it. Not forever, just till I am in an range age who cares for the heart and not for lust.

But something great happened today. This one guy's lecture (handsome but not interested in me) he was talking about an earthquake and mentioned "water buffaloes" so I started singing the song from Veggie Tales.

Then I watched the episode. It was about outside beauty and how when it consumes us, our hearts disappear.

With being in an petty and shallow atmosphere where people put themselves first and don't care for others, one can easily can suck into it. I have a hard time cleaning my ears a lot. Not physically, but verbally!

But I realize, no matter what I look like, God loves me! Even if I look like a professor or a skinny white chick, He LOVES me no matter what!

I wasn't insulted by those comments; they just made me laugh.

Anyway, I am excited for the upcoming weeks. They'll be busy, but then Christmas comes back!

Thanksgiving was amazing! We ate, played games, and had a wonderful time!

Anyway, back to my favorite class's homework: foundations in law. Excited for the term to come to an end!

Faith.

"The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart" :)

Icelandic Nun!

Hi!

Well, today sucked.

First, I forget today is the 9th NOT the 8th, thus missing mom's birthday! I hope it didn't upset her. I took her to Cirque Du Soleil about two weeks ago but still, I felt bad. In the end, I got a iced coffee from DD.

Then it sucked my roommates were all jerky during lunch time, harassing me about everything! My goodness, I feel so out of place at lunch time. I have NOTHING in common with these people besides we all don't like President Obama, but MOST people don't.

Anyway, I am happy to be home and Dunkin has a new Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate, which is sooo good!

I work 9-3, then I will try to do homework so I can hang out with Janelle and Jason Sunday WOOT!

Oh, I want to live in either Iceland or Austria and become a nun...depends if I want to sing about the hills or the volcanoes.

Okay, night ya'll!

Faith.

Straightened out....

hi!

Well, it's been another crazy week at school.

School is a lot better than what it was, especially since yesterday. I had fun with all my roommates and it was such a great break of not being in my room by myself.

Anyway, then I went to Christian Campus Ministry and it was about Love and the Prodigal Son. It was a great lesson.

Last night, I got my hair straightened and it felt soo great! I love it! I am hoping to get the hair dryer and straightener soon!

Well, I am tired! I'm becoming an lady, going to bed before midnight!

I am excited for the weekend. I get to go home with my car, work Saturday, and then see Jason and Janelle Sunday morning! SOOO excited to see them both :)

Then back to the old grind. A month and a half and I'll have my first term done!

Okay, off to study for my foundations in law class. I got 18/20 for the review test but I need to for the actual test tomorrow!

Byez-Faith.

Living Life to the Fullest....

Hi!

Well, it's been a relaxing weekend. I enjoy coming home. 

The hard part is going back. I enjoy my professors but I do not like my classmates. Some are nice, but I want more than "nice." I want a friend. Someone I can talk to about everything besides school! Someone where we can do fun stuff  like watch TV or play a game or see a movie! I don't know, but I think it's outside the box to do something fun at my school. 


I have learned that we are a generation of apathy. We just want to graduate from college, get the job, get the house, and get the car. Nothing more, nothing less. 


I mean, just because you're breathing doesn't mean you have any life in you. 


what happen to adventure? What happen to trying something new? What happen to just enjoying the little stuff like a conversation or the beauty around you? What happen to talking about stuff besides classes, tests, professors, or EVEN SCHOOL?!


That is why sometimes I want to transfer to Liberty Online and do it there, but I realize, I love living on my own. I just hate the social aspect. I am STILL praying for that special friend and not a boyfriend, just a friend. 

My friend posted this quote and I really like it: 

"If you're going to stay, stay forever. If you're going to leave, then do it today. If you're going to change, change for the better, and if you're going to talk, make sure you mean what you say....."


If only people lived life to their fullest. I truly believe the TRUE content people are people who LOVE Christ. Not people who go to church but people who truly LOVE the LORD. I'm not trashing people who struggle, because I do, but I always find my PEACE in my Savior. 

Anyway, I am participating in my first presidential election. I am excited and I hope the nation is wise this time around!

Bye!

Faith. 

Girl On Fire.....

hi!

Well, it's been a busy crazy weekend!

I am in such a good mood. I found out I got a 81% on my FIRST MATH Test! I will try to do better on Test #2 and #3

Anyway, tomorrow is church and doing homework. Mostly my legal courses but I plan on working on my first presentation for Natural Disasters.

So...what else?

I am not as frustrated with the friend situation. I will miss Brad mostly because we talk about stuff besides PTA. It's nothing romantic. Just a good ole platonic friendship.

I am still praying to meet a friend who I can talk to besides school and can do fun stuff. Even leaving campus! I am SO outside the box, lolz!

I am getting more and more excited for my future.

On Friday, the foundations in law which was usually boring, mediation caught my interest. ME being a MEDIATOR?! Most people don't come to me for advice. But I found it interesting and I will look into it. If I get the regular 9-5 paralegal job in the area, I'll be content. Rarely do people get their job right away except if you're in the medical field, but thankfully, I am not!

Okay bye!

"This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire....."

First Impressions

hi!

Well, I've gotten to know my one friend really well. He's actually a nice guy.


When you first meet, it's not the best impression. He made fun of me even when I hadn't talked to him the first time I met him. It kind of sparked a little awkwardness.

However, with a help of a friend, have someway, connect. Not a romantic connection (we'd NEVER work!)  but we have similar views on a lot of stuff, especially dating.


You cannot always rely on first impressions. You should read Pride and Prejudice, because it was at first called "First Impressions" sometimes, you just have to get to know somebody before you judge.

Okay, I need to study! Thank Goodness tomorrow is Friday!

Faith.

Being Thankful!

Hi!

This month is a challenge where I am going to be thankful. Today, I said I am thankful for the LORD because He's always with me no matter.

Last night at CCM, this verse spoke to me:

"For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him" 2nd Chronicles 16:9.

It was encouraging especially after a roller coaster of a day. Last night, I was just so depressed between loneliness and fudge, I was going crazy!

However, I love my walks. It helps escape the loneliness I face everyday. I walk without the need to talk, but I just think. It's a peaceful time.

I also found the library to be nice as well. It's small and it doesn't have the new fiction I want, but I like it. It's quiet and has a nice reading area.

My first class was canceled today. I found out my professor was in an accident but in case you were worried, she gave us homework, lolz.

But the other classes are as scheduled. Constitutional Law has a quiz; Math has a test, and as usual, Natural Disasters Professor is crazay!


What else? I need to go and study!

Faith.

Hopeless Wanderer.....

hi!

It's been another roller coaster:

the High's:

My professors were awesome today and hilarious.

I didn't attend my first class and found she never showed up

Registered for next term

Met some nice students.

The Low's

Lunch time. My PTA friends are awesome but the two girls want me to get drunk and watch reality shows. If   you know me (Besides DWTS), is that ME?!

Plus, all they ever talk about is PTA stuff. Stuff I cannot relate to. I don't want to tell them. I hope all things change soon.

Seeing a guy who gave a girl homemade PB & Chocolate Fudge. She's not even his girlfriend. Even my ex didn't do anything like that.


Trying to make friends. It sucks.

Trying to do other activities. You'd be amazed on how people don't get back to you.

Now this can be a high or low:

Going to Christian Ministry. The message is great but the people aren't the greatest. Some of the girls even glare at me the rest of the time.


Sometimes,  I just want to come home, transfer to Liberty Online, work at the Hill, and be with my friends. Especially days where I want to hit my head on the wall.

I am praying that I have one friends. Legal studies or Christian, or someone with similar interest!

Tomorrow starts a FB challenge where people once a day, think of something thankful, relating to the Bible.

I know y'all think I'm desperate, dramatic, and selfish but deep down, I am thankful for my family and friends, and above all, my Savior.

Okay, bye!

Faith.

PS. Song by Mumford and Sons. My Theme song.

Just An Ordinary Day....

hi!

Well, thankfully, the power is still on. We only had strong wind and rain; just finding if we have school tomorrow or not. I think we do but it'll be hard to get back especially since I drive on a major highway.

Just found, there is school tomorrow. It'll be lots and lots of fun trying to get all my stuff to my room.

I think I'll take up water tubing

Anyway, need to do math homework!

Bye, Faith

Burnin Down the House!

hi!

Well, I almost burnt down the house when I put a hot pocket in the microwave. I wanted to put 1:75 on the microwave and ended up with 10:24 when we saw the smoke come out of the microwave! I panicked but Dad took care of it.

Yeah,  I do I have ADD, lolz

But anyway, we're all safe and the house is still intact.


Sandy is either passing us or coming in later. Power is still on and there haven't been any problems besides lots of rain and high wind.

I don't have school tomorrow but I am hoping we don't have school on Wednesday just because of flooding in the area.

What else? I have given up all hopes on online dating so I closed my account. True love is meant for some people but not me. All the good guys are taken.

But  I will serve God with whether single or married. I will spend my singleness with the LORD and serve Him at all times.

Okay, bye!

Faith.

Unpredictable Sandy...

hi!

Well, it's been raining all day but thankfully, we still have power.

In about seven hours, it's suppose to slam right into here and be here till tomorrow.

Thankfully, since we are a state of emergency, school has been canceled until tomorrow and I am hoping Wednesday.

What else? Homework and waiting for Sandy to come

Once Upon A Time was amazing! It's an amazing show and finding where the Doctor came from was awesome!

Tonight is Dancing With The Stars which I'm hoping is good.

K, bye!

Faith.

I should be studying but....

hi!

Well,  I have something due at 11:59, I have a quiz and chapter review Tuesday and A 5 question math test Wednesday and I register for classes, lolz, I am a busy girl!

I also have Hurricane Sandy to deal with! Hopefully it's a bust because I do want to go to school!

I am feeling much better. I have learned to be content in whatever circumstance there maybe. Even though I might not have a Christian friend at school.

Church was great today. It stinks I can't see my friends but there's always next week.

Anyway, Cirque Du Soleil was amazing! It was intense, crazy, and insane but amazing! Then we got lost going through Reading and made a huge circle but it all worked out.


Need to go!

Faith.

Circus of the Sun....

Hi!

Yep, it's Cirque De Soleil for my mom's birthday!

I am excited. It'll be an awesome show and my mom loves them. She has no idea.

The idea came when we went to the movies and she wanted to see the Christmas Movie but I looked it up and found it out where it was, I became excited!

I'm a little nervous about the weather but I am praying it's staying away till tomorrow so mom and I can enjoy the show.

As much as I'd love school to be canceled, I don't want it to flood.


What else? After the show, I'm going home to do lots of homework, the show "Beauty and the Beast" drives crazy, Bo is sleeping, I have mixed feelings about certain stuff and I am waiting for my parents to come back from Wal-Mart....I'm just sooo excited for the showwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

Bye, Faith.

Frankenstorm Friday

hi!

It's Frankenstorm Friday!

Basically, the Northeast is going to get slammed by Hurricane Sandy and guess what?! PA is part of it!

Anyway, I am going to pack most of my stuff. Clothes, technology, books, and some bedding. I want to stay on the safe and not get my stuff hurt. I wouldn't care except my townhouse is behind a creek and I live in an area prone to floods.

So, school might be canceled next week...possibly, lolz

But the good news is I can still take my mother out for her birthday surprise. I am really excited for it and cannot wait to her see face when she finds out about it!

I am excited for a non working weekend and I hope I can hang out with my friends.

I am still a little lonely and I am still looking for that friend who I can talk to about books and movies, instead of professors and school.


Okay! Bye!

Faith.

Sorry wrong number....

hi!

I realized something last night. God had answered a tiny prayer. Remember telling about leaving bible study? Well, sometimes I feel unsafe and I pray God protects but my friend was at the right spot at the right time to walk me home!

Anyway, last night I also realized Thursday is laundry day. I am becoming like Sheldon Cooper (lol and show is even on Thursdays!)

Well, I have three more classes to go today. I hope all goes well and I can't wait to go home and take my mama out for an early birthday present!


Faith.

PS, I accidentally texted someone else.....Awkward sauce...

A happy coincidence.....

hi!

Today was a roller coaster. Times were awesome and other times I cried my eyes out.

However, later tonight became more peaceful. I took a beautiful walk, made peace with a friend, went to Bible study where my prayer was answered. I haven't found my "one" friend; someone I can talk to besides PTA stuff but I know they're around.

The friend I made peace with, comes from a rough background. They didn't mean the things they said; sometimes it comes out wrong.

Bible Study was alright. They are kind of cliquish especially the ladies, but I will attend because there will be somebody there to friend. The lesson was amazing though. It was about who is a Christian. Lately, I've been slagging but I realize I should always LOOK to HIM. Also, Christians should LOVE (I John 4: 7-19)

After bible study, I ran into them; "my happy coincidence." I wouldn't of mind it were a guy I was interested in and it would be a romantic scene but maybe one day.

It was a guy but he's pinning after someone else. I have been praying for him that he sees he needs to become a true sincere Christian to be with her. I pray he is freed from his chains of pain; it would be amazing to see the whole person without his chains.

Anyway, tomorrow is a new day. A little nervous for math. My prof made fun of me but if you know him, you know he's not a big meanie.

My other professor told me he's going to be immortal and haunt me in his cereal box.

My other one can make any presidential impersonation. It's soo funny.

My other one, I am hoping she gets better.

Goodnight!

Faith.

Debatable Title...

Hi!

Today is going well. I didn't have to sit through Foundations in Law because we had a quiz.

Today will be an interesting day. I am having a conflict with a person (non roommate) and I don't want to tell them the truth because I think it'll be awkward.

However, they make me feel like I walk on egg shells. I can make an incident comment and they can pervert it!

My roommate told me she didn't know what to do either in the beginning. This person is different and she's right....it's hard to describe them....

Anyway,  I hope it goes well because my roommate is going to talk to them about it and we'll see what happens over lunch.....

I am hoping tonight I'll meet some nice Christian friends....

I will talk to you all later!

Faith.

PS: This title is because I could not think of anything besides "The Definition of Love/Hate" because that how describes this person and myself or "Anna Karenina?" Because so much of the novel is NOT about her.

Secretly Undercover......

hi!

I am a little sleepy and I usually make lots of typos so I AM SO SORRY if I make 6 billion typos tonight.

Anyway, school is good. Sometimes, my insecurities rise up since I haven't found a Christian friend or a legal studies buddy but I am going to the Campus Christian Group tomorrow night so hopefully it'll be better this time :)

I shouldn't complain. I am sooo blessed with the wonderful God has given me. Something so small like someone opening the door for me, listening to the Fall leaves, beautiful sunshine or a kind message help my spirits at school.

I even have people at my school who care about me. I am thankful for them and sometimes I overly react to EVERYTHING!

I am very excited for this weekend.  I cannot wait to tell everybody what my mom and I are doing for her birthday. I AM SO STINKIN excited!

What else? Classes are going well. Sometimes I don't want to go to my foundations in law, mostly because my prof drives me crazy! My Math and Science profs are great but after watching the Japan Earthquake, I almost vom in my mouth. My stomach became really sick. Not a great feeling while watching an Earthquake.

Anyway, Constitutional Law is amazing and next week, I get to register for classes again! I am hoping to get my two humanities out of the way next term then the only Gen Eds I have are 4 (12 credit) open electives.

I really wanted to take History of Jazz but sadly, it's not a 300/400 Level class.

Well, I need to get bed. I get up early in the morning then I head to class. I am excited for Wednesday!


I am hoping and praying for the best and I am learning from Proverbs. Remember, Solomon is a ladies man! ;)

Goodnight, Faith.

Great night LAST night....

hi!

Well, LAST night was amazing!  I went to LOFT and had a blast!

It was great seeing all my friends, learning from Proverbs, and going to Dunkin Donuts.

I felt relaxed and safe there. There was no complaining (serious dramatic complaining like at school) and it was refreshing to be around other Christians. Even the Christians at my school aren't that great.

My one roommate is a Christian but I never see her and maybe have general conversations.

I am going to give the Christian ministry another chance over and over again but at least I have my friends at home.


I have decided to stop hanging out with my roommates. Reason being is simply, I am not one of them. They are nice, and funny but we have different personalities and different beliefs, so it can be really tough to relate especially since they are all PTA people. I need a Christian and/or legal studies friend at school. I am praying for one to come. It would be nice to talk to someone seriously especially about my major.

Anyway, I need to get going. Talk to you all later!

Faith.

PS. Solomon is a ladies man, lol. Something we studied at LOFT ;)

Fall in love with Autumn.....

hi!

Fall/Autumn is my favourite season of all time!

Especially my school now. The leaves and the sunshine are gorgeous (which I'll take picture of the campus) and I've learned that walking calms me down even though the walk requires huge hills.

I also love wearing pants, long shirts, drinking Fall themed drinks, eating apple pie and playing with the leaves.

The downside of Fall is when it becomes winter too quickly and I have to wear shoes/sneakers and not sandals.

Well, I have discovered lately people are afraid of taking risks. My one roommate, for pity's sake won't even take the train to go to Philly to see her favourite movie "Titanic" exhibition at the Franklin Institute.

I mean, Harrisburg is NOT that dangerous!

Anyway,  I need to go study. I'll come back later!

Faith.

"I" for Insanity....

hi!

Well, it's the end of week 2 and let's say....it's been crazy!

Today was the craziest. In math, a guy got mad at the professor because he did not give homework due. He knew I did it because I had questions for him so I got the 25% participation grade.


Natural Disasters, professor played classical music (almost made me fall asleep) and people were texting and sleeping....

Lunch was even crazier. For some strange reason, my friends think I am really funny...at least today anyway.

I met a guy at school who is from my county and we were talking about this restaurant he works at. I told I like the apple pie but I didn't like anything else there, and the one girl, Emily just burst out laughing.

I do have a tendency to blurt things out, especially when I am tired.

I love my PTA (Physical Therapy Assistant) friends but I wish I had a legal studies buddy. The only two people I talk from legal studies are both commuters and for only snippets.

Sometimes during lunch, I don't really talk and sometimes I tell myself before lunch I won't eat lunch but then I am thankful I go because I really start laughing and forget about everything else.

I am lonely. My roommates are great Abby, Alex, Courtney and future roommate  Emily is great but I still would love a friend where I can talk about something besides PTA professors and hear how hard their classes are.

I didn't go to the Christian Campus Ministry because I mostly had homework but I didn't fit in last time.

I am excited for LOFT. A place where I can be myself and talk about cool stuff; no cursing, no sex comments. A safe and healthy environment.

Tomorrow and Sunday I work, where I get to see my regulars. The good, the bad, and the ugly, lolz.


Okay, I am BLESSED! I should be thankful for the blessings I have and stop focusing on all the negatives about school but sometimes, it's easier to be sad than happy!


Happy Friday!

Faith.

PS. My roommate nominated someone from PTA for "most inspirational person" she hinted the "I" category , which her friend responded "Insanity"

Let the Skyfall

hi!

Well, school is getting better.

Pros:

Constitutional Law is amazing!
I get along with my roommates, especially #3 and her friend
Food is pretty good
My car is ready! I got a 1999 Ford Taurus!
Work was awesome!
Students are getting better

Cons:

Noisy neighbors
Foundations in Law instructor drives me crazy! I have learned but not really
Lunch Hour is annoying!
Students can be obnoxious!


Another thing: guys only like the girls who dress like sluts. Though my roommate says the black men love innocent white blue eyed girls but if they think I'm easy, then they better find somebody else.

A guy recently said something racist to me. Though he is a racist (and a self proclaimed Native American) he is handsome. Sadly, he's not a Christian but if he were, oh my, all the ladies would love him!

I should be mad for mocking me and not thinking I'm pretty but it's okay. He's done after this term and I will never seem him again.

Oh, well. You never get EVERYTHING!

But I am blessed. Honestly, seeing how lifeless the students are, I am thankful for Jesus as my Savior. People say they can live without Him but looking at them, seeing what they think is great (sex, drugs, and heavy drinking) they're missing out with Jesus Who gives us peace.


Anyway, I am sleepy....I should be in bed

My schedule can be slow but tomorrow is Christian Fellowship. It was okay, not as great as Loft but I am hoping to meet more Christians. Like I said, cursing like crazy, sex, heavy drinking, and drugs drive me CRAZY!

Off to bed. Goodnight!

PS. Adele is amazing!

All in the Family.....

hi!

Well, I've been very busy, but:

I started classes yesterday and they went well. I like them but foundations in law is SO boring. Now, constitutional law is the most interesting; math is somewhat interesting and natural disasters  I haven't learned anything yet. He just lectured us for two days about the rules.


The living aspect is pretty good. I live in a townhouse where the roommates are 90% good. I mean by that is, the one (roommate #1) doesn't live here and she seems self centered. The other one, though a Christian (#2), spends all her time in her room. But (#3), ohmygoodness, I love her! She's amazing! She is so kind and I simply love her southern accent!

Though it's kind of funny, #3 acts more like a Christian than #1 does.

anyway, I am tired of 6 attitudes:

1. "I never hang out with people because I have too much homework!"
2. "I'm a racist"
3. "I hate school!"
4. "I can break the dress code"
5. "I can shove you, because you know, I don't like being nice"
6. "I can text in class and not care it's distracting you"



anyway, I'm over it. I'm hoping tonight I can meet a nice Christian person; someone I can relate to and fellowship with. It was easier making friends at LCCC than here!

Okay, bye!

Faith.

PS: too many Archie Bunker's and not enough Bill Cosby's.

Holding on to good....3 days...

Hi!

Wow! Crunch, crunch....I hear the time crunching!

I have everything I need for school. Books, clothes, bathroom and bedroom stuff. So, yeah, it's now basically waiting for Sunday to come....

I really like Delta Rae a lot. I'm really into remix/alternative/folk/anti-folk (Regina Spektor, lolz) music lately. I still like Christian and Classical music but I like songs that are different without being controversial. Lady Gaga always has to make a statement and for me, I don't need that.

Anyway, listening to music, trying to stay calm.....

Remember, do not push the panic button!

Faith.

"But in the morning, in the morning
Sometimes I think about the way you held me
In the morning, in the morning
Sometimes I think about the way you held me..."

Being in Charge....four more days...

hi!

I ate lunch with Elizabeth today. We talked about lots of stuff but one thing stuck out:

You see, both Elizabeth and I are quite people, however, when behind a counter we are completely different people. Simply because: we are in charge, quiet people are stubborn and can be controlling.

I am stubborn and can be controlling. I like to be in control; that's why God and I fight sometimes but I do trust Him.

What else? School of course coming up. I'm putting everything in boxes, trying to see if my printer will work or not. I think it's minor but still a pain.

My dad is pulling me left and right to do stuff with tomorrow but I don't think I can. I need to finish packing and do other school related stuff.

I might even watch some "Hollow Crown" tomorrow...with you know, My Tom Hiddleston! lol ;)

Right now, I am listening to Delta Rae and drinking Pumpkin Spice Cappuccino...

okay, bye! Faith.

Somebody to love......

Hi!

Trouble with the Curve was good. It had a lot of "bad" swearing in it but I liked it overall. Clint Eastwood, Amy Adams, and Justin Timberlake were awesome.

Saw awesome previews for "Lincoln" "42" and "Argo" I might see in theatres but at least in on DVD.

Tired, nervous, listening to music, excited but nervous for the upcoming week.

I get to go to Applebees and see my wonderful mentor, Elizabeth. She lives North of me and I want to see her again.

Two last things:

Bristol should have gone tonight! WHY AMERICA?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Justin Bieber told took Queen's title song away! Though, Usher is the best part of the song...

Bye!

Faith.

Curving with food....5 days.....

hi!

Today, I am going to see "Trouble with the Curve" and go eat at the best place where there is Roast Beef Panini's with my parents!

Honestly, this whole year thing scares because I think, when am I going to see my friends?!

Anyway, things seem better with school. Basically, I'll I need to do is pack. Plus, go car shopping, plus go out to eat tomorrow at Applebees with my dear friend Elizabeth.

Yeah, busy week! Thank goodness Dad has off for two weeks and my mom has off next week!

Yay, need to get ready!

Faith.

It's always a good time.....6 more days....

Hi!

Wow, cannot believe soon school will be here soon; I am still packing and getting ready.

Excited for: meeting new people, living on my own, two paralegal courses, and having my own life.

Nervous for: living on my own, discreet math, trying to be organized, working, volunteering, and fighting with roommates. I hope it's a smooth semester (or term in my case) lolz.

I went to shopping today for more clothes, bathroom and bedroom stuff. I have to finish packing by at least Friday so I'm not frantically panicking Saturday night and screaming "where's my stuff?!"

Well, Once Upon A Time was great except of the whole love triangle thing between Prince Philip, Aurora, and Mulan. I thought that it was a little creepy. I am still curious who Dr. Whale is. He's not Captain Hook but else could he be? Peter Pan?!

Tonight is Dallas v. Da Bears and Dancing with the Stars. I think we once what my Dad will want to watch, LOLZ!

Anyway, I know all works out and I am going to keep praying that it does. One or another.

Faith.

Once Upon A Time.....

there was a show called Once Upon A Time!

Actually, it's still on. It's one of my favourite dramas. I like how they do the duel plotlines. I am excited for the season because Mulan, Captain Hook, and Aurora are appearing this season, then we'll find out who this Dr. Whale is. His enchanted counterpart has yet to be revealed. I thought he was Prince Philip but that's played by another actor. Weird nothing has been said about Peter Pan. Maybe.....maybe.....

Anyway, one more week till school. I sometimes get really excited for it, then other times I get really nervous.

I know it's time to leave but it's scary. It's not a dorm where I will be home in the summer; this is a townhouse where I will be there for TWO years straight!

Anyway, my roommates seem nice (I probably said that earlier too) but I am sharing a room with another girl, who, I hope we get along at least. I don't expect to be buds but I hope we can figure stuff out.

The thing I get most nervous about is the schedule:

Class #1 8:40-9:40
Class #2 11-12
Class #3 1:20-2:20 (this is what makes me nervous most)
Class #4 2:30-3:30

Only ten minutes apart and they're not that close to each other! Not like #1 and #2!

I will be a busy girl.

What else? I find it funny I am the only girl in my townhouse who is not PTA and single. I am the black sheep!

Though,  I have seen some nice looking Christian guys online. There was one who seemed too perfect.

Loves the LORD, doesn't drink, likes to do fun and crazy things, but minus the personality.

You see, if you follow a color personality wheel, I am white but I like red:

Type-A
Sarcastic
No Sense of Humor
Control Freak
Clingy

However, I should date only yellows because:

Laid Back
Calm
Go with the flow
Has a sense of humor
Nice

Now, he's blue and red (got some purple going on LOL!) so he's type A with sensitivity

I dated a Red and have liked Reds but they just don't work for me. I don't want a guy sooo negative all the time and think he can insult whenever. I want a nice guy where I can make about him and he can laugh about it.

I feel the most comfortable around guys who can take jokes and won't be nasty towards me.

However, the guys who are yellow are rare. Most Christians guys are too serious; to the point where I want to kill them. You know what I mean.

When it comes to my personality type (I am White 34%, Blue 31%, Yellow 27%, and then Red 7%) I need a yellow. When I read the ups and downs of dating a Red, I found the Red will be too demanding and the White will be passive aggressive.

Downside of a White dating a Yellow would be nothing would get done. They both roll with the punches but they don't motivate each other with their goals. Nice way of saying they're lazy.

But anyway, I am not going to college for my MRS degree. I need to go to Bob Jones or Pensacola to go myself a husband!

My school is going to kill my love life for two years. Seriously, look at my schedule, working two jobs, and volunteering,  I won't have a lot of time doing anything else!

Anyway, need to go and enjoy this beautiful Fall Day!

-Faith.

Roots....

hi!

Well,  I got my textbooks (thank you rental.com) for: my two paralegal courses and math (thank you Natural  Distasters class that I didn't need to buy a textbook)

I'm excited for the paralegal courses, a little bit for the science and online class, but not so much for math. It's called Discrete Math and it's supposed to be really easy, but I am def going to get a tutor for it. I want good grades.


I am also going to be working on weekends, hoping to get an on campus job, hanging out friends, and volunteering, between that, studying, and sometimes cooking and cleaning, I already feel overwhelmed!

Anyway, I don't really have any roots.

My parents were born close to NJ, I was born close to Philly and now we live far from both of them!

While most people in town claim they have lived there all their lives (Helen has lived here since 1945) I cannot.

Before working at the Hill, I wanted to leave the area; go to Lancaster but ever since working there and learning Pastor James MacDonald is building a church plant near my house, I've liked the idea of staying in the area.

LORD only knows where I will end up living after school. Whether it's here, Lancaster, DC or India, I'm excited!

Kind of tired. Bo has been a ball of energy since this morning!

Just pray for me. A roommate (the one I am rooming with) is already giving me some grief. She says the black students come in either high or drunk and wants her boyfriend to sleep in the same room while I am there! Besides that, the other girls have their own rooms and seem to be really nice!

Okay, bye!

~Faith.

A Rainy Fall Day....

hi!

I've been a busy girl these last three weeks. I have been working an average 25-29 hours a week! Even this upcoming week, I work 32 hours!


I cannot believe school is only three weeks away. I have found out where I am living, and finances are straightened out.

Only things left to do:

Shop for some clothes, school supplies
Find out my roommate list
Buy Textbooks

But honestly, there's nothing else to do but pray that I won't cry the first week and call my parents like crazy!

Work is good. For the most part, it's going well, but I am also working at another store, where the lottery people are awful! I think they're worse than my mine!

Daily Number and Big Four are your own numbers. You can do crazy stuff with them. Drives me crazy because people mumble or talk too fast! Ohmygoodness; I could do without lottery and old gas pumps.

The nice thing about the other is the pumps are new and there's only two types of coffees: regular and decaf. Whereas, my store we 6billion different types of coffee. There's also more space and some of the people I work with are not lazy and want to work.

I met this guy named Jaye who wants to go to school for both Cosmetology (yes, I did think he was gay) but he also said he wants to do physical education and has a girlfriend. He's from NJ and hates the Cold Weather of PA. He's an awesome guy and if he were a Christian I'd date him (even though people might think he's gay)

Anyway, I realize the type of guy I want to date. Most people don't like color tests but they're pretty accurate. So:

Someone yellow: laid back, kind, positive, and has a sense of humor

Someone I don't want to date:

Red: someone high-strung, attention seeking, negative, controlling, and is a mean sarcastic person.

But I've realized, if I don't end up getting married, it's okay. God has great plans for me whether I have a ring or not.

I really like Jeremiah 17:7-8:

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green, It has no worries in a year of drought, and never fails to bear fruit.”

I pray I trust and please the LORD always. I pray I am not bitter nor judgmental. I pray I trust God's plans no matter what comes way. Even when I get jealous or discouraged.

Anyway, I work an easy three shift tonight, work tomorrow then movie night at Jason's and sleeping over with Janelle, then I plan on shopping for school, and a new week begins Friday!

Okay, bye!


Faith.

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes.....

hi!

Well, it's been a crazy weekend.

On Saturday, we went to Stephen's grandparents house where we celebrated birthdays. The food was sooo good (had sushi without the fish, yummy!)

However, I think my mom embarrasses me. While we were eating, my mom blurted to my sister, I flirt with every guy. Most of the people at the table had bachelor's degree with some people having master's degree( Stephen's aunt and uncle have master's in engineering) but still, I said "I do not flirt with every guy."

Anyway, on Sunday, I agreed to work a co-worker's 6-11 but I showed up a little early to talk to him to see he was by himself. I had to come around 5 instead! My mom had to work with me 6-9. She was sooo ticked, I thought someone was going to get shot.

Thankfully, it was an accident. He (the MIA co-worker) thought he was working tonight.

Anyway, I work tonight with a girl who has gotten better but I don't want to leave her by herself. I am conflicted. I wish I could now, but I's (did it on purpose) tired :/

Anyway, listening to music!


Faith.

"I hope this is your profile and I hope you liked my water color paintings"

I only sent Tom Hiddleston a letter. A fan sent him water color paintings! How pathetic am I?!

Question is: are his statuses real or done by a staff person or fan?!

Hi!

Well, today, I did not get a lot done. Between switching banks, getting up late, babysitting Bo, doing chores and working 4-9 (not all in order sorry) I feel like my brain cells are slowing dying.


I so want to finish Part 2 of "Tender is the Night!" I need to get cracking on "Anna Karenina" soon!

I also don't understand why everyone loves Ryan Lochte. He seems to be a arrogant, chauvinistic, and charming jerk! I don't even like Michael Phelps either. I like Nathan Adrian better. He seems to be a better guy.


I am a little disappointed that LOFT is still on Sundays. The thing is, people say Sundays work best or Fridays work best but no matter the outcome, still get the same crowd! We seriously need to take a poll!

Anyway, I want to do some reading before I go to work. I usually have serious, light hearted or sarcastic conversations but nothing deep or serious. I am having a hard time finding somebody to talk to about how they thought back in the 20's, one of the symptoms of schizophrenia is being scared of men.

Okay, bye!---Faith.

Delusions

hi!

The last couple days have gone well. Working, reading, listening to music, making plans, it's been great!


I like my job. I worked 29 hours this past week (Thursday till Wednesday) and I am excited for that paycheck!

Though, there are some people who creep me out. One guy just seems to have a crush on me; I wouldn't mind but he works at Wegman's and is a bit oldish. I'd say early 30's, plus he's always talking about how

Things are a little frustrating with friends. Just some conflicts of schedule and other stuff. I laugh because I finally have the chance to drive and everybody is busy!


I am halfway in "Tender is the Night" I am hoping to finish "Anna Karenina" before late September! I am also hoping to finish "The Hobbit" before December! What a challenge!


I also recently finished "Up" it's funny and cute, and I just loved Dug. Bo is similar to him, which made me laugh even more. I watched it because there was a customer from Turkey Hill who reminded me of him.

Well, I am hungry, bye!---Faith

"It's always a delusion when I see what you don't want me to see" ---Nicole Diver, "Tender is the Night"

Honey Boo Boo

hi!

Well, the movie "Bourne Legacy" I'd give it a B+

But MJ's was soo yummy. I had a roast beef panini and eclair cake. A+++++++++++++++++!

Anyway, today I work. I work the famous 3-11 but I am glad I am working. Bo and my Dad are driving me crazy. Bo won't stop barking in the house while Dad is trying to be a control freak. He won't let me do this and that. I am my own human being! Let me decide on my own!

Anyway, there are two movies coming out that I want to see: Oz: The Great and Powerful and Trouble with the Curve.

What else? I need to go do stuff before work!

Faith.

PS. My mom was so tired on Sunday, she started calling me "Honey Boo Boo"

Schrödinger's cat....

is dead or alive?!

Hi!

I finally can drive again! Yesterday, I drove to my grandmother's place where we went out to Texas Roadhouse. Anyway, the food was yummy but it was so loud and my grandmother was really obnoxious.

It is so great to drive again. I am so blessed but I need and pray to find a "newer" car before school starts.

What else? I worked Thursday till yesterday, I have today, tomorrow, and Thursday off, and I work Wednesday

Tonight I am going line dancing. So excited to hang out with Jason and possibly Vanesca. I hope I am still good at it.

Other driving opportunities? LOFT, sleepovers, Zumba, Walmart, school, Rachel and Stephen's. I am sooo excited!

Anyway, I am off to do chores and other exciting stuff while Bo is howling for no apparent reason!

Faith.

"Wait"

Hi!

Lately you have seen my posts about Tom Hiddleston. You see, I know I will never meet him but he seems to be a wonderful non Christian.

One of the reasons I like him is because I know he'll never break my heart. Many guys I know don't think I'm attractive or smart. In my letter, I wrote about Fitzgerald, Regina Spektor, Midnight in Paris, Return to Cranford, and Tender is the Night, which many guys would have made fun for me.


It's a way to numb the reality that guys only think of me as a friend. I easily forget the pain guys have afflicted on me; to forget their thoughts on what they think of me.

I know you think of me as melodramatic but seeing my lady friends getting boyfriends right away without doing any work to get his attention, it hurts for me. I shouldn't be jealous because I don't want a boyfriend now. I just want to know that guys find me pretty and smart. I need encouragement from my guy friends

Yes, I am a piece of work.

I think about Tender is the Night and reading it, the one character Nicole is brought by her father to Switzerland because of her fear of men. However, her father failed her. After her mother died, they use to hold hands, sleep in the same (my dad doesn't do this! I promise!) and were called "lovers" then, he wanted to leave her as soon as possible at the clinic.

As for me, I do have a little fear of guys. My dad has been a wonderful fatherly figure and I don't need to marry someone like my dad. But I am afraid that there is no one out there for me. No one interested in me now. It's like I am a wallflower. I refuse to marry a guy who is controlling, mean or a liar so I might be single all my life.

I know God has a purpose for my life, but I have asked Him if I am ever getting married or staying single, all He says is "Wait" but wait for what?! All I hear is "Wait"

So, I wait for what He has planned for my life. I know He cares for me and even if I am in my abyss of self pity and pain, I know if I turn to Him, He gives me comfort and strength.

I worked five hours last night, which went well, but tonight I work 3-11, teaching a new girl for two hours by myself. It scares me to death!

Then I work 9-5 tomorrow and then 9-3 Sunday! (crazy weekend!)

Bye! Faith

A busy but an exciting weekend.....

hi!

Well, I start driving again this Sunday. I cannot wait but the downside is my car. I am praying for a newer car but it seems impossible and out of reach. But I know God provides in His own time.

I am working tonight 4-9, tomorrow 3-11, Saturday 9-2, then (gasp!) Sunday 9-3, then two days off!

I am hoping to go line dancing this Monday or going to Knoebels or going to a movie. Tuesday, I want to do something....something crazy!

Sunday, sadly though, I have to see my grandmother. She's my biologically grandmother but there's not a relationship between my family and her. We only go see her since Dad has this weird idea we have to put up with family even no matter how narcissistic, neurotic, and self centered they are!

On another note, my letter probably has made it to its location in London, probably needs to be sorted out by the mail room peoples. Tom is filming in "Thor 2" in London. I thought it'd be in an another country but probably won't make it to him for months. It's 5:30pm now there!

Anyway, need to finish work!

Faith.

"Can't hold us down....."

hi!

The school visit went well and I like school more.

Got to see an old friend and hang out with Rach and Stephen.


As for the letter, I know 99.9% that it's in London. I know 99.9% out of the plane. Now, 70% sure it's somewhere in a post office. 99.9% sure it'll be read by a staff member by Friday. 100% sure Tom won't see it :)


Anyway, I realize obsessing over boys is a waste a time. A couple of my friends have no desire to date and are content with their lives. I don't have a clock clicking in my head anymore; looking forward to traveling the world; being content with the LORD.

Like the saying I created, "Sisters before Misters (&Hipsters)"

Okay Bye--! Faith.

Bigger Than My Body....

hi!

Bo iss so much better!

Actually, the pool party turned into a boat party. They live in a gated community with an awesome lake and we went on an awesome boat ride. I like riding boats, especially ones with comfy seats and fun people on it.

I stink at foosball! (whatever you call it with the soccer dudes or spell it!) and have met some great people! I had a blast!

Work is going well. Some idiots and an occasional hypocrite, which I created the saying "For the Love of Hypocrites!"

It's a long story but the short version: A guy annoys another, the other guy calls him a hypocrite even though he is one himself.

What else?  I am listening to John Mayer now more than ever. He has some great songs....too many about sex and seems to be a crummy person. I am conflicted now.

Anyway, I am tired. I worked 8 hours today....but I am excited for more! I am working an average of 25 hours. Cannot wait to drive; only five days (almost 1am) left!

Probably the letter has arrived in London, quietly waiting to be sorted out in a big mail London post office. Probably won't arrive to the building

Visiting school, then Rachel and Stephen!

Bye! Faith.

"Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for...."

cabin fever.

hi!

After a week of working, getting use to a dog who needs constant attention (even now, in the same room, he won't leave me alone on the computer) I need to see my friends!

At this point, Dad wants to get rid of him, while Mom wants to keep him. After church today, Bo chewed Dad's wallet. Dad is tired of moving and hiding everything around Bo. Mom wants to get him a crate while Dad wants to wait till Tuesday when someone offered one.


I think the best family was us 15 years ago. My mom homeschooled Rachel and I, and we never went out a lot. He needs a family around all the time!

Anyway, tonight I see most the gang. Talk to you later!

Faith.

"Hello, Sunshine"

hi!

Well, today was good.

Bo is doing better and work went well. It was crazy at times but it went well!

Kind of the bored at the moment. Toooo excited for the pool party to hang out with Vanesca, Stefanie, and the rest of the gang tomorrow!

I will say.....only 8 more days till driving! Then I will be a busy beeeeeeeeeeee!

Cannot wait to see "The Bourne Legacy"

Probably the letter is sitting somewhere in London; just don't know where exactly. Trying to imagine where it is but having a hard time!

Anyway, I guess I will read "Tender is the Night."

Byez gang---

Faith.

My co-worker almost had an aneurysm......

Hi!

Work went well. Some weird things happened. Stuff I shouldn't say but wow....when someone said something earlier, I laughed but when it actually happened to me...it was different.

Anyway, my co-worker was sooooo upset about how much was ordered! She did a good job putting the cigarettes away. It was funny seeing her whine and complain. But anyway......

It was a good day at work but my goodness, people getting cash 5 like crazy!

Bo seems to be doing better. I found taking him for walks in the early afternoon helps him. I will try as much as possible!

Goodnight and off to read "Tender is the Night"! While you sleep in, I am working 12pm-5pm!

Faith.

Workin, Workin, Workin Day and Night....

hi!

Well, Bo has been doing pretty good today. I took him on a 40 minute walk today but I am hoping my parents will take him on a walk this afternoon so then he won't be so jumpy tonight.

Thankfully, I am working an average 25 hours a week, which is good because the paychecks are nice!

So excited to visit school, get stuff situated, then see Rachel!

I am also very excited to be driving soon! Line Dancing, Zumba, LOFT, and hanging out friends till school starts.

Anyway, I seriously need to get ready for work tonight! I work 2-9. Cannot wait for that paycheck!

Faith.

On My Mind.....

hi!

Work was so-so. My family and I have mixed reviews about Bo. Sometimes, he's great and loving, then other times, he destroys things and won't get off your lap, and howllllllllllll.

I cannot believe the many people today who tried to tick me. I had one lady trying to get free cigarettes with lottery. Another lady wanted a dollar lottery ticket when it's two dollars. My Mom says both ladies do it all the time.

I had a couple come in who got two slushies thinking it's 79 cents, when in reality it added 1.89. He was only going to give me a $1. Other customers get the fountain drinks and slushies confused but my mom thinks they tried to get away with it. He cursed at me then.

When going into Turkey Hill, make sure you know the difference between fountain soda and slushies.

Oh goodness....it's been a stressful last couple days and cannot wait for a pool party this Sunday!

Spending time with Vanesca, Stef & Co will be great! I am sad Janelle won't be there but she gets to go to the beach! Lucky!

Then, lastly on my mind.....since London is five hours ahead. It's 5:31 now, which means, most likely my letter has been there or has just landed. Idk

Here is the processed I figured out:

Leave my post office
Harrisburg or Reading
Philly or straight to NYC
NYC
London-a post office
The Agency's Mail Room (most big places do have one)
Staff reads it

I give it a month until that is all processed then...


Sends to Tom
Writes back;

I'll probably 30 when he gets back to me, LOL!

Faith.

Go On.....

hi!

Well, it's been a stressful two days. Bo has good moments, and not so great moments. He's calmed down and doesn't howl as much but he still sometimes chews on stuff and want to jump in our laps and lick us to death.

Last night, I broke down crying, mostly because I realized how I missed Bear. He's been gone a year and a half now but I know he'd never jump on me, lick me, or try to bite me. He always protected my sister and I, then I felt safe with him. He never was high maintenance and was a great family pet. Maybe my parents and I are in over our heads, I don't know.

I feel better now, especially, since I can now drive again soon. Clean bill of health, but I have to get the whooping cough shot :/ I hate shots! August 19th I will drive! I want to go Line Dancing, Zumba, and hang out with friends!

Well, in other news. I worked 3-11, on Tuesday, and it went well. I work today from 4-9.

I wonder how far my letter has gone to London? I think it takes about one or two weeks. It's Thursday, I'm thinking it will today or has left the United States Already. However, getting to the actual destination, might not be till next week sometime. Until it's read by the staff, it might be a month, then possibly given to Tom in a couple of months....or years, depending on how busy he is!

As for the movie "The Deep Blue Sea" I skipped out on the really bad scene. If you want to watch it, skip 9:00-10:00 minute scene. Actually, if it weren't for that scene, it'd probably be rated PG-13. They do curse from time to time, then some movies will be rated for smoking and drinking.

"Go On" is a new show where a guy loses his wife and needs to go to group therapy. However, he is really sarcastic and doesn't want to do therapy. The last scene, he and Owen decide to chase the Google Earth Car, which the rest of the gang join too, dressing up in Ren Faire outfits. I hope it is as funny as it was last night! Sometimes, shows aren't that funny and fail miserably.

Hopefully, this thunder will cool the mugginess. I will talk to you later! Faith. 

The Deep Blue Sea.....

hi!

Bo is a very energetic dog! Though, the vet tech says it will be two weeks and he will be back to normal. Also, we're getting him a chain because he seems to be content outside. We'll of course, keep him inside if he wants to come in, give him lots of water, and food! He likes cat treats!

Anyway, I sent my letter to Tom. For one thing, it probably won't get there in a month, second, the staff will laugh at it and throw it away, or if he gets it, I'll probably be one of those fans he'll laugh at. I am hoping for a response before I am 50!

Yes, I am completely silly. I know he won't come after he reads it and sweep me off my feet. It's a nice thought but we're so different: He was born in London, age 31, went to Cambridge, and got a degree in Classics. Now, he's an actor loved by all and will probably win an Oscar.

Meanwhile, Faith is a 21 year old American College student, who lives in a small town, works at a gas station, went to community college, going to a small school to become a paralegal, a very introverted job. Plus, I don't think he talks to himself in the third person either.

Work went well today. A rude customer came up and apologized. For the most part, people are nice, but most are in a hurry or sometimes have weird things to say.

Tomorrow, I am at home most of the day, then going to work. I will spend time with Bo and then we're going to try keep  
Bo outside more often. Not all the time. I hope it works out.


I have yet to see "War Horse" I know I'll cry...so one day home alone I will watch it. With a bucket of ice cream and tissues.

Not too thrilled with some of the upcoming films he will be starring in. Let's just say, he's not a Christian :/ but most actors are not and if they are, they only star in Christian Movies.

"The Deep Blue Sea" is a film about a woman who is stuck in a loveless marriage and has a passionate lover.
From what I am gathering, she is in a dilemma between the Devil and the title of the movie. Tom-Boy plays the lover who is a jerk. It was good, but sporadic and sometimes too vague. Also, I feel, Rachel Weitz's character, could have better. I dearly like Tom, but his character was awful to her.

Many times, she brought up her dad. I think he really messed her up when it came to love. A lot of women will go after jerks when their fathers do not care for them or show them love. Thankfully, I refuse to date someone like Freddie Paige or marry someone like William Collyer. Also, Rachel's character name is Hester. I think, in some way, it references to "The Scarlet Letter." I could be wrong though.


Anyway, I am going to try to sleep. You see, I am a little nervous if I do, Bo will start barking, but I am praying he is asleep.

Okay, goodnight!

Faith!

"I give my respect to those who earned it; to everyone else, I am civil."--The Deep Blue Sea.

What An Unexpected Surprise.....

hi!

We're getting ready for "Bo" (our new beagle!). We went to five guys and Walmart, but it rained hard once we were in the latter. However, I ran into Vanesca and Lance, which made me happy. We went through CD's and rambled. Saw Ben H (Stef's boyfriend Sam's brother) a little bit; mostly talked to Lance though. Then my parents saw somebody and we saw people we knew at Five Guys! What is Hamburg?! The Capital of Running into everybody?!

Yesterday, I also found out something! I went to Tom Hiddleston's fb page and he said fans could write to him. I wrote it and no, I did not write "marry me and I will have your babies!" As much as he talented and handsome, he is a person, and a super duper busy person, most likely not a Christian if he's playing a big porn star soon. He'll probably laugh at my first letter to a celebrity.


I am excited to meet Bo tomorrow and send my letter through the mail. I probably won't sleep tonight and I have to work 12-8! Thank the LORD the post office is a walk away! I wish it were tomorrow NOW!

Anyway, off to finish "Tender is The Night" with his voice as the narrator (once I have a boyfriend, I will stop  talking about him!)

Faith.

Human of the Year.....

*update* everything is fine now!

Hi!

Well, today is going so-so. I found Downton Abbey Season 2 on Hulu. Watched the first two episodes. Maggie Smith is amazing!

But the other downside is this: one of my biggest pet peeves is people not getting back to me. I'm (nevermind, WAS) making plans to go to a demo derby at a county fair with Darla, who I don't see very often and Janelle, but the latter, won't get back to me. Nothing, nothing, nothing!!!!!!

A simple, "no, I am sorry I cannot do it" will be sufficient. I don't understand people......

I shouldn't be mad at her. But I've tried to contact every way possible. I'd understand if there was a problem, but this unlike her.....

I hope I get it over soon....

by the way, we're getting a puppy....well he's a year old beagle named Bo! I'm kind of nervous. We have to go shopping for him because we got rid of our dog stuff....

anything else? Well, work is going mostly well but sometimes it can be frustrating. Thank goodness not a career.

Okay, bye!--Faith.

"Human of the year and you have won!"-Regina Spektor!

you know you're a geek when....

you get bored with "Whom The Bells Toll" then start picking back up "Anna Karenina" then re-read Wuthering Heights.

re-watch British adaptions.

you wish those guys were your future man.

Can quote shows like Stargate and the Big Bang Theory

Listening to classical and non traditional music.

Get a gift card and spend an hour in the store not sure what you want because you don't think you need anything.

Gets excited for free books

Try to speak grammatically correct even texting.

Write two books at one time. Even writing a book mocking Twilight and Hunger Games, LOL!

horrible at Just Dance.

Only sport you like is not popular in America!

Likes going to historical places.

Plays 39 clues and Killer Bunnies

Yeah, that's me!!!!!!!! I once took one of those facebook note test about homeschoolers and I am a hopeless case!

Though, you know there's still hope for you when....

you work at a gas station and have people skills

watches shows like dancing with the stars

Likes some popular music

Doesn't like Settlers (sorry Stef, I promise the next time we meet we will play)

I like sports. Basketball, soccer, and gymnastics.

Okay, getting tired....

bye! Faith.

"Too Close....got to be true to be myself"

Hi!

We had lots of fun dancing! Though, we had several disagreements on some stuff, but we played apples to apples, then Janelle and I slept over at her grandparents' cottage/pool house. It has a bedroom, living room, and a small "bathroom" lol!

Then I played with her nephew; he likes me a lot and only wanted me on the trampoline, but I think he likes a lot of people.

Anyway, I cannot wait for school! My parents are driving me crazy! My Mom always disapproves of my dating choices (though she has been 60% of the time) and my dad refuses to change his old ways or other stuff, now, we argue all the time. Cannot wait for people to stop controlling me! Goodness, I am ready to leave now!

Okay, off to work five hours with a parent I am angry at (not dad either)

Faith.

I am trying not to tell you but I want to...

hey!

Tonight is an awesome Just Dance 3 party with a sleepover! So excited!

Anything else? Well, I think my heart is confused. Hopefully I can unconfuse it.....

I work tomorrow night, and it's going well so far. Getting all the stuff done at the job.

"I think I'm fallin for you....."

Okay, finishing packing, possible read more Wuthering Heights (for the upteenth time) and....

...that's all folks!

Faith.

"I'm blue da ba dee da ba die..."

hi!
It hasn't been the greatest known morning in my household.

My mom's completely stressed over the fact the manager is not the most competent and most people want to work days, no nights! I don't mean third shift, but till 11pm shifts. Plenty of morning coverings but sadly, no people till 11pm.

Also, I'm going to an early crisis. I realize I am going to school, probably getting my real estate diploma, going to Paris and India, but what about afterward? Where am I going to live? Will I have a boyfriend/fiance? What's next?

I shouldn't worry about it but I am have a serious fear of dating. I realize I don't want a boyfriend but what if I want at one say at 25 but no guy is available? Do I hit the panic button?! Do I listen to the clock that haunts me sometimes?

People tell me you're never ready and people say at one point that you're ready; some people also tell me The Dark Knight Rises has a great plot and other people tell me it lacks plot. Who do I call? My mom? My friends? Ghostbusters?!

I need to pray and let go, as the bible (paraphrasing) "what's the point in worrying? Tomorrow will worry itself out"

Okay, need to find something to calm myself down! I keep saying I will finish "Anna Karenina" but I will finish by September because then, the movie comes out!

Faith.

A Lucky Charm

hi everyone!

What a busy week! Between phone calls, work, sleepover overs, movie nights, and just dance 3, I've been one busy girl!

Work was a nightmare on Thursday. First, my mom had to work 3rd, then I was left by myself for 15-20 minutes with a long line, then people yelled and cursed at me! I only teared up a little bit but calmed down.

A guy came in with roll of quarter and I thought my mom told me they had to count them. He got ticked, left, and didn't get his prepay gas. Thankfully, I was in the right. Ironically, he came yesterday, acting happy and wasn't upset to see me working.

Yesterday went a lot better. For one thing, there were more people working too. That helped a lot. A lot happened yesterday. One person told me my name was pretty, another guy tried to flirt his way out of getting carted by saying "Faith, we're the same age" which I am a little older than he is. But it was entertaining.

This regular came in, kept losing, but he was convinced I was his lucky charm. He won $4 but he lost most of it.

Then I did the cooler, filled fresh coffee which I accidentally combined regular and decaf, but thankfully there were two other cups of coffee. Things are getting better.

I work 29 hours this week (including yesterday since it goes Friday-Thursday) the only day off I have is Wednesday, where we are having a Just Dance 3 Wii party and playing Settlers, even though I suck at it.

Anything else? Well, there is this really cute and polite guy that I keep forgetting to look at his credit card to see what his name is. He gets beef jerky, and a energy drink. Soooo nice and always waits for me. The third time I saw him, I immediately smiled at him. It was stupid, but he makes me happy on the inside. I haven't seen him in awhile, but due to the fact I HAVE to work Sunday (my mom could not find anyone else) I might see him then.

Okay, bye!

---Faith.

$30 on pump 3, ma'am

hi!

I worked for only two hours though. Sometimes I feel like I'm improving, then other times, I feel incredibly stupid. Especially with lottery and cigarettes. I'm getting better at it, but I do get frustrated with myself. Cash register, a breeze!

Today, there were several nice guys. One guys helped me with scanning the items. So nice, handsome, and covered in grease, lol.

Then a military guy told me "$30 on pump 3, ma'am" he was handsome too. He had a silly last name too (won't say it, but it was quite silly) oh, I hope he comes back again.

In other news, there's a series of books and a TV series called "Murdoch Mysteries" I want to get. I am going to get my ears pierced and hopefully, go to the library. I am tired of paying $9.99 for books. Oy, can't wait to drive!

In other news? I need to pick up "Anna Karenina" again, finish, but I probably won't see the movie because of the major stupid scene.

Okay, bye---!

----Faith.

Worked. Hard. Enough.

hi!

I worked last night with my mom and another co-worker from 4-9. It went very well and I learned other things to do. People kept thinking I was 16 instead the big 2-1!

Hopefully, I will pick up more hours. So far, I only two or three days next week! The nice thing is though I don't use lots of gas $$$$

I've pretty much ended things with Bobby. I realize, he's not that into me. He doesn't want to call me or even meet me. Sadly, another guy who leads me on.

He's off to grad school and lives in NJ.

I want the next guy to pursue me. It's exhausting for me to pursue a guy.

Anyway, I am content with my life now. I have a wonderful family, wonderful lady friends, and above all, wonderful Savior. I love my life!

---Faith.

In its time....

heyyy!

Well, I had a wonderful day with Vanesca. We went to Applebees, where I had the yummiest Chicken Penne, chips with Spinach dip, and sizzilin apple pie!

We stopped by Lance's, then we out for ice cream. Tiramisu + Nutella = perfection!

I need to get ready for work....4-9 with mum! haha, let's see who doesn't set the place on fire ;)

Okay, bye!---Faith.

Greater Love.....

hiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Today was amazing! Jonah the show was funny, creative, and amazing! At the Country Table, I had the grilled Reuben with onion rings and a HUGE piece of Apple Pie :).

To describe today, it would take forever!

I had an amazing time. I am so blessed with many friends and family.

This morning in devotions, (got back in the swing again) I read John 15: 13-15, and it says:

 "Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you."

It's amazing to know even when other people's friendships come and go, you always are with the LORD. That's an amazing thing!

Tomorrow for lunch, Vanesca is taking me to Applebees. Awesome spinach dip, and awesome apple pie. Hopefully, line dancing later on :)

Okay, bye!

---Faith.

Five Months Later.....

Hi!

If you would have told me five months ago that I was going to hate Kohl's, leave, and go to Turkey Hill, I would have laughed at you! Especially the part where I was going to go to Turkey Hill.

I have to admit, I am a little nervous because of the class, but at least I am working three days this week. Most likely about 13-14 hours this week, but it's start, then my mom says I will work anywhere from 25-29 hours!

Though, I am not going to the beach with Vanesca, Lance, and Jason, my mom offered to take me to Ocean City, NJ in September. I am sooo excited for summer. Sooo excited and nervous about Central Penn. Turkey Hill, eh, not so much, LOL!

Want to get this class done and over with, because tomorrow, I am off to see Jonah! I am starting to warm up to that name. I love the names Adalia and Althea too. The recent novel "Veil of Pearls" her original name was Althea, but changed it to Adalia. I would have preferred the other way around but it still works. As for the name "Morgan" for a guy, eh, so-so. Caroline is pretty; Joy is pretty, but I'd be careful because if you name your daughter Joy and she's cranky all the time, then, that'd be a bad idea. Emerald is an excellent color, but name? Maybe. I like all type of girl names, but there's very view boys names I like. Especially bible names, because people call them by their nicknames all the time. Joe, Ben, Dan, Mike, Josh, Jake, Jon,   Dave, but if I named my son Ichobad, Moses, or Xerxes, then there would no nicknames.

I like Peppy, but you know if I named my daughter what everyone would say? Pepe Le Pew!

I will try to stay with nice names as much as possible. I don't want my daughter or son harassed all their lives because of a dumb name.

Okay, off to get ready for work!

--Faith.

Q&A

hi!

I had a wonderful night. No drama, just good ole Christian fellowship with ice cream!

Since things have calmed down, I feel Post High is being led to the right path. It was great talking to the ladies and most of the guys.

It's been a couple of months of blood, sweat and tears at Kohl's, but finally leaving and starting a new job chapter that's lots closer and will help with gas money, I have peace that only comes from the LORD.

This morning, I asked the LORD to help me to let go of past comments. I am slowly doing so. I will make sure I will pray everyday because I don't want those comments to run my life. Only the LORD

You know lately I have been obsessing with a boyfriend, but tonight's discussion at Post High helped.

1. It's okay to make mistakes; don't be somebody who you are not.
2. Don't run your life around your boyfriend/girlfriend. Have fellowship with other people
3. Lastly, the most important thing is to have your relationship Christ-centered. If it's self centered, then it's going to be a reality shock.

I knew about dating an unbeliever (Bible says not to be un-yolked) and purity. Purity is important to me, but at the same time, whoever I meet, if he has said made past mistakes, repented, and does not pressure me, then I will be okay. The LORD looks as sin as sin. Nothing more, nothing less.

I realize even more I am not ready for a boyfriend. I like the idea of having a guy telling me sweet things, admiring me, but for long term, I do enjoy the freedom and fellowship with friends. Not being harassed all the time. I have many plans; whether or not the LORD changes them, that's up to Him. NOT ME! lol.

I am on a path of becoming a person, who though is not perfect, will be more herself. Praying that I will get to a place where I am completely myself and if somebody doesn't like ir, I will be nice but won't care what they care anymore.

Okay, off to bed, training tomorrow evening!

----Faith.

The smiling music and feel good novels....

hi!

I feel relaxed now. I love jazz music because it's so relaxing. You just swing back and forth, while reading or typing in my case, LOL!

Anyway, I am reading this awesome historical Christian novel called "Veil of Pearls" by MaryLu Tyndall, it's about a young girl who is mostly white but because she's a quarter black, she is a slave in 1811 (you'd hardly tell). She runs away from Barbados to Charleston, where she tries to hide her identity but Morgan Rutledge, a son of a wealthy plantation owner starts falling for her. Haha, I know what you're thinking; oh no, she's falling for him too, but the awesome thing about this novel is about what we are slaved to and how to escape.  Even though Adalia is a slave, she finds peace in the LORD. Morgan, a slave to a boring life with no purpose .

We are a slave to something. Now in America, there is no slavery but people are bounded by other stuff;

I will admit I am a slave to myself. I listen to all of the defeatist voices in my head, telling I am not pretty or smart. Voices telling me I will never go to India or Paris or even to Zion Canyon! Voices telling me I am not worth it.

I might not be worth it in man's eyes, but I know God knows I am! It might sound cheesy but here in Romans 6: 16-18, it says:

"Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey —whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness? But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance. You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness."

I need to let go of those voices, and need to let the LORD's voice be heard!!! I am going to pray I trust the LORD more often because, seriously, has he ever lead me astray?! If it's anybody, it's ME!

Okay, goodnight!

--Faith.

"When you're smilin' keep on smilin' The whole world smiles with you...."-Louis Armstrong

"Ooh Ah!"

Fuego, fuego!

Hi! A song I heard everytime I worked at Kohl's. Now, I have resigned and will soon start my new job.

Anyway, I resigned on Wednesday before we left for Rachel's, then yesterday I was filling paperwork when the manager told me that "your mom (she's ASM) said that Monday night works for you" well, I was supposed to work Monday night 5-9. I'm not surprised that my mom would say something like that, but yet, the manager wants me start ASAP too. I take a class Monday, then my birthday WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on   Tuesday, then I start working on Wednesday at 8am. Yay! A short distance from mah house instead of a thirty minute commute. I know that sounds silly, but it means I don't have to use lots and lots of gas money for 13 hours a week.

So, last night, I turned in my lock and name tag. It felt weird being in the office for the last time. It felt weird I would not go to the breakroom. It's still sinking in now. But I am hoping for lots of hours to help with school and what not.

For my exciting big 2-1 birthday, I am going to Sight & Sound to see Jonah, then go to a local restaurant with excellent food :)

Okay, off to do stufffffffff.....wish it were TUESDAY! Please come fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!

----Faith.